VI.
VI.
" what the heck !!".
Jonakyn flinched after hearing her stepfather shout together with the sound of plates smashed again. She is in her room hiding clutching a pillow not creating any sounds that would lead his stepfather to her." Shh everything will be fine shh..". She whispered.
" Open this door you idiot or I will smash this shit and drag you outside!!".
She heard him shout but she's not crying nor screaming for help instead she's just clutching a pillow even her face is void with emotions she slowly opened her eyes." You'll be fine don't worry just be quiet". She whispered to herself.
" Stop it it's not her fault". She heard her Mom.
"Not her fault!! She's an idiot you should've to dispose of this kid to that bastard father of her so she won't be burdening us". She heard him shout
"You shit open this damn door".
She heard her Mom calming her drunk stepfather and now again blaming her for existing in their lives,
Why is she hiding, maybe to save her body from another bruise she's not numb after all and she's not insane to show herself on this drunkard who wants to hit her endless that would be foolish.
" What a life". She whispered then sighed. Jonakyn look at the pillow she's clutching she saw some stains on it and when she check what is it,
It was droplets of blood the pillow was white so the stain is seen.
" oh! I didn't get a bruise but I've got a cut". She whispered while looking at the deep cut in her arms,
the cut Is as big as a 6-inch ruler and it was deep, she didn't know she had this not until she saw the blood on the pillow maybe she got this from that plate smash to her a while ago when her stepfather occurred while they're eating drunk and started smashing things at her. She didn't know she was cut while dodging it.
"How can I hide this". Jonakyn looked at the cut and sigh she went to the bathroom and wash it the wound was still bleeding so she nurses it she was used to doing this after all if not a bruise she would get cut every time her step fathers on rampage she becomes the punching bag or a smashed wall to ease stress and frustrations.
"am I that ugly or does my face says smash me, hit me". She questioned still nursing the wound the noise outside was gone too, she then sighs in relief if she was still that 6 years old kid in this times she would crying her ass out and tremble in fear but as she grows old of all the beatings she got used to it to the point that even if she wants to cry she can't it's like she'd been dried out of tears.
" What excuse could I make for this?".
The question she had been saying ever since whenever she comes to school or to meet her friends she had to make excuses for the bruises she has.
She doesn't like it when people get sad for her or pity her she doesn't want people to burden by her problems and she's used to keeping it all into herself.
After nursing herself and cleaning the pillow she then laid down on the bed and feel the softness of the mattress she felt mentally and physically exhausted making her more sleepy her body must have been worn out of it this must have been too much for her but what could she do about it she was tired but she can't just lay down and sleep forever she still can't.
" I can't cause there are so many things left to do". She whispered before dozing off to sleep.
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" Why are you wearing a jacket in this hot season?."
Jonakyn rolled her eyes at her cousin who's been asking her for the nth time why is she wearing a jacket." Shut it".she hissed she was concentrating not to flinched every time her cousin hits the wound hidden by the jacket she didn't think it would be this painful not until she woke up dizzy and the gauze was soaking with her blood the wound must be deep cause it stings painfully when touched and she also notice some small cuts in her arms she didn't saw it that night and to be able to hide it even if the weather was too hot she chose to wear a jacket the rooms were air-conditioned so she won't be having a problem at it but it would be uncomfortable outside but she has to endure it thou.
"What's with the jacket?".
"Jona are you okay your pale?".
" I'm fine". She answered and just smile at her classmates and sit quietly at the back the class started soon her cousin was also finished asking about her jacket before both of them go to their departments.
She didn't listen to thou she still feel dizzy and the still stings so she chose to sleep instead of listening and she did that to the following classes she had maybe she could just ask to borrow some notes to study and she didn't feel well since this morning and this worsens every minute but enduring this is her forte she can endure it till she can go to the hospital maybe she needs stitches this time she can feel the wounds dripping again and it stings painfully too.
"Don't worry you'll be fine you can do this it's not like it's the first". She whispered she then gets her things and moves out of her last class for the morning it's lunch may be eating could help her have enough strength to endure the pain and the dizziness.
" You okay? You pale". Babylyn asked worriedly as she sits at the table in the cafeteria her cousin immediately looked at her and ask.
" Are you okay? ". Her cousin asked too
She smiled at them and nod." I'm fine ". She answered and started eating she makes it look like she's doing fine to make the two at ease but before she could move away her cousin Anna touches her making her flinched.
" Shit! Your burning ". Anna hissed and continued touching her forehead and her neck checking her temperature.
" am I?". She asked before checking herself and she was burning with fever may be that the reason why she's felt ill a while ago this must because of that wound and the blood she lost she didn't even notice the fever.
" Clinic let's go". Babylyn spoke worriedly but instead of standing, she continued eating.
" what are you doing?". The two hissed.
"Eating". She replied the two were gaping at her now." I'm fine I can handle this". She added.
"But you're burning with a fever!!". Her cousin hissed.
" I can endure it I just need sleep". She retorted.
"Jonakyn!!! Your fever is high you might collapse and look at you, you look so pale you brat!!". Babylyn added.
"All okay..calm down I'll visit the clinic later after this you don't have to worry and I don't have any class later I could just wait for the two of you in the council office okay". She said calmly making the two sigh in relief she need to assure them that she will be alright or this two would cut class and nurse her.
"You make sure to do that or ill spank you, you brat". She laughs after hearing her cousin. After lunch, they bid goodbyes and even threaten her to do what she had to do or they will spank her bratty ass she then laugh and assure the two before leaving.
Jonakyn didn't feel much dizzy now that must be because she eats too much she's now heading to the clinic to ask for medicine even though she didn't feel dizzy she's still burning with fever.
" shit!". She hissed when she hit something hard, she falls on her knees she even used her wounded arm for support so she would not hit her body hard from falling she must be that weak cause even that small impact could make her fall.
"I'm sorry you should've looked where your going your the one who crashes on me and yet your the one who falls". The man spoke.
" I'm sorry". She answered while composing herself she's too weak to stand her wound is stinging and her body felt heavy but she also felt sorry because of crashing on the man who's just standing on the side of the hallway she must have been too ill to notice the man all she thinks was to get to the clinic and ask for medicines so she could already sleep after.
"Are you okay? You look pale". The man asks worriedly she smiled and looked at the man to say she's fine but she was stopped.
" Pres.". The man looked worriedly at her and she can't even utter a word he too closed too vibrant close enough that she can smell his minty breath.
"Hey, Jona are you..shit your burning".
Lucas help her stand and was blabbering but she's too occupied off gazing at him than listening to what he's saying.
What is this feeling? The warmth, the familiarity, and that unknown emotion every time she sees him she couldn't explain it.
" Jona..Jona the medicine". Jonakyn was snapped back to reality as he heard him calling her for the medicine. Lucas didn't bring her to the clinic since it's too far and he didn't think she can make it so he brought her to the council's office and gets the medicine himself even told her to not go anywhere and wait for him.
" wait here okay". He once again said Jonakyn nodded as if she can do that her body felt so heavy and her wound stings so badly too.
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