Chapter 38 (Josephs POV) Oh Well

I shivered a little bit, at the thought of what John had said to me. I knew what the decision that Julia was going to make already, and I did not want to think about that. I knew that she was going to ask to join me in the legion, and honestly, I felt like I might say yes, as I did not want to be alone in all of this.

Sure, I knew that I was going to be in the same part of the legion as my father and uncle, and Padre if I wanted to call him a friend at this point. I rolled my eyes at the thought of that, as I tried to shake off the thoughts that were going through my head, though I did not seem to be doing that good of a job at doing so.

The truth was, I did not want to be alone, and being with a bunch of grown men, felt like I was going to be alone. I wanted to have Julia by my side, as it had not been but less than a few months ago when I had thought that I would never see her or my sister again. My sister was different than her as well, as I was not worried that my sister would follow us if we went in to battle.

Sure she wanted to see what all the training was about, but she would not go against the request of us, and follow us in to war. Julia, I felt like I could not say the sane for her, as I felt like she might try to dress up, and follow us in to a battle. That scared me, as she had not done any training at all, and she would not have a clue as to what she was doing out there.

Not only that, she would be alone, with no one to guide her. I blinked a few times, as I knew that I could not risk that for her. I would much rather just let her join the legion and start her training, than to try to be soft on her, and make her stay at home. She was not one of those women that liked to stay behind when crazy things such as what was happening right now, went down.

I looked ahead of me for a few moments as well, as I saw that John just rolled his eyes at me. I knew what he wanted me to say, as I knew that he did not feel safe with her, or any woman to go in to battle with him. The problem was, he did not know Julia like I did, and he had not got to know her all that well that last few months either, even if we had been in the same air space with her.

I knew Julia my entire life, and she was a bit of a rebellious woman. If some one did some thing that she did not agree with, even if the person was in fact right, she would always go out of her way to do the opposite of them. That was what had me so worried, and at this point, I felt like my decision on all of this had been made.

I let out a bit of a sigh to my self, as I shook my head, trying to shake off all of those thoughts. I was sure that Julia was going to be happy when she found out my decision on this, though she did not know what she was getting in to at all clearly. She was a strong woman though how ever, and I knew that she would battle through it.

I just still was not sure if it was worth risking her life for that. Hell... I was not sure what I was talking about at this point, as I had already made my decision, as I knew that I was risking her life if I decided to not let her join up with the rest of the legion in the very first place.

I continued to follow John, as we were drawing closer and closer to Adrian's home. I was grateful for Adrian as well, as he had given up his entire farm, and all of his food, which to be fair, he could not sell any of it any ways, with all that was going on in the world in the first place any ways.

He did not have to do all of this, and let us stay at his farm how ever. Not just the fact that he had took care of my sister and Julia for the past couple of years, but also the fact that he had also let an entire legion stay on his farm. I knew that he said he felt like he owed a great debt to my uncle, as my uncle had saved his life.

I closed my eyes for a few seconds, as I was not sure as to what was going on with me right now, as it felt like I had a lot of thoughts going through my head all at once. I did my best to try to shake all of it off, as I followed in Johns foot steps, over to Adrian's place, as I was very much ready to head inside and get some sleep for the night.

I felt like at this point, I had made the decision that I would talk to Julia on this some other day, as I doubt that we would go in to battle tomorrow, as I knew that we still had not really started all that much on training the legion. I was too tired to do all that much talking with her tonight.

I blinked a few times, as John then knocked on the door to the house, which at this point I was not sure as to why he even did so, as Adrian and his wife were not usually at the home until very late at night, so there usually was not any one to answer, as Julia and Mariah usually joined them out in the fields during the day.

I looked at the front door for a few moments, as to my surprise, I heard foot steps from in side of the house, to let me know that there was in fact some one in side. I shook my head, as I just stood in this spot on the front porch for a while, as I just let John do what it was that he needed to do to get in.

"It is just me and Joseph... Nothing to worry about, we just got back from the meeting..." John said to the person that was at the front door, clearly. I blinked a few times, as I just continued to look at the farm, not paying any lick of attention to the conversation that John was having to the person that was up front, who was more than likely my sister if I had to assume.

