Kind of not doing anything

Tuesday, April 27, 2021

10:17

Good Morning dairy I just want to tell you that I bored of living and the Covid even made it worse. I like the kind of stop existing for a moment to find rest and escape this cursed planet that the human had made hahahaha what the f*ck im a talking about. I know that escaping is not the best solution dairy but im just tired of it all even writing this is kind of tiring as well.

A just want to rant something dairy that you may not understand why the f*ck im thinking about this. The word freedom is impossible to me dairy because since birth you don't have any freedom to choose what kind of parents you prefer and what gender you want the most, It's not like I don't like my current family. Then when you grow up your path is predetermine like when you reach 5 years old you start going to school because it is mandatory.

Then you waste your time on school to learn about stupid things that humans invented for many years. After graduating from school majority of the people will start looking for a job because it's the norm and you have to feed yourself to survive, another many years spend on useless things. When you retired from work and don't have anything to do you may start thinking on what you did in your life why did you choose that instead of looking for other path that is outside the norm.

Well it's just my random ranting so don't take it much to hearth. We all choose the majority or instead the majority force us to choose it because this is how society works. Now we don't have much choice in the matter maybe because we are afraid of being different.

Humans are afraid of the unknown only some people are not, for example your circle of comfort you will not go outside that circle because you are afraid of the unknowns that are outside your circle, you don't like outside your comfort zone. How do I explain this it's our freedom to choose what kind freedom we like. Huh I suddenly can't explain it in words something just block my mind and I don't know why, mental block you say no it's different from that. It's like the words I want to say suddenly disappear and the things that I farther want to explain become cloudy I don't know so let me think about it more dairy.

15:50

Well dairy reading what kind of nonsense I write is kind of embarasing huh hahaha. I have a question to ask dairy if you have one wish that can be granted what will it be? What about me you say dairy? Huh, I guess can change your gender freely so you can experience what a man or a woman have to experience in life? Or maybe..

Something like a natural enemy of the human race to appear to change how our life works. That was joke dairy something like that happening is not good.

21:51

I won't say anything unecesary right now dairy so good night and have a pleasant night.