14. Keya

The bleeding I had yesterday took a tool and caused me to wake up late.

It’s already eight in the morning when I checked the clock on my night stand, thankfully it’s Saturday and I have nothing else to do today not until lunch. I lied on my bed for a couple of minutes to fully recover from my sleeping state and to think about the incident that have happened yesterday. I have never been so scared in my whole life when I saw blood on my clothes, I blacked out the whole time and so when I finally got back to my consciousness the first thing I asked was how was my baby.

God! I thought I’m going to lose my baby…

As the traumatic incident keep on flashing back on my head it feels like a complete horror thinking that I’m losing the baby. Guess I have already made up my mind after what happened yesterday. I don’t want to lose the baby. I don’t care if the father doesn’t want the responsibility, I’m keeping it.

Speaking of the father, Tyler was there with me last night though. I was so angry at him prior to my bleeding incident because of his selfishness asking about undergoing a paternity test first right before I do something with the baby, specifically abortion. However, it still surprises me that he was the one who sent me to the hospital, bought me groceries and drove me home right after.

He’s a complete asshole but I’ll give him the credit for rescuing me. I guess he cares for the baby somehow, I hope. I caress my still-flat tummy and started to talk to the little humanoid inside. I don’t know why I suddenly felt the urge of doing it but my guiltiness just forced me to do it. Right after last night, I finally have decided to be delicate on this baby and avoid stress as much as possible just like what the physician said.

“I’m so sorry baby.” I started as I rub my belly. “And I’m sorry about your Daddy too. But I’ll promise to take care of you now.”

I stayed on that exact position for a couple of minute right before grabbing my phone again to send Tyler a text. I forgot to thank him last night, well, probably because he automatically rushed to live when I offered him a drink. But at least I have his number now that means he is starting to take the responsibility on this baby.

[Me: Hey! It’s Keya. I forgot to thank you last night.]

After I send the text, I immediately went out of the bed to make myself a cup of coffee on the small kitchen. As I wait for it, I couldn’t help but tap my fingers as I watch my phone screen to light up waiting for Tyler’s reply.

Few minutes passed and still no respond from him, I send him another text.

[Me: I need to tell you something about the baby.]

I bit my nails after I send those texts to him. I’m quite anxious actually.

No longer than thirty seconds, he finally replied. Right! I forgot he only wants me to text him if it’s about the baby. That annoys me! But whatever, this is not about me anyway, this is about the baby. So stop being so difficult self!

[Tyler: shoot.]

[Me: I’m keeping the baby.]

[Tyler: I’ll set an appointment for the DNA test right when I get back.]

[Me: y? Where r u?]

[Tyler: none of ur business.]

Of course it’s none of my business! Why do I even asked him that question? What was I thinking?

[Tyler: wait for my call.]

He added. Urgh! I can really hear his smug voice even on text.

I throw my phone on the bed and settled on the small couch sipping my coffee. The doctor said that I should take some rest today but god knows I can’t do that because I have a job at the station today. I mean, I don’t rest. I study on my free time which is as of this year, doing my thesis. I work at Steve’s diner three days a week and I work on the stations on weekends. I need money, how can I rest?

I know I am not giving the baby a healthy environment but I just can’t drop everything just to rest because I literally cannot do that! I constantly need a money plus thinking about stopping from sending my mom some money might be a hustle for her.

“Keya!” Someone called up knocking on my door so I hurried up and opened it.

Paz greeted me good morning as she walks inside my room holding her own cup of coffee like what she always does every morning. “You’re working at the station today?”

I nodded. “After lunch.”

“Great so you’re free this morning.” She replied yawning. “God! I’m so tired.”

“Did you partied last night?” I asked chuckling a bit.

“The football team throw a huge party at the Gamma Phi house last night to celebrate one of the football quarterback’s birthday. I swear the cops find a hard time shutting the party down.”

“I see.” I commented.

“And guess what.”

“What?”

“Thomas was looking for you.” She said smiling widely at me as she wiggles her eyebrows obviously mocking me.

“As in Thomas Underwood?” I replied in great surprise. “He did?”

Paz nodded.

“Wow. That’s quite a revelation, I thought he doesn’t know me.”

“Why wouldn’t he? You told me before, you guys share the same class sophomore year. And you talked to him last week right?”

“Yeah. But I didn’t think he knows me by name.” I said still completely surprised. “And how come he knows I’m friends with you guys?”

“Yeah, you’re right.” Paz agrees. “Well, I guess you should have more faith in yourself about getting noticed by your crush.”

Yeah, I guess so. I couldn’t help but smile and at the same time feel sorry for myself. Damn! If Thomas knows me and have been looking for me at the party last night there might be seventy to eighty percent chance that he’s interested with me right? But whatever. It’s already too late. If he finds out I am pregnant he surely won’t be that interested with me anymore.

“By the way, what time is your check-up?” Paz asked, she knows I’m scheduled to meet my OB today because I told her before.

“No. I’ve already had an emergency check-up yesterday.” I said, none of my friends knew about what happened last night by the way because I wasn’t able to tell them due to the fact that after I got home last night and after Tyler left I immediately throw myself on the bed to rest.

“Why? What happened?”

I told Paz about what exactly happened yesterday. Telling her that I saw Tyler twice and he rushed me to the hospital himself. I seriously don’t know what to do if Tyler wasn’t there, I seriously thank him for being in there. For sure it was a complete coincidence that we were on the same place together but guess everything just happens for a reason.

“Well thank god for that!” Paz said after I told her that the baby is safe. “Did the girls already knew about this?”

“No. I haven’t told them yet, but I will later today.” I said.

“Seriously Key, if you’re planning to keep the baby. Detach yourself from stress as much as possible. College is already stressful and you’re working two jobs.” Paz started. “The doctor is right, stress is totally not healthy for a growing baby.”

“I know. But I don’t have any choice!”

“What? Is it because you feel guilty if you won’t be able to send some money to your mom?” Paz supplied.

“It’s just that I d—“

“Key, you’re still studying. It’s normal if you can’t still help your family financially. For sure your mom knows that. You have to tell her.”

I sighed because Paz is definitely right. My mother didn’t forced me to support them while I’m still studying. I am the one who put this pressure on myself. My mom doesn’t even want me to send extra money for Kam in the first place.

“But I don’t want to disappoint her.” I answered. “I mean, I’m not ready to tell her yet. Thinking about her crying because I disappoint her crashes me.”

“Well, it’s your decision to make.” Paz said walking towards me and reach for my back and starts rubbing it. “Whatever that is, I hope it’ll make you happy. We’re here for you.”