character analysis

HAY GUYS!!! How are you? Ummm... I haven't updated the story much because I have midterm exams. These days are really stressful. 5 more days of torture and I am free!!! Let me tell you a tragic story. 3 days ago, we had a geography exam. For the first time, I was relieved that we had a geography exam because the other subjects were tougher. Geography used to be one of the hardest subjects but now, we have physics, chemistry and bio instead of just science and trust me PHYSICS was... hell. There were so many formulas and things to memorise. But thankfully, the exam wasn't that hard but... I hope I at least get a B. Anyway back to the easy geography exam, the exam was in google forms(basically something created by google that the teachers can make a question out of, it can also be used for surveys). I was typing ahead and choosing the corrects answers then my pinky hit ctrl instead of shift and then I pressed W and guess what ctrl+W = closing the tab. Chrom is supposed to give a warning before closing but it did not for some reason and with the tab went all my answers. I was also in the last question!!! The exam started at 9 am and was supposed to end at 12 but I was ALMOST finished at 10:15, thankfully the teacher understood and gave me 15 minutes extra. I had to re-type all the broad questions and the MCQs and fill in the blanks. Around 1:30, the students started leaving which gave me a panic attack. I increased my speed and only 2 students along with the teacher was left, and soon after 12 pm, everyone left except for only 1 student. The teacher could not find her name in the list of people who submitted, so the teacher looked and looked until she found it. I would have cried if she left and that's what happened. And guess what? the teacher did not even know I had to re-type it. I just wanted to give up but I kept on and FINALLY, I was at the last line. I finished it and told the teacher. She said something that almost gave me a heart attack. She could NOT SEE one of the broad questions!!! And then she said, oh there it is.*sigh*. I left and wanted to thank the student who stayed behind but I did not because I was too tired. She did not stay behind for me soo... I was not required to thanks her but I did. Tomorrow is math exam, soo I did not have to study much(because math is super easy for me and also no one forced me to study and today is a holiday). That's why I am writing this. you may wonder why I am not just typing the actual story, well that's because, Ummm... I know what's going to happen but if I write the story, whatever I write would be crap and totally down to the basic facts, in other words, not fun to read(not saying whatever I write are fun to read but you know...). I write my story as if I am writing to a real audience but only my dear friends read them because they ah, fell required to read it?

BY THE WAY, you should read " Playing With The Fire" by @shortcake_devil.Here is the link: https://www.wattpad.com/987553972-playing-with-the-fire-prologue-story-of-evil (if it does not appear as a link then please take the time to copy-paste it in google, you can try the comments I will post it there too). She is one of my best friends and a way better writer than me. The helped me a bit in the room of darkness, well a lot of help. She's the one who told me to write a story here. The plan was that we 3 best friends (I, @shortcake_devil and @nuzhatsefa ) were each supposed to write a story but Sefa ended up not writing anything. Devil wrote other books too but not in Wattpad.

Did you notice that in our story there are three best friends and we are three best friends together? Well, that's because the K trio is based on us. Although in real life Devil and Seefa were older friends, in the novel the character-based of Devil and me are older friends. Can you guess who is based on who?

Tsuki is based on Sefa

Keiki is based on Devil

Katsuke is based on me.

I say based but the characters are really just parts of me mixed with only some characteristics of them. Devil is an ambivert but Keiki is a full introvert like me, well not fully an introvert, I took a test suggested by Devil and I got 30% extrovert. And my personality type is Intj while devil's one is INFJ and Sefa's personality type is INFP.) Katsuke is a mix of me and what I would like to be, so katsuke is kind of a perfect character. anyway!!!

Tsuki is a social introvert. She is awkward around new people but very friendly and comfortable around her friends. She is an optimist but she only wears a mask. She hides her true emotions of sorrow and pain and not to mention guilt, the guilt of killing her parents indirectly and her whole clan. She also can be empathyless and just bitterly hates the world, the only good things in this world are Kimito, Katsuke and Keiki.

Keiki is kind considered and mature. She has already learnt to master and tame her emotions, that's why she never goes of an emotional rollercoaster but she too sometimes needs someone to lean on. She wants to build a better world so that a hell-like her past does not get repeated.

Katsuke is a character that gets happiness from helping others. He is kind, caring and a mysterious guy to be honest. Only he knows himself fully. As he is also a character I would like to be, he is just a perfect boy who is very charming. Well, I just asked my friend if I am charming and they said no (IDK what I was expecting them to say) soo ig its a characteristic I would like to have. Okay, so she told me I am filled with positive energy and don't like praising(those two are not at all related but okay), soo ig Katsuke is the same. He is also very easy going and can be very passive-aggressive sometimes. He gets lost in thoughts very easily, but he is a problem solver. He is always there for people who need him. So yeah, he is a character who is a part of me and who I would like to be.

Whenever I talk to people other than my family of best friends, (well they are my only friends so best friend)they seem to not comprehend me as if I am talking in some kind of alienatic language. Like the other day, Devil texted that her problems just reduced in a group chat and we texted.

(sefa)" mine too!!! from ... to 89" and

(me)" mine just increased from 0 to 0.000(an eternity of zeros)1."

