Hunted Dreams

As I felt myself being shook from my deep sleep I wake up to grandpa one of his friends and grandma looking down at me for some reason I can't move my arms and legs as I pull and tug I release they are tied down realizing what's really about to happen I start to panic as grandpa climbs onto the bed and say's " you know the more you struggle the worse it will be for you " I take a deep breath knowing that it's true, and no matter how much I scream and move it will still happen. I start to feel a sharp pain in my legs as the cord hits me over and over again they keep going past my screams what feels like an hour passes and I get flipped over and they all take turns hurting me in ways they knew I would never forget now I know it's about five people abusing me from the difference in hits every few hits I feel a different hand gripping my ass but it's one hand I'm not sure who it belonged to but I could feel they didn't really want to do it or maybe even regretted doing it because they would gently rub my scares or the place that had just been hit. I never saw a face granted grandpa and grandpa kept me blindfolded during these times because they thought I didn't have a right to see I needed to feel the pain in every inch of my body so by taking away my other senses I would have no choice but to focus on the pain they inflicted. Another hour passes and my voice was damn near gone from the screaming blood-soaked sheets and the scares I can feel forming I hear what sounds like one other person and my grandma leave and I know this is the worst part as one of them rips my underwear off I hear someone screaming my name as I scream and try my best to get away it's no use then I feel a sharp pain as I jolt awake I look over at a teary-eyed concerned Warren as I breathe hard still not realizing it was a dream I start to have a panic attack he softly pulls me into his arms and hugs me as close as he can and gently kisses my head whispering sweet nothings in my ear while rocking me back and forth. " Lisa baby are you okay I kept trying to wake you up but it's like you couldn't hear me like you were stuck or something " as I just stay in his arms I nod my head knowing my voice would fail if I tried to talk tears fall down my face before I realize it " I'm so sorry baby I tried my best but I just couldn't get you to wake up you were crying and screaming and I felt so useless because I couldn't save you," he says as I hear the tears in his voice I look up and shakily kiss him deeply as he kisses me back I can feel his guilt melt away as we both pull away he looks away blushing deeply " d-do you want to talk about it baby I'm here if you want to I know you don't-" before he can finish I kiss him softly again and slowly pull away " It was another nightmare about my grandparents I'm okay " as he looks at me as if I just grew a second head " baby you aren't okay you looked like you were in so much pain and I couldn't do anything about it I'm supposed to be able to protect you baby and I couldn't do that " as I turn to straddle him so I can look him in his eyes as I gently grab his face and whipe the tears that are rolling down his face " baby it was just a dream I've had them for many years it's nothing we can stop baby and as far as you protecting me you do that everyday without even relising it but one thing that no matter what you try or what I try this is just something that I can't be protected from it's something that's stuck hopefully not forever but until then I will be okay and try my best to survive and I will have you by my side " as he hug me close I feel him relax and I can hear his heart beat slow down and return to normal as I smile softly I feel myself relaxing and my breathing slowing down I hear him start to hum a little tune to himself letting me know he's drifted off into his own thoughts I hear him say " babygirl you know I love you right I know I put you through so much shit and Im happy you choose to give me another chance to prove this time it's no bullshit and I'm going to treat you the way you should be treated I promise I won't fuck up " as i look up at him I know he really mean it as I softly grab his face " I trust you fully baby I honestly do I always have you just hurt me so much to where me trusting you scared me " as he coresses my face " I'm sorry baby I am and I know what I did hurt you deep and I never meant to hurt you I promise and I will do everything in my power to make it up to you no matter how much it takes" as I softly kiss his hand " I know baby and I'm very happy that you are trying and doing what you can to be here for me with everything that is going on with my grandparents not just now but from the start and I really thank you for that" as I lay my head on his cheast I feel myself relax into his arms as he slowly rocks me as I start to listen deeper to my thoughts trying to prosses what I just dreamt about no matter how many times I have that nightmare it never gets easier to deal with I'm just glad that I have Warren here to help me through it this time