Chapter 7 : A year of darkness

Like living in a pit of darkness, Chen Li Xue spent her whole one year in depression. It was the part of her life that she would never forget. A whole year of crying for every single night. Thousands of scenarios to commit suicide played in her head. The year that she lived like a walking death.

Everything was started with the first day of Chinese New Year. There is a myth for Chinese that they are not allowed to sweep the floor or sweep the bed. Unfortunately, that day, Chen Li Xue unconsciously swept her bed when she made the bed.

Then, she ended up meeting her run-away brother in her relative's house. There was a big reluctance of her to ignore her biological brother because he had abandoned her several years ago. However, all of her relatives sided with her brother. They blamed her for being ignorant, ingrate, evil and so on.

Thus, it had made her life feel like suck. She was the victim, but they blamed her. She didn't hate him before but she hated them for forcing her to recognize him.

It was years later that her relatives gave up to reconnect the siblings. It was when she told them "I do not wish him to suffer, I also hope that he can live well. It's just that let's not cross our paths in the future."

Because Chen Li Xue didn't need someone who had abandoned her. She didn't need someone to pity her. She had relied on no one that she didn't need someone to act like they cared.

Family matters, love life, academic, friendship, teacher-student relationship. Everything seemed to turn against her in the short span of 365 days.

She thought that things had gotten better when their class held concert. She thought that at least when she seemed to lose Ding Xue Er and Gu Bai Zhi as her friends, she gained other friends, Miao Jing Hua and Lu An Jing.