Audacity

A massive headache hit me as I woke up. I was in disbelief at what I saw at Rob's home. Is this what he was doing? How long was this going on for? Was it happening the whole time we were together? Why couldn't he just break it off? The questions that I would probably never ask Rob, whirled through my mind. There is nothing I had done that could compare to what I witnessed. I dragged myself out of bed and went to brush my teeth and take a shower. My eyes were swollen and I looked stressed out. I was a mess. A relaxing weekend at home had officially turned into a nightmare. It seems like nightmares follow me wherever I go now.

After my shower, I threw on some jeans with a black tank top, pulled my hair into a ponytail and sat down on my bed. I picked up my phone and saw 46 missed calls and text messages. I guess Rob got my message. I didn't even read his messages or listen to his voicemails. Just remembering the images made my stomach grow weak. I didn't want an explanation or an apology. I didn't want anything to do with him. He clearly wanted more than I was willing to give to him. He would never be satisfied with just me.

A text message from Keno alerted me as I was overwhelmed with my thoughts. "Hey Oshun, just sending you some good vibes. I hope you have a great day", He texted with a smiley face emoji with shades. I immediately began smiling. "Good Morning! You make sure you have a great day too, hun." I sent back with a grinning emoji. "I will now." He replied. Even when he was hurt, he seemed to find a way to be there for me. He knew something was wrong and he would do anything to make it right for me. He always did.

I finally made my way downstairs. My mom was making breakfast and it smelled so good. "I hope you're hungry, because Ihop ain't got nothing on me right now." She teased. I couldn't help but laugh. My mom was really my light. No matter what she went through she always held it together. She was a real super woman. "I am not that hungry but with how things smell in this kitchen I am going to have to force myself to eat something," I smiled. "Oshun! Look! Happy face pancakes!" Tony's excited voice instantly lifted my spirit. "Hey little bro. You better eat up. You gotta keep those super powers in tip top condition! I said, flexing my muscles in my arm. "You know it! He replied, confidently.

Breakfast was such a treat. I hadn't realized how much I missed my family. The energy was amazing. Afterwards, I told my mom I needed to talk to her. She took Tony over to his friend's house so we could have girl time. Tony didn't mind. Video games and toys were his favorite so after he spent time with me, he was more than ready to go be a kid.

My mom boiled some water and made a chamomile and honey tea, which she served with her famous butter cookies she had made earlier. I felt like a spoiled kid. "So mom, you have been my best friend my whole life. I can talk to you about anything." My mom's face looked worried. "Yes honey, you know I am here for you no matter what." "I know mom." The tears started to form and I tried to hold them back but I couldn't. As the tears began to fall, I told her about everything I had seen when I went over to see Rob. I told her exactly what I did, how I felt and that it was over.

"What a birthday gift, huh mom?" "Oshun, I know it's hard but you did the right thing. I am proud of you. Always follow your heart. You needed to see that. You needed to know what you were marrying, honey." The tears began pouring out of my eyes again. This time I was hurt and relieved at the same time. It was the strangest feeling. I knew at that moment it would all be ok.

I didn't go into details about all of the horrific encounters I had while at the University but I told her about Keno. Of course my mom was concerned that I would need to heal after what happened with Rob, but she didn't pressure me to make any decisions right away. After talking to my mom for hours, I decided I would finish off the semester. I felt strong and determined. I am not sure what my plan was but I was going to have to figure it out.

My mom left me at home to go pick up Tony. I didn't mind being alone in my familiar space. The movie on the TV was watching me instead of me watching it as I was drifting in and out of sleep. I heard the doorbell ring. It couldn't be my mom and Tony. Mom would have her key. I got up and peaked through the window near the door. Rob was standing on my doorstep looking like hell. His messy hair fell over his eyes that were hugged by dark circles. His clothes were wrinkled and unkept. "Oshun! Please! Open the door! I can explain! I am sorry." I stood with my back to the door and my eyes closed. I hoped he would go away, but he didn't.

"Rob, it's over. I forced the words out of my mouth, barely loud enough for him to hear. "Oshun, please. Just let me talk to you." I waited a few more minutes then slowly opened the door. "Don't fucking touch me Rob." I said with a glare. Moving aside so he could walk into the house. I walked over to the couch and sat back down. Rob sat on the couch in front of me. "You have five minutes, Rob." I said while setting the timer on my cell phone.

"Listen Oshun, everything just, sort of happened when you left. I had been spending a lot of time at the office and the world over there is different. We all became really close." "Close enough to be fucking a whole team at the same time in your bathroom?" I was furious at how his explanation was going. I suddenly regretted opening the door. The audacity of him. Did he really think he could just apologize and it would be ok?

"Did you forget the part where you were engaged?You know what, I don't even care. It's over! Why are you even here? You asshole!""Oshun, it was a mistake!" "No! Being with you was my mistake! Please, lose my number.I don't want you in my life, Rob." He dropped his face into his palms. "I am so sorry, Oshun. I never meant to hurt you." Rob's muffled words hit me in my chest. He sounded so broken. My heart began aching how it ached when I left his home after witnessing the orgy. Before he could see how his actions affected me I had to get out of the conversation. "It's time for you togo Rob. Now!" He stood up with tears in his eyes and walked out of my mother's house as I closed the door behind him.