CHAPTER 001.

May 10, 2013

The sweet melody of that song made me feel in the air, I moved my body to the same rhythm of the song, from time to time that chestnut with brown eyes could not help smiling at him.

That's how I was, I openly flirted with Mathias, I was tremendously handsome, I would finish high school in two months and each of us would concentrate on his own, for this reason I wanted to do everything that I could not for some reasons that I will say later.

Brooke, Bianca and I were dancing or as the three of us call it, an ass shake. The boys laughed at the performances of each one, although some were getting fed up with us being on that plan and by that I meant Britney, Blake and especially Bastián.

It was a funny thing to me that I practically studied with the entire generation of the Saabagh family, but unlike Mathias and I we were only friends with the Saabaghs.

"Colette, stop teasing me." He threatens with a warning tone in her.

I smile somewhat cheekily, but immediately I feel that I am being watched, that oppression that I feel behind makes me a little uncomfortable but I ignore it.

"If not, what?"I say putting my arms in the shape of a jar and I get closer to him.

"I don't want problems."

"Problems? What problems are you going to have if I kiss you?" I say something incredulous.

"We'll talk later, not here please." He says and then leaves.

I went straight to my laptop to finish my part of the project, which was very extensive, but as expected of me I had already finished it, what I did not want was for the boys to know that, because I simply did not want to be bothered by being always the smart one from high school.

I stopped playing on the laptop and passed my part in an email to Britney, when she receives it she starts looking for an error, which she never finds.

The afternoon had ended for me since Mathías had hit me, I honestly liked him and he knew it. I wanted to leave at that moment but I would look stupid, everyone here knows that I like Mathias and obviously they saw that he hit me horrible, I get up from the couch to go in search of a Coca-Cola in the kitchen.

"Jane, could you give me a Coke please." She nods with a smile.

Some time later I begin to drink my drink with great pleasure, after a while my bitter favorite comes from behind, that is my dear best friend Bastián Saabagh.

"I take you home? It's late. ”His tone was scathing and annoying at the same time.

I was immediately alarmed, I was angry.

"Yes, just let me see how work is going and we go." I commented without even turning around.

"Your constant flirting towards Mathías bothers me" his voice is threatening". He's my best friend, so get rid of the idea of wanting to have something with him.

I roll my eyes, I can't really be with anyone he knows and he seems to know everyone. He has been like this since we met, I would like to tell him that his attitude bothers me but it would be a mistake because I don't want to deal with his lack of control.

" I'm going to see how work goes".

He nods as I take advantage of that to go a few meters away from him.

To be honest it can be suffocating at times, tiring, but I love this guy so much that I couldn't get away from him. He has been in every moment of my life, he is the best friend in the world, the only one I have, but his jealousy and possession of me is something exhausting.

Lately I only let him be because he gets too upset, no matter how strong he is, I can't let his family see him like that again, I want him to always be well but with my changing hormones they make him lose control.

"Britney, I'm going to check the work one last time." I inform her as she nods.

I read each paragraph carefully, and I look critically at each page, as expected of Britney everything is fine. I linger in the archive for a while until I hear some screams, and I know exactly who it is.

Bianca my friend comes running towards me, desperately.

"Colette, Bastián is arguing with Mathias." Bastián's twin sister says desperately.

I go out in search of the aforementioned, and indeed I find him arguing with his best friend.

"I only know that you do not know loyalty, you are my best friend Mathías!" he yells, as he gets closer to him.

I rush to the backyard of Britney's mansion.

"If I'm your best fucking friend!" he yells staring at him.

That's what I didn't want to happen, I run towards Bastián, I see that he wants to hit him so I get in his visual field. It works because he looks at me right away and his cousins stop him so he doesn't do something crazy, I came up to him taking his arm annoyingly.

"Set aside a good time, now I'll take care of it." I say annoyed.

I haul it out of the backyard and fetch my things, without even letting it go.

When we get to the parking lot of the big mansion I let him go, he just keeps quiet, he presses the switch and automatically the door of his car opens.

I go into it annoyed and quiet, I don't want excuses, much less a reproach. A little over half an hour we arrive at the urbanization where I live, I take my things and open the door.

"Wait!

He sighed deeply when he heard Bastián's scream, but I don't stop because I'm upset and I don't want to say something that later makes him feel bad even though he deserves it, of course he deserves it, even if a decline again would be worse. We have been months without any decline, I do not even want to think if it would happen.

"Please wait." If such a calm voice stops me.

He inhaled deeply which held him for several seconds, and then expelled. I stop in my tracks trying to get some patience, I must be patient with him and let him know anything that bothers me but in a good way, I calmly turn around and look him in the eyes, giving me peace and offering him just by looking at him.

"It's your fault, only yours." I look at him incredulously, but I change my expression to one that doesn't affect him at all.

Why bother with him, if he always blamed me for everything, besides that it helps me to claim him now so that he does not get into my life, if I always let him do what he wanted to be able to reassure him.

"Well, it won't happen again."

"You sound so indifferent that it infuriates me." He says raising his voice. "How many times have I told you no !?" He yells loudly, so much that I wince from the shock.

"Fuck off." I speak loudly, I start to walk without stopping.

I walk with precision, his attitude hurts me, I have never been able to establish a relationship with someone because of him, every time I like a boy he goes out a week hitting himself with these, it is a nightmare, that is why for months I have not gone out or talked to no one, only with Mathías because he is his best friend, but I didn't realize that I was beginning to like him.

You are an idiot Bastián Saabagh.

I feel when they take my arm firmly so much that it hurts from the pressure of the way he grabs me, he turns me around quickly that I don't have time to prevent what happens next.

His fleshy lips press on mine, it is somewhat rustic but somehow it corresponded to him because I could not push it away at once, but I did not enjoy it either.

He stops, his breathing is strong, he was holding back and I don't like that. I look at him carefully, some tears running down my cheeks.

"Bastián I want space, I am also human and I feel like any other, you cannot always come to keep me from doing what I am shouting at you. I want to have a boyfriend, I want to know what the three dates are before kissing a boy, I want to go to the movies and with this I tell you that it is someone very different from my best friend. I love you, but I want you to stop controlling me".

His silence makes me think that he accepts it, not quite but he does. So the weight that I carry on my shoulders has decreased, I feel a little bad about it but you must understand that my way of being is like that, as I understand his.

I like Mathías, and I think he liked it too but I know that he is held back by Bastián's attitudes to being protective of me, but he must understand that at some point I must be the one who has to deal with my problems and sentimental situations.

"Then let me be your boyfriend." He released immediately.