Bowling Regrets

Valentina's POV

It was Saturday and i did not want to leave my bed. Not at all.

i was starting to feel sick about this whole situation. Blake and i haven't talked for two whole weeks.

Which is fine by me cause i didn't care.

That may be a lie.

But i was just not going to think about her again.

Another lie.

Today was the the day Brian and i go bowling. i haven't gone bowling since i was a little girl. i was actually going to pick him up around 12:00 pm. He insisted on picking me up instead but i wanted to drive my jeep.

I was also supposed to be looking for a job, but I've been pretty distracted.

i slowly sat up on my bed, taking a deep breath with my eyes closed. "Today is going to be a good day." i said out loud.

Its always good to have encouragement when you feel crappy.

I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face. I lifted my arms afterwards to smell myself.

I figured i didn't smell that bad, but a little deodorant wouldn't hurt. With that in my mind, i decided to skip a shower.

I opened my drawers up and picked out black sweatpants and a black sweatshirt that says PINK on it.

After that, i slowly put my hair in a ponytail and i was done basically. The only makeup i wore was a little mascara. i felt pretty tired and i wasn't sure if this was the best idea.

I didn't think this was a date, however, it was never clarified. i heard a text notification from my phone and picked it up.

It was Brian. He texted me his address and a smiley face. i texted back okay and grabbed my car keys.

I didn't feel good about going with Brian bowling, but i was going to make the best of it. I even invited Macy to tag along with Brian and me. She was going to meet us there.

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I pulled up to Brian's house sending a quick txt that I'm outside. i thumped my nails up against the steering wheel nervously.

Was this a good idea? Should i tell him that i invited Macy now, or should i wait until we get to the bowling alley and yell surprise?

Brian came out of the front door and started walking towards the passenger's seat. He gave a bright smile that showed off his bright white teeth.

His black hair was ruffled playfully, making him have the boy next door look.

i still wasn't sure about this friendship and what we both had in mind but he was handsome..... i have to give a little credit for that.

Not as cute as Blake though. i clenched the steering wheel and boxed my lips.

i hated thinking about her, but she was constantly on my mind. i didn't see her and Taylor much together at all during school, but Blake seem like she didn't want to talk to me regardless.

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The side door opened and a whiff of strong cologne started to suffocate me. I mumbled a hi to Brian as i rolled down the windows.

"What are you doing, its like 50 degrees out here," Brian said instantly wrapping his arms around his chest.

"I haven't felt the best so the cold air is helpful," i lied.

Brian nodded and smiled.

I pulled m jeep in reverse and pulled out of his driveway.

As i drove, I kept quiet while Brian talked about what kind of music he liked and its nice that we can hang out after school together.

I nodded my head not fully participating in the conversation.

When Brian took a breath, I decided to tell him about Macy.

"But why did you invite her? It was supposed to be about us." Brian said. And i could tell by his tone if he didn't like Macy or it was something else.

I shrugged my shoulders, "I thought you guys liked each other, besides it'll be fun." i said trying to convince myself a little.

"I do like Macy, she's cool and all but... i thought this was going to be about us. I thought we could spend some time together."

i glanced sideways at him and back on the road. The steering wheel was tight in my hands, as i tried not to show i didn't want to be here.

Before i could speak he added quietly, "like a date."

I could see hi turning to look at me. i stared straight ahead, my eyes glued on the road.

"Well i thought we are just friends." i responded, " That's all i wanna be right now."

I noticed he didn't say anything. Instead, he looked out the window and mumbled a quick okay.

I wasn't sure why, but it seemed like every time i talked to him, i just never feel happy. I just felt pitiful.

Speaking of pitiful. he was looking out the window all sad and pouty. His face starred out of the window, the wind blowing through his short black hair.

I didn't want to say something i might regret, so i decided to keep my mouth shut.

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As we arrived at the bowling alley and i parked my jeep. i got out and looked around the parking lot, hoping to see Macy.

After a few seconds of not seeing her i decided to go inside with Brian.

It was pretty quiet inside and smelled like burgers and fries. i felt a nudge and looked towards Brian

He was starring at something by the locker rooms.

I followed his eyes and saw Macy. She was standing behind the vending machine looking towards the bowling alley, clearly hiding from something.

Brian looked just as confused as i was and i decided to go see what was wrong. As i walked behind her i could see her nervous face as she clearly was scared of something.

I tapped her shoulders, making her jumps and let out a squeal.

Her hand flew to her heart, as she caught her breath. "Valentina! Its you! You scared me!"

Brian was right behind me, and he gave me the what the fuck ? look.

"What wrong with you?" i asked. And i wasn't sure whether to be nervous and scared too. i just wanted to go home. The feeling of regret just became way bigger.

Macy pointed to something around the vending machine.

I followed her hand in the direction it was pointing and saw the school's favorite green-eyed monster.....Blake.

She was sitting next to Taylor, Zane and few other people i didn't know. They were laughing , bowling and were eating pizza.

I still didn't understand why she seemed so scared. i didn't want to seem like a bad friend but i just wanted to leave everyone here, run to my jeep and speed off.

Brian groaned from behind me.

"Maybe we could go somewhere else?" he suggested. Macy nodded instantly. "I agree we should do that!" i started walking to the exit. "Lets go!"

i stood in the same spot, looking back and forth from Blake and her crew and back to Brian and Macy.

"No"

Brian and Macy stopped walking and looked at me in disbelief.

"Why should we live?" i added.

I watched just as Brian and Macy exchanged looks.

"Just because they are here doesn't mean it has to ruin bowling for us. "i said, hoping they would agree. I looked over to Blake and she was laughing really hard along with Taylor.

I instantly felt jealous.

Brian was the first one to speak up.

"Fine but we bowl the farthest away from them." He said, sounding irritated.

Macy nodded slowly, still not feeling convinced. She was shuffling from foot to foot.

Trust me, i wanted to leave right away too. But i am not going to run away again.

My heart was beating wildly in my chest while we walked to the counter to get bowling shoes.

I didn't dare look back at Blake and her crew. I was planning on avoiding eye contact the entire time.

We paid for two bowling games, grabbed our bowling games and began.

After a while of being super stiff. we started to loosen up and we actually had some of our fun.