It was a beautiful farm, and I wish that I could have grown up in a place such as this one, rather than grow up in a big city, around a bunch of big crowds of people all of the time. I did not like to be in a big group of people, and it was one of the reasons that speaking up to so many people had been so hard for me.

I had always been an introvert, no matter how many times my mother tried to get me to change that kind of behavior, I still seemed to act that way around strangers. I blinked a few times at the same time too, as I did remember my mother being a bit harsh on me for acting that way when we were together now that I began to think on it even more.

It was almost as if she had seen this coming, and based off of the fact that I had these strange powers, it would not surprise me if my mother could see in to the future. I shook my head at all of those thoughts at the same time as well, as I realized that those were quite silly thoughts, as my mother would have warned us if that were the case.

I then blinked a few times, as I tilted my head, a bit lost at the same time as well. She had never told us about dragons, and she knew that they were real, so would she actually have warned us about them? Now that I began to think about it, I was starting to remember a lot of strange behavior in my mother that I had always pushed off until this point.

I was starting to realize that it was not strange at all how ever, now that I had come to find out a lot of truth. It kind of hurt me that she had not told us about it, but I did my best to just shake off all of those thoughts at the same time as well, as I was sure that she had a justified reason for not telling me, my sister, or my father about them.

I let out a bit of a sigh, as luckily I did not have to think on all of that for too much longer, as I saw the front door to the house open. I blinked a few times at the exact same time as well, as I saw that my theory in thinking that it would be my sister that was at the front door, was in fact correct.

Of course, there would have only been 3 other people that it could have been, and my sister stayed in side the house a lot more than the rest of them, so it made sense as to me thinking that it would be her. I let out a bit of a sigh of relief, to see that my sister was okay as well, as if some thing might have happened to her while I was gone.

I had always been a bit over protective of my sister though, even before we had lost our mother. I nodded to my self, as I was just glad that she was okay, as I looked at my sister for a few moments, and I saw her nod at me and John, as I could tell that she too was also glad that I was okay as well.

We shared a bit of a close bond with one another, which was a bit strange to say too, considering we did not seem to agree on all that much. I smiled at my sister, as she smiled back at me, and then she turned her head over to John, to go ahead and speak to him, as I listened to what it was that she had to say to him at the exact same time as well.

"I hope that went alright for the both of you..." She said at first, as both John and I nodded as a bit of a response to her, to let her know that it had all gone okay. I could tell that John was a bit tired, such as I was, and he just wanted to make it quick, as I knew that he had not slept all that well over the past couple of days too, mainly due to the fact that he was worried about the meeting. I could tell that my sister noticed that he was tired as well, as she was always good at reading people like that. She nodded back to us, and then she finished off what she had started saying to the both of us in the first place, as I listened to what it was the she had to say once again. "Every one else is out taking care of the crops... There are still some left overs last I checked... You 2 get some sleep..."

I looked at my sister once again, and I nodded to her, with a bit of a smile on my face at the same time too. I could tell that she was lonely, and she wanted some one to talk to. I felt a bit bad for her, and I wish that I could be the one that she could talk to, but I was far too tired for me to do so at this exact moment in time.

I then began to realize at the same time as well, that I also was about to let Julia know that she could join the legion, and I felt a bit bad for my sister, as I knew that Julia was the only person that she was really ever able to talk to. Perhaps I could some how convince Julia to stay back, if she knew that I needed her to take care of my sister.

I let out a bit of a sigh, as I saw that all of the sudden, in front of me, John then began to walk in to the house, which it looked to be a bit rude to my sister as to the way that he did it, as he practically pushed her out of the way, so that he could head over to the kitchen, to get some food before he went to bed.

It did not seem to bother my sister all that much, but it did kind of bother me, as I squinted my eyes at John, as I then watched him go in to the kitchen at the same time as well. He was paying me no attention at all, and based off of the look that I saw on my sisters face, she did not seem to be all too bothered by it at all.

I just shook my head, as I figured I should just let it go. There were far more important things that I needed to be worried about, rather than some thing as simple, and as stupid as that. I walked past my sister, as I gave her a quick hug at the exact same time too, as well as a quick kiss on the for head too.

Once I let go of my sister, I saw that she had her head a bit down to the ground, which I was a bit confused about at the same time too. She was normally the happy kid, and she was always positive as well, but at the current moment, that did not seem to be the case for her at all.

