He Lied

I love you, he said

Eyes looking ahead

But mine were wide

I thought he lied

I want you, he said

For me he pled

But I was scared

I didnt think he cared

I need you, he said

Someday well be wed,

But that was hopeless

With my diagnosis

I love you, he said

And I paused with dread

Could I keep refusing

If it was me he kept choosing?

I love you, I said

Though inside I felt dead

I loved him so much

No one could love me as such