Mixed Up - (A Song Poem)

Frustrated

Overstated

So much devastation

Need a vacation

So complicated

Feeling so invaded

My body's not mine

My body's not mine

Ever wondered why

When you look on the inside

You wanna find solidarity

But only find intoxicated reality?

Paint a face that's not yours

And no one sees behind the doors

You try to bridge the gap

Then you take all of it back

You wanna get better

You try to be better

You think you're getting better

And then...

It stops.

It takes effort, drive, focus, and sincerity

He provides clarity --- ok but I can barely breathe

You tell me He's here

That I should not fear

He makes hope appear

But be real, my dear

You say that I'm blessed

You tell me I'm blessed

Be grateful, you're blessed

But guess what?

I'M A MESS