I Hate that I Love You

A/N - I love all of you endlessly.

Angsty sex this chapter !!

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Author Pov

Tom continued trying to figure out the horcruxes. He had successfully made five now. Two to go...

His mind rushed with thoughts of Violet. Seeing her with someone else made him mad. Enraged even. But he couldn't show that he even slightly gave a fuck. Not when she was off snogging some other dude who barely even knew her.

Although he loved all the attention he was getting due to being single again. He found himself a new girl to fuck every night. But it never made him forget her, no matter how hard he tried. Every girl he hooked up with just reminded him how bad he wanted her back.

He never stayed the night though and never let them in his room unless he didnt feel like going anywhere else and he was desperate for sex.

It normally occurred when his mind wouldn't stop thinking of her. He hated himself everyday, but he learned to turn it off. The missing her, and the happiness he felt when he would spend every waking moment with her. And the loving her.

He did everything for her. He weakened himself for her. Now that she was gone he could finally focus on the task at hand, although he was only doing the whole horcrux thing for her. So he could spend eternity with her.

He fucked every girl that found an attraction to him, made him feel dominant. He loved it. It took his mind off of everything falling around him.

He learned to shut the emotions off. He didnt care who he had to hurt in order to just stop fucking feeling, even if it meant he hurt Violet in the process he didnt care.

He felt good watching her crumble as he fingered Amelia in front of her. Seeing the jealousy cloud her eyes and judgment. He loved to watch her hate him. Cause if she loved him, he would be even more vulnerable than she already made him.

But if anyone were to touch her the way he does. He would never hesitate to rip their heart out or snap their neck right in front of her without feeling a thing.

He knew what was best for her, and that was him. But she hated him, and he loved it.

He walked to the cabinet where Abraxas hid the alcohol. Pouring him self a glass of bourbon. Downing it with one gulp.

He walks into the common room and sees two Slytherin girls eyeing him down as he walks toward them. One was a spicy looking red head with pale freckled skin, who was dressed in a skirt that was way to short.

The other was a dirty blonde who was wearing almost an identical skirt, both were exposing far more skin than necessary.

They whispered each other, giggling and looking at Tom still approaching them.

"Hi Tom.." They said in unison, smiling up at the brown haired boy who towered over the two vulnerable girls.

"Hello ladies - care to come to my dorm?" He asks seductively, eyeing the two girls up and down.

"Both of us?" The blonde responds.

"Unless you would like me to take you one at a time?" He quires, smirking at the blonde Slytherin.

They end up both following him willingly to his dorm.

Violet Black

I had to find Tom. I had to tell him how much I missed him, how I forgave him for everything, how much I loved him, and wanted him. I wanted all of him, I didnt care anymore if he lied.

The pain was too much without him, I tried distracting myself with Leo. I thought maybe I could fall in love with him instead. But whenever I was with Leo the only person I ever thought of was Tom.

I love him. I will always love him. I was willing to do whatever it took for him to take me back.

I knew I was blinded by love but he was all I ever thought about.

I stood from my bed in an instant. "Violet? Where are you going?" Cassie asks softly as Abraxas lay snoring on her chest. She furrowed her brows as she watched me walk toward the dormitory door.

"To find Tom-" I say. And with that I leave the dormitory making my way down into the common room and up to the boys dormitories.

I knock gently on the door that led to Abraxas' and Tom's dorm.

"Tom -" I plead from outside of the door before turning the knob and walking in.

"Tom I - I thought we could maybe tal-"

I look up to find him getting his dick sucked by some random red headed girl while he was tongue deep in another girls throat, running his hands up her breasts.

He pulls away from the blonde who was kissing him, looking over toward me. "Ah, come to join?" He mocks, quirking an eyebrow.

"You fucking disgust me." I say as I begin to head out of the dorm.

He pushes the two girls off him, pulling up his pants and buckling his belt. "Get out." He demands to the two girls. They groan and begin to gather their clothing and head out.

Before I could leave he grips my wrist tightly.

