The Cycle Continues

It's pitch black around me and I struggle to recall what happened but when I do, I feel utterly useless and destroyed. Why can't I have a normal life? I know it's a dumb question to ask when at the moment I'm in a lot of trouble. Anyways I slowly open my eyes to reveal I'm seriously in the dark. Literally in the dark, mentally in the dark and physically in the dark. It’s such a complicated thing. I hear a loud crash and then screams but it’s all in my imagination. The house fell and my family went down with it. I’d rather live in the house alone then kill others along with myself. I realize I’m confined to a wooden chair that’s causing major discomfort.