Oneshot eight, goodbye

Emmy pov

Theodosia is sick with the flu. Daveed had gone out around an hour ago to get her some medicine. He hasn't come back. I don't know why I was worrying. Maybe he got caught in some traffic or went to a farther away store. Moose and luna are curled up beside theodosia while I bought some cold towels to put on her forehead to slow her fever, mose and luna are like her giant protectors and it is so quiet to see them care so much, hopefully they'll do the same for our our boy. The phone rang in the other room, and I sat down the things I had brought in and went to the phone, looking at the caller ID. I was confused.

"Hello?" I spoke into the phone with a clear and calm voice, "helo thi is Saint John hospital, we have some bad news," the person said in a somber voice. "Um w-what happened' in my heart i sorta knew what already happened but didn't want to jump to conclusions preparing myself for something i didn't want to hear, "um yes your husband daveed diggs was in a car accident on the main highway a pickup truck rammed into the drivers side. My heart dropped finally hearing what I had prepared for in the moment, I sat the phone back down on the charger hanging up; how am I supposed to tell Theodosia and raise another baby alone?

I walk back into the Dear Theodosia room in the corner of my eye. I see moose and Luna staring. I just look and look at Theodosia, how will she take this? She's only 5 years old. I hear a frantic knock at the door. I go to get it, my eyes welling with tears but I'm forcing myself to keep them down, opening the door. I see Rafa pull me into a hang. "Emmy i saw the news and his car im sorry, you go to the hospital i'll stay here and watch Theodosia" he said in my ears as tears came running down my face i've got to pull it together, "thanks rafa" i said as he pulled me out of the hug and looking me in the eyes a star e of conserin and pain.

He went inside and I got in my car and drove off to Saint John hospital where Theodosia was born. I reached the hospital and went inside. When I went to the front desk I got a visitor badge and they took me to his room, but before I went in they stopped me. "Ma'am before you go inside just know there is no guarantee that he'll live past 1 am. The damage cause was too great to fix, and also do you have any problems with panic attacks and any metal isus" she said placing a soft hand on my arm, " no why" i said looking into her eyes holding back the cries and tears, "because we don't want you or your baby to be hurt or for you to have a panic attack just some extra precautions" she said. I say no and go into the room when I see Daveed. My heart dropped the wires and machines hooked to him made me want to panic but i didnt i didnt feel anything, there was no feeling but despair and pain. The hot salty stain of my tears ran down my face.

I sit down in a chair next to his bad and rest my head on his arm it was time i finally said goodbye, "daveed even if you can't hear me but i love you and so does theodosia and our little baby boy you were a great father and an even better partner, i don't know what ill do after your gone but one thing i know is i'm not going to give up on acting for you i'll make sure i'll do my best to live your legacy on as best as i can, i love you" i said as i planned a small kiss on his hand and rested my head on his arm. It's 9 pm they said he'd probably wouldn't last past 1 in the morning. I should have gotten here sooner,but I didn't call to see where he was. I should have cared more. I sat and sat hoping some fairy tale ending would come but only the noise of a loud ongoing painful red beep filled the room with silence, everything stagnant and still, in my head I pleaded for him to come back but my heart told me the truth. The doctors came rushing in and detaching the wires before i was pulled for the room i watched as the lifted a blanket over top of him the sight id wish id never seen, i didn't dare try to push my way back into that room knowing it would only tear me apart more i left to go sit in my car and call some people.

Rafa, his mom, his dad, his brother, my mom, and dad. I decided to break it to his parents first, "um h-hello?" i say trying to keep my composer "hey sweety what's going on" she said back to me "are you with daveeds dad" "yes why what's going on" she said in a tone that only broke me more. "He got in a car crash...he died'' i said, "oh my god um don't you want us to come over do you need help" she said, "uh no ill be fine i can manage i'm not trying to rush you take your time" I heard daveed dad tell his mother to hand him the phone, "hey listen to me were coming tomorrow you shouldnt be alone especially with no one to help you with theo and your pregnant'' he said in a stern voice that made me chuckle a bit i softly thank them and then move on to my parents.

"Hey emmy what's going on making you call this late" she said obviously being woken by my sudan call, "Mom daveed died he got in a car crash" my voice cracked with pain and the static of the silence filled the car until my mother finally said something. "Emmy well be there tomorrow, please don't do anything drastic" she said worried about my safety, "mom i wont i promise, but before you go i just want you to know ill be fine and i've got everything under control" i said as my voice grew weaker and faded before i hung up. I lay back in the seat finally letting the tears and pain seep from my face, I yelled , hitting the steering wheel repeatedly.

"Come on emmy don't let this break you strong you can't let this tear you apart" i said in my head, i start the car and drive home going inside i'm meant by rafa.

His eyes suggested he'd already known the news, so I just looked and then walked away to Theodosias room, I bent down next to her bed and pulled her into a hug. " Theodosia daddy isn't coming home" I said softly as I held her crying.

Later the week

Daveed and her parents came to stay and help her out, she insisted on doing everything and planning. They'd try to help but she wouldn't let them Theodosia got better and along with her parents tried helping her lock everyone out putting up the facade she was fine, the cracks clearly showed her pain, regret, and fear but she hid it to her best ability. She held it in until the last second then she finally lost it yelling, throwing, crying, panicking, no one could stop it but Theodosia calmed her and she was the last thing she had left before she'd gone off the deep end. "It's okay mommy I'm here" she said little voice calming emmy, "i know" she said back hugging her. She was calm.