All Rose wanted was a simple way to make money. 

Instead, she got An Hajun, voted the most handsome Kpop idol three years in a row and probably one of the most famous people on the planet. 

Read how Rose embarks on a journey of balancing nerve-wracking work, complicated friendships, never-ending jealousy, crippling burn-out, numerous self-doubts, the ever-lasting urge for perfection and passion as she simultaneously tries to answer one question: 

Does Love overpower all?

Accidentally Assisting

And then, award season finally starts, and I forget myself in the whirlwind of those stressful yet exciting days. 


The boys are performing exceedingly well and winning one award after the other. Not that anyone's surprised. At one point, I almost start feeling sorry for the other hard-working groups because there's no award left for them. 


I'm so busy that I even forget moping around because I'll miss Christmas with my family. It's just one year, what does it matter? My parents will survive without me. There are far worse problems in the world. 


Still, there's a pang of guilt and sadness in my heart as I sit in the waiting with Hajun. YouGe has just rehearsed and is eating some snacks before their performance tonight, happily joking around with each other. It astounds me how they can act so relaxed before a performance in front of thousands of people. I'd be a poodle of nerves if I was in their place. 


Merry Christmas