CH XIV

My eyes were puffy and red from all the crying I did. Why couldn't I be like the strong girls out there? Why did I have to cry for every thing that happenned in my life I thought. But this is me. I cry when faced with anything and everything difficult.

I tried to reach Joe and failed. Still went to voice mail. Refusing to be shutdown by the loss I have had to face, I tried to look at the bright side. I had enough put away to support me for 3months and hoped that I could land another gig before it was all depleted. My album was another thing, but I didn't want to get my hopes up for nothing. I had messaged Jonty after landing and saw that he had responded with his usual cheeky jokes as well. He never failed to bring a smile on my face. Again my minds thoughtless thought flew in, that my heart could have fallen for him, but it didn't. I laughed at myself. I was talking to myself. Man am going crazy.