"What the fuck is fucking wrong with you!" I yell as I hit his bare chest repeatedly.

"Shit, Violet what the fuck." He says in between violent hits. He grips onto my tiny wrists stopping me from hitting him any further.

"I fucking came here to tell you I forgave you for everything and  - and to tell you I missed you and I loved you. God, how fucking stupid am I!" I yell, trying to pry my wrists out of his grip. "You- you are a fucking pig. I never should've believed you would change." I say out of pure rage.

"Violet who fucking left who here?!" He yells, tightening his grip on my wrists even more.

Our bodies were incredibly close, his chest barely touched mine as our rage radiated off of one another.

"I was right to fucking leave." I spit, staring into his rage filled eyes with mine. "And god you fucking reek of sex. Fuck." I continue maliciously finally ripping my wrist out of his grasp and backing away.

I try to head toward the door again but found it locked by itself. "Colloportus." Tom murmurs, wand in hand.

"Let me the fuck out now!" I say as I reach for my wand in my back pocket to use the unlocking spell, but it had gone. I frantically search along the ground for it but it was nowhere.

"Looking for this, my love?" He joans, smirking at me and spinning my hazel wood wand in between his digits. I stalk toward him, sizing myself to my full height yet still significantly shorter than him.

"Give. it. back. now." I growl looking up at him as his smirk is still intact.

"Try to take it. Come on baby. " He jokes, lifting his hand high in the air with my wand in it.

I try to jump to grip my wand from his hand but he pulls it even higher. "Aw, come on Black I know you can jump higher than that." He jokes.

I glare at him, we were incredibly close again. I felt his hot breathe fanning against my face. "Tom I am not playing with you right now!" I yell, frustrated.

He smirks and finally hands me my wand back, "I thought you loved to play." He says seductively, eyeing me up and down. "Oh fuck off." I say, glaring at him and gripping my wand.

He inches closer to me as I begin to back up until I hit a wall behind me. He towers over me, placing his hand on the side of my face, cupping my cheek and running his thumb along it. I dropped my wand out of surprise.

"Don't touch me with those nasty ass hands. I don't know what you did to those girls." I spit, but still let his hand rest on my face.

"Don't worry, nothing I haven't done to you a million times." He joans, curling his lips into a small smile as he looked down at me.

"Fuck you." I growl, attempting to push him away from me but he doesn't budge. "I hate you!" I yell, starting to feel the anger boil inside me again. "Fuck. I hate you. I hate you so fucking much it hurts." I continue, clenching my fists until my nails made indents into the palms of my hands.

"I fucking hate you To-"

Before I could finish his lips crashed into mine, in hot, passionate, rage filled kisses. My breathe had escaped my lungs as I abide and crumbled beneath him. He grips my hair gently pulling my head back as he trailed rough kisses down my jawline and down to my neck and covering the old marks that Leo had made. Nipping and running his tongue across the nape of my neck. I take a sharp breathe in as he nips at the sensitive parts of  my neck.

He pulls away and dives back into my lips.

His hands run all over my body, as I run my fingers through his dark brown hair  I pull him closer to me as we make out aggressively. His hands slide down to my thighs gripping them and lifting me up against his torso.

I felt the cold wall disappear as he carried me to his bed. He pulled away for a second so we both could catch out breathes, he began unbuckling his belt. The clattering of the metal made goosebumps form along my entire body as I stared aimlessly at him fiddle with his pants.

"I still hate you." I say as I begin to rip my clothes off. "And I still love you." He says. He takes his wand out of his back pocket before he pulls his pants down as he began leaning over my now naked body.

I felt my cheeks heat as I turned a bright scarlet color at his words.

I felt vulnerable underneath him. "Muffliato" He whispers. I look up at him confused. He smirks as he takes his belt into his hands.

"Lift your arms." He demands. "What?" I ask, still confused. "Just fucking do it Violet." He repeats aggressively.

I obey, pulling my arms above my head. He begins tying my wrists to the bed post with his belt. I gasp as he tightens it around my wrists. "Tom - what - what are you doing-" I ask as I squirm a little.

