CHAPTER 010

July 5, 2013.

I never thought that this could happen to me, I never imagined that my life would end like this. Everything was a disaster that was already dying and there would be no doctor or some miracle that will save me.

Time is reciprocal, my life now had no meaning whatsoever. The speed now reigned in my being, makes me feel powerful for a moment to be able to avoid his movements.

"For God's sake!" I yelled, my tears were already on me.

An avalanche hit me at a thousand per second, how could I continue with that?

They tried to stop me but it was impossible for them to stop me, my strength grew so suddenly that all the juggling I did not to make them work.

I only know that I got to the dining room and the scene was not gratifying at all, I would have nightmares about it for months, there was blood all over the place, where you will step was that red liquid.

I feel like I'm panicking, my breath is not going well into my lungs, I feel lost and disoriented.

"Oh, this isn't real." I said between sobs.

My hands were shaking, it was useless not to feel so bad and desperate, I was trembling with pain, this was worse than cutting myself a thousand times, because no matter how much it cuts me I could never feel the same pain that I feel now.

I grabbed my hair with both hands, I was delirious and my brain wasn't processing it.

"Get the girl out of here, she's contaminating the scene." I hear the detective say.

But I can't allow it, I must be there, I run to the body and take it. They pull my arms so that I let go of my lifeless body but I don't, they yell at me, they hurt me but everything is useless, because I can't get away and I will never do it.

I feel like my soul is broken into millions of pieces so tiny that it could not be built again, I cry because this must have happened to me, I am not able to live my life without his love.

My face is congested, my hands tremble, my pulse is at a million and all those emotions are suffocating me that I find it difficult to breathe well.

I fall defeated on the ground where the lifeless body is. I see for a moment that some officers want to take me by force but the detective stops them in their tracks.

"Just give him a minute." The two men nodded, they felt sorry for me.

I hold the love of my life with my two arms and I know that my grip may hurt, but I cannot let go of the love that he gave me in life and I cannot assimilate what is happening either. I don't even know if this is real, I just can't stop crying, feeling and above all it doesn't stop hurting.

My heart hurts, my tears don't stop and the worst of all is that I don't want to see reality.

"You don't, you don't curse!" I yelled loudly.

I do it again, I do it repeatedly, I scream like crazy, no matter what they say, I just don't care about people anymore, I don't care about this world, and I don't have the slightest contemplation or any regrets for my voice.

"Sorry for everything, I love you too much and I'm very sorry. I never imagined that this could happen to us, I never imagined that I would have to say goodbye to you, I just know that when I wake up from this damn dream I will hit you like a leech." my body has no strength.

My chest hurt, it hurt so much that I felt like they were opening my chest without anesthesia, it's the same thing that was happening to me at that moment, I raise my head to see if I can get some air because I felt suffocated in this house.

"Who was? Who would do this to you? Why did you leave me? Why didn't you fight to live? Don't you ever care? Did you want to die? My tears fell on my face in heaps. "This can't be happening to me." He held me even more.

From one moment to the next I started to feel dizzy, my body felt heavy, of course I imagined that they had injected me with a pain reliever, I had not realized when they did it but it was better that way, it would be a nuisance if I were to take care of it like a lioness That belongs to me, I see that I am the only thing that wants to be in the wrong place. I'd be lying if you didn't think that way.

But as time goes by, I feel like my body gradually fades away, and the grip on the lifeless body is softer, that's when I feel like they take me in their arms. The man who carries me loaded looks upset, I want to fight but I can't, I want to do so many things but it is a waste of time and strength that I no longer have, from a moment to here I see blurry and that bothers me because the drug they have given me injected it will make me sleep and is what I least want.

I only listen to things without coherence, I do not understand absolutely anything, little by little I am falling into the hands of the darkness that today has become my refuge.

"Goodbye my eternal heaven."