Chapter 6

In a storm, it's hard to recall the beauty of light. I guess that's why when the bad things happen; we tend to forget the good things. It also applies to when someone offends us, we forget all the good things the person has done for us but we choose to remember the bad things, even if it's just one.

I sat on the couch close to the window. I raised my legs to my chest and wrapped my arms around them as I watched the rain pour into the night.

The sound of thunder boomed across the room. The rain fell heavily. It fell accordingly as if angels sprinkled water from heaven non-stop. The air was thick and smelled like..... what rain is supposed to smell like...Then lightning came out.

The rain, thunder and lightning united in sync. It was as if an orchestra was being performed in the sky.

I watched two raindrops from the window as they raced down to the bottom of the sill. The left raindrop won then the right raindrop came down slowly in defeat.

When my mum was pregnant, the doctor told her she was going to have twins- female twins. She planned to name them Rachel and Ruby since Ruby is the birthstone of July, which is the month we were born.

On the day of the delivery, I came out first- a girl as they had expected.

My brother came out next, to my parents’ surprise. They weren't expecting a boy so they were confused on what to name him.

A month later when the rain fell, my brother kept bouncing in my mother's hands as she carried him. He smiled at the window. He was always happy when it rained. For that simple reason, they decided to name him Rainer.

Oh how he rained! He rained love. He rained happiness. He rained positivity. He rained support. He was a golden child.

My thoughts drifted back to today's teaching. I admit I was wrong to act out like that in class but is there really a God? I looked at the sky again.

The thunder roared loudly? Could this be a sign?

Growing up, my brother and I were baptized as Catholics but we never went to church. My mum would always say "you don't need to go to a building to find the Lord, he's everywhere" but we knew that was just another way of saying "I can't afford to waste any time on Sunday; I have weekly tea parties to organise". My dad was indifferent about the whole thing.

If there really is a God, please look after my brother. I'm begging you

Mary's snores dragged me back to reality.

"You okay?" Annabelle asked. She just woke up. Her voice sounded tired

"Yeah"

She stood up and walked over to me slowly. I shifted for her to sit down

"You'll be fine" she assured me

"I miss him"

"I know"

She rested her head on my shoulder

*flashback*

When Rainer and I were twelve, we watched this cool movie at home titled 'Their Eyes Were Watching God'

As twins, we could feel the same emotions sometimes. We felt different sensations when watching that movie. We cried. We laughed. We cried again. The movie was so pure.

My heart ached for Janie as she searched for unconditional love. At such a young age, we learnt that love only exists in your heart because of that movie. You don't need to find love with someone else. You have to love yourself and know your worth first.

We also learnt the importance of Independence and freedom, for Janie was at her best when she was free.

When the movie ended, I was in tears

"That was prepossessing" Tyler cried out

"What does that mean?"

"It means beautiful, alluring"

"What does alluring me-never mind"

I had a nightmare one night. I tried going to my parents’ room for comfort. I stopped at the door when I heard loud moans and weird noises.

"Oh well" I thought "They're probably wrestling naked again"

I proceeded to my brother's room

"Rainer" I whispered as I came in "I had a bad dream"

I held my teddy bear closer to my chest. He wasn't on his bed. I panicked

"Rainer" I called

"In here"

I walked over to the balcony. He laid on a blanket watching the stars in the sky

"What are you doing?" I asked him

He looked at me and simpered. His eyes twinkled in the moonlight

"What does it look like? I'm watching God"

*end of flashback*

Annabelle and I sat there in silence, looked at the beautiful night sky and guess what we did? We watched God too.