He ignores me as he finishes tying my wrists up. I shift underneath him, spreading my legs as his hard length rubs against the inside of my thigh.

He leans down, wrapping his hands around my neck and squeezing gently. I feel the coldness of his rings against my throat and his breathe against my neck as he inspects me, noticing all the hickeys Leo had left.

"You make me want to do terrible things to you Violet. Fuck. Do you see what you do to me?" He hissed in my ear. I felt him gently buck his hips into me. I pull against my restraints and my breathing becomes hitched.

I close my eyes, waiting for him to just fuck me.  He runs his spare hand down my stomach causing me to arch against his touch, his hand around my neck still very firmly in tact.

He rubs circles around my clit with his middle and ring fingers as he stares down at me, squirming with pleasure. I buck my hips into his fingers as he slips them in and roughly speeds his pace of pumping in and out.

"You're such a whore." He spits as he tightens his grip around my neck. "I-" I spew out incoherent words.

"You're already so fucking wet. Fuck Violet."

"You're teasing me what do you expect."

He pulls his fingers out and shifts his boxers down so his dick rubs up and down my throbbing clit. "I want you to scream my fucking name Violet." He says as he slams into me.

A loud gasp escapes my blood rushed lips as he pumps violently in and out of me. I squirm, trying to pull away from my restraints to slow him down. "Sl- Slow - Slow down Tom - I -" I moan, I felt I was already close to unraveling.

"What? You can't take it? huh?" He breathes out in between strokes. "You're such a slut. Surely you can take me." He continues maliciously.

I bite my lower lip as the pain in my hips and lower stomach increases. "No - I - I don't want t- to cum y- yet." I say between moans. My walls began to tighten around his cock.

I felt all of him, every last inch pumping in and out of me with such force I thought I might scream.

"Fuck! You feel so fucking good. Ugh! so tight." He groans as he increasingly fastens his pace. 

"Scream my fucking name Violet! I want to hear you beg."

My eyes began to water at the pressure between my legs. "Tom! F- uck! F- Fuck me! Please. Please Tom." I moan out, bucking my hips into him.

"You're fucking mine." He growls, trailing kissing down breasts and finally releasing his grip from my throat and rubbing my breasts in his free hand.

His other hand entangles my hair, pulling my hand back as I arch against his toned stomach.

"Oh - Oh god - f - fuck!" I yell as I drown out the sound of the bed slamming against the wall. His lips curl into an evil smirk as he eyes me down beneath him. 

"Who do you belong to?" He breathes out maliciously. He continues to pump into me. I let out exasperated moans but don't answer.

I was distracted by the amount of pain I would feel later, not only in my hips but my shoulders too.

"I asked you a fucking question." He presses. I wrap my legs around his torso pulling him closer to my body. "Y- you Tom." I gently whisper in between moans.

He smirks down at me, tears gently falling from the corners of my eyes at the pressure. "What was that?" He asks, with venom laced in his tongue.

"You - I - I belong to you Tom. Fuck!"

He leans down placing a kiss on my lips. "Good Girl." He groans out.

"I- I'm com - coming." I moan as I felt my walls tighten significantly around his dick and began bucking my hips harder against him.

He groans as he cums inside me. Throwing his head back in pleasure as he completely finishes. His juices overfill in me, as well as my own. "F - Fuck I missed you." He groans as he pulls out and flops beside me, his chest heaving as he tries to catches his breathe and steady his heartbeat.

I close my legs feeling the juices run down my thighs, smiling at him with a slight sense of comfort and unease at being tied up still. 

"I missed you so much more - now - can you please untie me." I plead. 

He pulls his pants back on and runs his fingers through his hair before leaning over me and beginning to untie his belt from my wrists as he gently kissed my lips repeatedly. The belt created indents and red marks on my wrists. I rub them to ease the pain.

"Thank you." I say as I try to sit up and gather my clothing. But once I stand up out of the bed my knees immediately buckle and I fall onto the wooden floor. I rub my forehead out of embarrassment. "Shit." I mutter.

