CHAPTER 008

July 4, 2013.

Tomorrow will be my graduation. I will not go either because I must not affect Bastian, what matters is just starting over from scratch in Chicago.

I'm just excited about college, my new life in another state, I will fight for what I want, because my new goal is to be happy and make my parents happy.

I'm finishing picking up everything I have to pack, I also made sure of my father's suitcases. All this overwhelms me but I am determined to fight together with my father at this stage that will not be easy for both of us.

I took my briefcase of the implements that my father bought for when I start my residency in the hospital, for a moment I laughed because there is too much left until that moment arrives, but in the same way I treat him like a baby, he smiled because I am so excited about I already have a white coat and it has my name transcribed.

I hope my father comes down to have dinner, I have made him his favorite dinner, I am totally divided because it turns out that my mother has found out that my father when he was divorced will start dating Gema therefore he did not like him very well, somehow I understand my mother for jealousy because that also hit me, but I know that my father loved Rose, but did not value it, a sad reality but in the end it was because of her.

"She's changed, Lette, but I don't want to keep talking about that." She says finishing her dinner.

"Father, but you really want to start a relationship so fast, you haven't even gotten divorced." I say worried.

He looks at me sad, it is not because of the time because my parents have not been together for a long time, the reason is that I do not know if he can accept someone else in his life, selfish would be the correct word.

"Colette, daughter, I love you but I also want to be happy." He says melancholy.

It breaks my heart that this is happening to us, honestly I am not prepared for so much.

"Father, if you are happy with Gema. That's all that matters to me, that I love you sincerely is more than enough." I say hugging him.

"She is so puritan, it will make you laugh Lette, I will introduce her to you the day we go to Chicago. You will see that they will be friends." He smiles like a child, I imitated him.

"Why do you call her a puritan?" He laughs out loud.

She was even more confused, but I wait for him to calm down and explain.

"Colette you are as innocent as she! You'll see that they will like each other." I laugh, but I'm still in doubt.

When he finishes eating, I take the opportunity to make his bed, my father sleeps in my room and I sleep with my mother Rose, it feels strange to sleep with my mother but it is warm because she always hugs me and she had stopped doing it a long time ago .

Now I don't even want to get rid of her, they are warm that makes me sleep late, the mother's warmth is incomparable but I think Rose is stressed or just tired, I don't know why but I'm sorry. I want to enjoy my mother as much as possible knowing that the loving and caring mother that she is has returned.

"Has your dad arrived yet?" He asks, taking off his glasses.

"Yes, I've been here a while, I gave him his favorite dinner." I say in response.

"Okay my girl, now come to sleep please." He smiled turning off the light.

When I'm in Mom's arms, I hug her tight. This bond that months ago I had stopped feeling is extremely special.

"I love you mom, you are my shooting star." She laughs out loud.

"Your shooting star?" He says emotionally.

"Yes mom, you are my shooting star." I say sure of what I feel.

"You are my world Lette, you and no one else want you to know that." He says fondly.

"I will be the best doctor to be able to have a lot of money and buy you a very big house as you like. "She laughs, agrees to what I say." I will also live with you, I will have a child and you will be with me at all times. Just wait for me mom, you'll see that I'll do great things for you. "

I feel her crying, her chest rose and fell fully, I was sad that this is ending in this way, but I will make her be with me after I can fulfill my promise.

Not only do I love my father, I also love her even though we have our differences, she will always be my mother.

My mother does not take long to fall asleep, so I take advantage of checking my social networks, I have many days that I no longer check my phone, but the pain that my heart still felt was not normal, all my classmates had posted the photos of the great graduation party , now the only thing missing was for the day to come and that moment was already near, just hours they would enter getting ready to receive their long-awaited title. I knew that Bastián was the best average, now he was impersonating me.

I was happy for him, if he was alone, it was not fair but that was life, I would not be the one to counter that law.

I fell asleep soon after, it had been a long day, it had been exhausting but the little moments that I spent with my mom and dad had comforted the night.

But I felt a slight pressure in my chest, I never imagined that the world would take up my breath, and I would not blame it for it. I blame only one person for ruining my life.

I fell into the hands of Morpheus, let him catch me in a deep sleep, I was already being paranoid about things that were only a feeling and I did not believe in those things.