Consummatum est changes volume 1 Call of vahalla beginnings

Right now I have just walked up from me and Tiamats fun last night. But I feel a great pain in my heart it feels like it's tearing me open in fact feel completely empty then I realized while I've been saying all of this I'm completely calm. Normally I would be somewhat shocked but mostly calm but the way I'm saying this is all is like as if it's the most normal thing in existence . All I can say is what the fuck is wrong with me . What am I now am I even still human I say I look at my hands while saying this so calmly . All I can say is have my emotions no it can't be so this is what the voice meant when it would cost . But honestly would I rather lose my emotions or have my girlfriend be tortured and killed in front me while I'm bleeding out on the ground absolutely powerless to do absolutely anything to save her . Plus I say I've also lost my virginity . But I feel so empty like a warmth has been taken from me I feel as my humanity has been taken from me actually I say very calmly. Well let's get to it I start walking towards our drawer and get out the school clothes . They look like normal military uniforms the type you would see in the army. I then start putting it on while I'm about to slip on the shirt . I hear a sudden moan while a cute voice says do it harder they proceeded to yawn. I then realize who this is Tiamat . After him and Tiamats fun last night she probally can't walk and he would say she probably couldn't walk the right way for about 2 months he says . He then walks near the door and says Tiamat later today I wanna discuss somethings with you Tiamat then says what things do you want to discuss I then say some changes with me . She then says this isn't you trying to break up with me she says with a depressed tone I then say no I literally almost died protecting you yesterday so never. I say comfortingly she then says good cause i would end up killing you for it I then say well that's a little bit over the top but I would allow you to slap me 10,000 times . I then walk out of the room Tiamat is already following me shortly we go to class we then go to practice I have practice with you know who Robert gray. I proceeded to kick his ass by using 2 fingers to catch his sword while he was slamming it down on me the floor beneath me cracked. I then said well Robert you're getting better I say with a calm tone and with an emotionless face he doesn't say anything while he looks at me with a terrified face while probally thinking about how I kicked his ass last time. I then let go of the sword and dodged out of the way I then appeared behind him and knees him in the head in midair . He fell unconscious shortly after that. I then landed on the ground softly . With the aura of a enlightened widow protagonist which isn't so merciful and takes out all their foes as soon as they become a problem even slightly. I then went back to my dormitory of where I arrived and then I heard a clicking sound then I see Tiamat I presume you locked the door I say she sites I did jake she says. I then say well what I want to talk to you about is she then suddenly interrupted me by saying your new personality and your new appearance I have already taken notice including with the size of your junior well that's ah. I say with a weird looking face she then says pervert even though she's the one who was perverted I then say I got my changes while I was trying to save you she then says anything else I then start saying also I was just about to talk about the emptiness in my soul and the abyss but I couldn't bring myself to do it she then says so I then say nothing nothing at all I say with a grim face she then says I can tell when something is wrong with you so spill out . I then say honestly you know me to well I then start telling her about everything . She then says I didn't know you were going through this all why didn't you tell me this earlier I then say while scratching the back of my head . Well I thought it was a drag she then says a drag you think being absolutely dead inside and depressed is a drag how idiotic are you that's all she can say before she says look behind you but it's already too late