I look up to see Tom staring down at me from the bed, laughing his head off. "You're a fucking idiot." He joans, gripping his stomach as he topples over from laughing so hard.

"Fuck off." I say, rolling my eyes. He stood from the bed and lifted me up onto the bed again. "Really? I can stand and sit on the bed." I say, annoyed.

"Are you sure about that?" He jokes. I roll my eyes at him.

 He begins gathering my clothing and handing them to me. "T - thanks." I mutter, pulling on my shirt and panties and leaning back against the soft mattress. 

He comes and lays next to me. Pulling me against his warm chest and wrapping his arm around my shoulder. 

I lay my head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat as I trace figures onto his bare stomach with my fingers. "Tom -" I murmur quietly against his warm chest.

"Hmm?" He hums. 

"What does this mean?" I ask, looking up into his emerald orbs as they stared down into mine. 

"What do you want it to mean...?" He queries, smiling at me. I rub his chest with my hand, "I - I want you. I forgive you, I -I just want to be with you again." I stutter.

He strokes my hair, running his thumb along my cheek bone. He studied me before answering. "I love you Violet. I know you didnt think I did, that - that I was just pawning you. But I love you - you make me feel. I have never felt anything like this until I met you." He says sweetly.

I studied his masculine features before answering. I noticed how his green eyes sparkled like Aventurine as he looked down at me. His sharp jawline and his messy curled brown hair that fell gently over his eyebrow bone. How his soft, moisturized, blood rushed lips made me melt when he kissed me. He was simply beautiful.

"I slept with Leo." I blurt guiltily out of nowhere. His eyes darken and he tenses up. I felt his hand grip tighter onto my shoulder until he shoved me off.

"Tom -" I plead, but he gets up from the bed and began pacing around the room, running his fingers through his chocolate locks. 

"Get out." He demands, refusing to listen to what I had to say. I heard the anger through his tone. I look at him with clouded eyes, "You're joking right?" I say as I stay put on his bed. 

"Get the fuck out!" He yells,  his words completely filled with a deranged tone. I stay put.

"No." 

He stalks up to me, standing between my legs as they dangled from his bed. He roughly grips my chin and lifts it to look at him. "Violet - get the fuck out now." He demands again as he violently releases my face and paces the room again.

"No." I say with an attitude. "I am not leaving." I continue, crossing my arms around my chest.

"God you're such a whore!" He yells, still pacing the room. He refused to look at me.

I stand up and walk towards him, "I'm sorry did I not just catch you getting your dick sucked by some random ass girl and you feeling another girl up. You're such a hypocrite." I say, anger once again boiling inside of me.

He stops pacing and looks at me finally. He stands staring quietly at me. Clearly unable to produce words to defend himself anymore. His fists were still clenched as he stood in front of me.

"I'm sorry." He whispers, barely moving his lips as the words spilled out of his mouth.

I walk closer to him, looking up into his eyes. "Sorry, I didnt catch that." I say mockingly, even though I had heard him. I just wanted to hear him say it again.

He clenches his jaw, "I'm sorry." He says a bit louder. 

I lean in, cupping my ear. "What was that. You might need to speak up a little Tom -" I mock again.

"I said I am fucking sorry - God Violet!" He yells. 

I click my tongue and smirk at him, "Well - well, Tom Riddle... saying sorry for his action? Wow." I joan.

"Can we just forgive each other?" He asks, looking down at his feet. I smile at him, "I mean I guess -" I say jokingly. 

He looks back up at me and inching closer to me. He wraps his hand around my waist and pulls me closer to him. "I love you." He whispers before he dives down to kiss my lips. 

I wrap my arms around his neck, pulling him closer and deepening the kiss. "I love you too." I say between kisses. I felt him smile against my lips. 

I pull away, placing my forehead against his. "Did you miss me?" I ask softly. 

He sighs, "Terribly." he responds before leaning down and kissing me again.

We head to the bed, curling up together and talking before we both drift off to sleep. It was nearly 2 in the morning before we both fell asleep.