Chapter 19: Old Friendships

I started by dirt bike and headed to Emily and Sam's. I finally got there and parked my bike.

I walked in the house and everyone's eyes shot to me.

"MADDIE" they yelled in unison. They all ran to me and tackled me hugging me and kissing me.

I missed them so much but I just couldn't bring myself to see them. They finally got off me, and then someone hugged me around my waist and out their head on my shoulder. I was Paul.

"Hey Paul." I smiled.

"Hey Mads, I've missed you so much." He smiled still holding me.

"I missed you to." I said softly.

He then picked me up bridle style and walked me to the couch then he sat down and placed me on his lap. He just hugged me burring his head into my neck.

"Your such as softy." I giggled.

He then lifted his head and kissed me on my forehead.

"Hey we need love to." Embry laughed.

So I took turns sitting on their laps as we all talked and caught up.

Then I heard a baby cry. I haven't seen Seth in so long he was probably about 4 months now. So I shot up and ran to his room. I ran to his crib and smiled.

"Hey there my little man." I smiled.

He looked at me and smiled and lifted his hands for me to pick him up. I picked him up and we sat in the rocking chair. he saw the cuts on my arm and touched them his little hand.

"I know buddy, I'm sorry but that's the only way I can relieve stress without hurting everyone else." I said looking at him.

I rocked him and I talked to him about everything about Jake about Yolanda about all my problems. He couldn't say anything back but I knew he understood I was going through something. He then fell asleep and I laid him in his crib. I then walked out and closed the door, and walked back to the living room.

"Jeez, you were in there for at least an hour." Jared laughed.

"I was catching up with my little man." I laughed back.

"Well we are going to the beach if you wanna come?" Embry said.

"Sure I'll go." I smiled.

We were going to bring Seth so I went and grabbed him. We all walked to the beach and set up. I sat down on the towel and held Seth while he slept. The boys went to play football so it was just me, Leah and Emily. We started talking and catching up. I missed them and I apologized about 100 different time for not coming to see them. Emily brought an extra bathing suit and told me to go put it on. So I handed her Seth and took the bathing suit. I went behind a tree and changed. It was a light blue bikini. I didn't like the way I looked in it I was so skinny from not eating. I then walked back to the girls and covered my thighs and arms with a towel. Then I felt someone pick me up from behind and threw me over their shoulder.

"Put me down you punk." I said struggling.

"Only if you come play with us." Sam said.

"Fine I'll play just put me down." I laughed.

Same finally put me down. So it was me, Sam, and Quil on one team and then Jared, Embry, Paul on the other. Sam through the ball to me I jumped up and caught it then I ran to the touchdown line and scored. As we celebrated Paul tackled me with him placing my arms above me head. We were both laughing until he just stopped.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

He moved his hands from my wrists. I sat up and hid them behind my back. Then he backed up looking at my thighs to. It looked like he was about to cry.

"I'm sorry." I said looking down.

He then hugged me really tight and I hugged him back.

"Mads I had no idea it was this bad." He said finally letting me go.

"It's ok no one did." I said wiping his tears.

We hugged again and then returned to everyone else.

"Hey guys wanna have a sleepover at my house tonight?" I asked looking at everyone.

"We all have patrol." Sam said.

"Oh ok no problem." I said turning back.

I heard people talking and my head shot to the edge of the woods. It was Jake and Yolanda, Jake saw us all there and was walking towards us. I quickly grabbed the towel and threw it over my legs and put my hands under the towel to before they got to us.

"Hey guys." Jake smiled.

Everyone said hi to Jake and Yolanda.

"I have to go guys I'll see you guys later." I said getting up.

"I see she's a cutter." Yolanda spat looking at my thighs and wrists.

Everyone looked at me.

"You said you scratched yourself." Jake said walking closer to me.

"What does it matter to you?" I was upset.

"It matters to me because your my best friend." He just kept looking at the cuts.

"Jake I don't feel like talking about this right now in front of everyone." I looked at the ground.

"Why are you scared your gonna cry?" Yolanda laughed.

My head shot up from the grounds and I glared at her.

"Say that again." I spat.

"I said why are you scared you gonna cry." she laughed again.

I looked at her and I punched her right in her face. She fell back onto the floor and her nose was bleeding.

"Why would you do that?" Jake yelled checking on her.

"So what your going to protect your precious little girl friend oh yeah that's right you guys aren't even dating. Oh and I wonder why, oh I know maybe it's because she doesn't love you, she loves Jared.

Jake looked at me confused.

"Oh she didn't tell you did she , she's been dating Damon. That's why she doesn't want a relationship with you. Jake why can't you get that through your thick skull. She doesn't want you and she never will and I'm sorry I was the one to break it to you." I was yelling at this point.

"That's not true." Jake yelled.

"Ok then go ahead ask her." I yelled back.

He looked at Yolanda and she couldn't even look him in the eyes.

"You now you got some nerve telling my business." Yolanda got up.

"Yup because no one else wants to expose your ass everyone here didn't say anything because they didn't want to hurt Jake unlike you. You like to hurt him, you like to play with his feelings. You just love having two guys wrapped around your finger. You never cared about Jake or his feelings, you used him. I'll be damned if I'm gong to let that happen to him. I care about Jake more than anyone else could I've known his since I was 1." I yelled.

"Ok but I do care about Jake" She spat.

" Ok then what's his favorite color?" I spat.

"Easy blue." She smirked.

"Wrong it's forest green." I spat back.

"Who would he die for in a split second?

"What's his favorite band?

"What's his favorite holiday and why?"

"What's his favorite hobby?"

"What's his favorite sport?"

I asked her a bunch of questions waiting for answers.

"I don't know." She spat.

"Exactly you don't know so how could you care about him when you don't even know the basic things about him. He would die for his family in a split second, He doesn't have a favorite band he prefers humming Trible tunes, His favorite holiday is Christmas because he loves getting people things and seeing them smile because he cars about them, His favorite hobby is to fix things, his favorite sport is football. I had tears in my eyes as I finished yelling at her.

Jake looked at me with sadness in his eyes.

"Jake let's go she ain't worth our time." She spat at Jake.

"You know what no, how dare you talk to her like that. She's right how could care about me when you don't know the basic things about who I am. Your nothing but a player and I should have listened to her a long time ago. I lost my best friend because of you. All my problems are because of you. So no I'm not going with you, you can go by your self and don't ever step foot in my reservation again or their will be punishments." Jake yelled.

"Fine but your friend here was right I just like the idea of you and I just used you so." She spat.

I looked at her and punched her again harder than last time. She grabbed her eye and ran.

Jake then picked me up and placed his hands under my thighs and hugged me tightly he even started crying. I missed him so much. I wrapped my arms around his neck.