(anonymous person) "what's wrong?"

(me)" nothing I meant I don't have any problem"

(devil) "I bet he did not understand you"

(anonymous person)"nope not a word"

(me) "why not?"

(anonymous person) "Because I am an idiot"

(me) " no, it's just me probably. perks of being an introvert"

There were many cases like these*sigh*. I am concerned that you guys don't get me either *sigh*.

Anyways I have spent a lot of time on this silly matter because if you don't get me then... I can't do anything about it.

AHAHAHA!!! Sefa autocorrected to sofa.

I met sefa and became friends and then got separated by different sections, it wasn't that bad because we weren't that close(i some times wonder if we are even close now). I became friends with Devil at std-6 who was friends with sefa and yata yata. let me tell you my friend list

playgroup to kg *had no friends but was friendly with others*

Std-1 (i kind of had a friend ig. We had to write a paragraph on "my friend" but I did not have one so I picked the most popular kid for no specific reason. Coincidentally, he also wrote about me. We never bonded that was the end)

Std-2 to 3 (I had two other friends named Logno and Farhan, our houses used to be kind of close, so sometimes, when your mothers came to pick us up, we used to walk together. The kids used to be in front and talk to each other. And so ig we because friends because our moms gossiped together? sadly logno transferred school in std-3 and I grew apart for Farhan in std-3)

There used to be a bully in std-3 but I rarely got picked on.

I transferred schools in the middle of the year to another school in std-3. The whole year I was kind of alone for my own fault. I was first put in the wrong section(green). The classroom and beautiful with all the project works and all. A guy asked me on the first day if we could be friends and so I accepted but soon in the middle of the first period, someone entered and everyone (me included) stood up. It was the in-charge who took me to another section. The room was like a prison compared to the green section. It was the orange section. There were some ripped projects but there was only one project of the solar system that stood out. It was the best project in both the sections but only one good project was not enough. I told it to someone but that idiot had to stand up and tell the teacher that I liked the green section more. It was awkward. I had no friends in std-3 or std-4.

I was kind of bullied in std-4 and 5 but it never bothered me. I LOVED STANDARD 5 SOO MUCH. it was the best school year ever for reasons if I kept telling then I wouldn't be able to end it. Oh yeah, Devil was the prefect of our class in std-5. People hated her like every other prefect. I was kind of alone for most of the year until I made friends with one of the 'popular kids'. ig he was popular. He was high grades and he was famous among the students. Now that I think about it, he tried to be friendly with me in std-4 but I was kind of reserved and did not want to because be was also friends with one of the bullies. There were only one or two main bullies but almost half the class sided with them, half the class sided with them does not mean the other half sided with me. It was not that intense for me as I mostly ignored them. I was passive-aggressive towards them but then I kind of lowered my aggressiveness and one of the bullying students kind of treated me like the others. It was kind of annoying, the rumours I mean. I wonder how many rumours still there are or were. They all kind of ignored me as I moved towards the shadows of the class. When I graduated to standard six, the bullying completely stopped. I was kind of surprised. Most people remembered it but as a vague memory.But I was amazed by the students from other sections bullied who me when they got the chance. It was as if they were trying to validate themselves by doing so.

I distinctly remember a student who I despised so very much. he was a prefect none the less. And not only once, but he was also elected 2 times as a prefect. In the dispersal time, he tried to do the usual. Aaah yes you might be wondering what exactly did they bully me about. It was my premature voice. I was younger than them, so obviously I would have a kiddier voice than them. They themselves did not have a mature voice. *sigh* those *...* called me a girl. And I was called by an infamous nickname "looser princess". AND MAY I ADD THE DUM A** THAT GAVE ME THAT NAME FAILED IN STANDARD FOUR. It is easier to pass a grade than fail a grade. The exams aren't even that hard (well I get mostly A*s soo yeah... I only get a b is one specific subject other than that A s and A*s. The subject that must not be named(yes yes ik I am bragging like a narcissist))

Any way that two times elected prefect tried calling me a girl in a very harsh manner and tried to make me feel as though I was weird and worthless. I tried ignoring him but he got at it again until someone (the ex-bullie none the less) told him to stop it. I did not need him defending me, it only made it look like I was just a sorry little victim that could not defend himself. None the less I thanked him.

In the disposal time, we stood in lines section-wise until our parents came. The line wasn't exactly straight. The students just formed more of a circle for talking. And of course I was in none of them. And some of them even told me to go away even though I didn't have any interest in joining them. It was so lame. TO THIS DAY I AM PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE TO EACH OF THOSE B*ST*R*s. After 2 years it stopped finally, in std-6.

So yeah I did not have any REAL friends until Devil and Sefa and maybe Samee. And now I am in std 7!!! AFTER RECALLING MY LIFE I WONDER IF I EVEN SHOULD MAKE A FRIEND FROM THIS HORRIBLE OF A CLASSROOM. Thankfully I don't need a therapist. So let me give an advise, if you get bullied, don't let anything that they say and do stick with you. Just remember that they are just mean, pathetic and in some case a liar.

I have a funny nickname now "alien". *sigh* bye

oh one thing, I don't hate those bullies as I HATE, no DESPISE my *&%*& older brother.