Stolen Kiss

I might have successfully pretended all confident and took off with a heroic exit in front of everyone but it was all an act, in reality my heart is beating like its seconds away from exploding and i can't feel my hands, face and lips.. lips they were on Faiz's lips couple of minutes ago. I internally screamed covering my face in embarrassment. A month ago If someone told me my first kiss would be faiz i would literally die from laugh but here we are now.

Oh my god what i just did?? Crap! I just kissed faiz in front of them! Godd such an idiotic thing!

No! What you did was needed to done cause i just can't let myself lose!

This is what was going in my head as i take steps downstairs! Finally i came out of my room Thoughts were fighting in my mind as usual. And i locked myself in my room, again! That stupid urge and desire of beating him is not doing me any good here.

So the whole family is back from the wedding and everyone was called in the living area. Servant came to call me minutes ago.

I opened the door several times to downstairs but couldn't find the courage to do it so end up closed it each time but finally 12th time i made it i gather the courage and i came out, walk down stairs.

I saw everyone is already here I'm the last one to arrive. Damn faiz is here and others too i can't look at them. Somehow i'll face the others but how am i going to face faiz? I take a deep breath reminding myself i can't let him know what are I'm feeling inside So just act confident. You fooled them once You can do that again c'mon! I walk closer to them. Faiz was standing next to where grandmother was sitting.

"There she is!" My grandmother screamed in excitement like she was waiting for me.

"Hello everyone. How was your visit and wedding?" I said as i walk past to faiz try to avoid him so i didn't look at him.

"It was fun!" Shabana bhua replied. I stand in a corner

"Everyone was asking about you kids there! You guys should have come with us it was fun." My mother added the details

"Well, we had our own fun." Riaz said smirking looking between and faiz i quickly shot him a death glare and he immediately shut his mouth and dropped that look.

Few minutes passed we all are still in the living area listening about the wedding and im not intrested in it, At All. In that time i was avoiding making eye contact with faiz but i already fail two times.

"Dinner is readh." Our servant came in and announced. Everyone stand up and ready to eat. As the others are moving. Once again my eyes met faiz's i froze there and he didn't move too. Lately a lot of things have happened between us two we met after over an year, we fought, we got engaged, we fought again, we made up, again fought and we kissed. But im totally confused what to feel and how to react about this matter.

He was there looking at me making me feel like hide somewhere "-Sahiba?" Heena shake my hand i quickly replied "huhh?" He start walk to the dining room.

"What huh? I have called your name 10 times."

"Sorry i didn't hear you." I said looking at her

"You didn't hear?" She raised her eyebrows "im standing right next to you. Anyway lets go eat."

"You go, im not hungry."

"Why?? Is it about what happened earlier with fai-"

"No, its not that. Im just not hungry right now I'll have something later." I lied. Obviously im just not feeling having A warm Family Dinner. I cant do that When faiz is around so i chose to skip.

"But sah-"

"Im going in my room. You go eat, bye." I excused myself and i walk upstairs without looking back i didn't wait for heena's reply i just keep walking.

I dont know what is happening right now in my life. Lots of weird stuff that i never imagine.. happened in a week!! In a week my life have became so different i even lost my first kiss. Thoughts were coming in my mind like strom and there's no stoping. Lately ive been thinking alot or maybe overthinking but you couldn't blame me who wouldn't when their life have complete changed in overnight and incidents kewps happening everyday.

I sighed and looked at the scenery in front of me. Ive been looking at the farms for an hour now. The weather is absolutely beautiful The cool breeze is touching my skin i feel little cold. I took the cup of coffee in my hand take a sip.

"I knew i would find you here!" I hear a voice saying in back. Without even looking back i knew who's voice it is.

I stay still where i was standing without reacting. Faiz walk closer to me and start to speak "look i know you don't want to see me righ-"

I turn back "what do you want now?" I paused for a moment he was about say something i didn't let him speak and said "don't. okay? I dont want to listen anything What you did today isn't enough for your ego to be satisfied?

Just leave me alone."

"I have no energy. Lets not do this at least not today.. please faiz"

"Sahi-"

"Fine you won't leave then i will!!" I said and left him standing there and came to my room. Ofcourse I'm angry at him for he did today but I'm also afraid to face him for what i did and what happened between us so i both cases its better to avoid him.