I stopped my self, as I was about to head up the stairs to get some rest for the night, but now that I saw the look on the face of my sister, I knew that I could not just leave her hanging like that, as much as I just wanted to go up the stairs, head to my room, and get some much needed rest for the night as well.

I stared at my sister, as I saw her head low to the ground, as I knew that she was a bit disappointed with me. It was clear that I was not doing enough, but it felt like I had my hands full as it was, as I was always too worried about the legion, and trying to look good for them, for me to pay any sort of attention to my sister.

I knew it had her a bit down, and I knew that she under stood that I had it a bit rough as well, but it still did not make her feel any better. I let out a sigh as I held on to Mariah's shoulder for a little bit of some time, as if that was some how going to make her feel any better, as after a few more moments I did in fact finally begin to speak to her.

"I think I did a good job... I wish you could have been there to see it..." I said to her, at first, as I realized that it might have been a mistake at the exact same time too. It was not her fault at all, that she had not been there, and I was sure that she wished that she could have been. I hoped she didn't think I was blaming her for not being there.

I looked at her for a few moments, as I saw that she had her head to the ground still, as I was not sure if it might have hurt her more, and if it might have fed to the flames. I felt a bit bad for it, as I was not sure as to what it was that I had been thinking, before I had spoke to her.

I felt like I needed to say some thing, to at least try to make her feel a bit better, but it was fairly clear to me that I might have said the wrong thing. I too dipped my head a bit low to the ground. It felt like I was just trying to make far too many people happy, and I was clearly failing at it, miserably if I might say so my self.

I let out quite a loud sigh, as I held my hand to the shoulder of my sister, which made it a lot easier for me to notice it when she lifted her head up at me, at the exact same time too. As I felt her lift up her head, I too lifted my head up, as I wondered what it was that she was going to say back to me, and if she might get angry at me.

To my surprise, she just nodded to me, as if she some how under stood all that I was going through, which I knew that she didn't... At least not yet, as she was about to turn 16 very soon, but that was still not 18, and you had to be 18 to get the powers that I had, at least, that was what every one seemed to like to call it, as if it was some how some sort of privilege for me.

I looked at my sister, as I could tell that she was in a fair amount of pain at the exact moment, as she felt alone as well. She had felt alone most of her life, as she had never got to make many friends. I felt bad for her, as she stared at me at the same time too, and she began to speak to me. I blinked, as I was a bit surprised at first, but then I listened to what it was that she had to say to me in the first place.

"It's okay Joseph... I know it has been a bit rough for you, and I know you are under a lot of stress... You do not need to worry about me, just get some sleep, I know you need to get up early in the morning... Again..." She said, as at first I nodded to her, as I was perfectly content with what she had said.

At the last part how ever, I could tell that she was not okay. I felt like I should say some thing to her as well, but I was just too worn out to think at the exact moment. I let out quite the loud sigh, as I then saw her nod her head, as she pointed up at the stairs at the exact same time too, as it was clear that she wanted me to sleep.

I nodded back to her, as I felt like I should just give up at this point now, as I was too worn out to think this through, though I made a mental note to my self, that I should at least stay up til Julia got back, so that I could ask her to speak to Mariah, and make sure that she really was okay.

I felt a bit better knowing that I had that on my conscious as well, as I then continued to go up the stairs, until I got up to the hall way, and I saw through the candles, that my bed room as per usual, was a fair bit down the hall way. I let out a sigh, as I stared down at the ground at the same time too, as I then headed over to the bed room.

Once I was there, I pushed the door open, and lifted my head up, in the hopes that I would some how see Julia there waiting for me. To my disappointment how ever, she was no where to be seen at all. I sighed, as I then walked over to the bed, and I laid down on it, and closed my eyes.

I knew that I should stay up, so that I could tell Julia to make sure that Mariah was okay, but I just felt too worn out to do so, as I was not even sure how long it would be til Julia came back in to the house in the first place. I could not help but start to fall in to a bit of a deep sleep, as it seemed to run out of my conscious at the same time as well.

As I laid in bed with my eyes closed, I said one last thing to my self, which I was not sure what it had even meant at this point, as I was far too tired to even think straight, as I said it out loud, as if there was some one else in the room to hear what it was that I had said.

"Ughhh... Oh well..."