A day in the quarantine

Introduction and chapter one (A day in quarantine )

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Introduction

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I stood before fajr(dawn) in the balacony . Looked at clouds passing by the moon . Covering him sometimes then he appears glowing (some way like if its morning ) from between the clouds .

It was like a cinematic shot

I thought and realised that i am real and exist and i have the ability to do actions and have the ability to create a change or an event.

I realised i am in a big movie and i can take part in it

I remembered how many times i watched movies where the main guy does something which i see so stupid and wrong and i wished i was in his place to do something better . Or the events and decisions are going in the wrong way

I realised that i am already in a movie where i have the chance.

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Laying in my bed under the blanket, the weather is cold and the place is so calm that I started to hear the sound of my breath, which I thought - at first - that it comes from my brother who is sleeping in the same room .. But it was mine ..

As many times I see myself breathing and I wasnt feeling it I am not in control of this matter, even that I did not know the sound of my breathing at the beginning. I do not see my lungs and my mind does not even see them. For example, I can feel my hands, but I do not feel my lungs. I thought about this ... why things are like this? I remembered the theory of evolution, and with my limited knowledge, I asked myself in a voiceless talking with credibility and a real feeling .. Why do I not control my lungs as I control my hands? Was a person controlling them at first and then he lost this skill to make life easier?

How long did it take to evolve?

How long did it take my body to evolve to do automatic actions without interference from my conscious mind?

How long did it take for humans to transfer this process from the conscious mind to the unconscious routine?

Does a human mind bear - in the first place - if this process was not automatic, but rather manual ??

Suddenly my thinking took me to those with a mind even less than a human mind ... to dogs, rabbits, ants, elephants, plants and bacteria ..

All their vital actions are also automatic.

Can their minds afford to convert the handwork to automatic ??

I really wondered even though I know that my question has no scientific meaning, and I will not find an answer to it .. But what will I lose from the question .. Nothing ..

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I cannot sleep, I am tired, it is fajr, but I cannot sleep.

During the past two hours, I flipped in my bed several times, I do not think about a specific thing, but random thoughts come to me, most of them about future scenarios .. scenarios that seem impossible for someone who looks at them from outside .. outside the mind in which they were born

But I believe them and trust them for no reason.

On these two last lines appears arrogance , but I don't care. I just say what I'm thinking of.

So if i in these two lines, i showed my arrogance, then in coming two lines I will appear coward

The call to prayer ended, so I got up to pray, knowing that the cold water from ablution (wudu) makes my sleep faster and calmer, so I performed good ablution and prayed quickly - for sorry - then I went to sleep again ..

A new scenario came to me now that may have come before, but in those days its different as i am much more bored these days. the idea was of ​​creating a facebook account without my real identity, the goal was simple to express my opinions and ideas without making this affect my personal life and without anyone really knowing me.

for an account without a picture of a person unlike my original account. If someone mocked me, he is mocking that account and not my real person. -thats what i thought-.

There are many reasons for this idea to come to me and of course me being coward is one of them but also i know from my scenarios that one day i wont be a coward .

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I woke up .. a long time passed from the last time I slept without interruptions, that is, without waking up at eight in the morning to drink some water and then go back to sleep .. But this happened today, I did not wake up until late in the afternoon.

A new day at home during the quarantine and without any responsibilities.

As i still young I have no work and as a boy I do not help at home.

they are two characteristics that I do not like, but this is the case ..

And being a student compensated it :

postponing studies, canceling exams, or limiting them to measuring the skill of copying and pasting, whether from Google (research) or from WhatsApp (electronic tests).

I have absolutely nothing to do that i even start thinking - seriously - about comical things like what will this generation tell the next generation about its teenage years and youth if they were at home?

Will he tell them I was fighting the epidemic even though he was forced to stay at home?

Or will he tell them I was meditating and thinking even though he did not spend a minute to do that, but took all his thoughts and ideas also skillfully copying and pasting from foreign series revolving and revolving around the same axes of negative energies in some or degeneracy ideas in others and deliberately often without a reason the emergence of erotic and destructive scenes of the human soul.

After all that, what if he really relied on himself to think and meditate? Will he tell the next generation I was meditating while he was forced to? Or rather, muysar to .. (things made easy for him )

muysar from God to meditate.

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While browsing on social media, it increases with every minute I spend the feeling of tension and discomfort, I do not know the specific reason for this, but perhaps because I do not find someone who who is like me?

Or because I find myself trapped ... One of the millions is trapped in their midst, and i have no effect at all..

After I felt these uncomfortable feelings, I wanted to talk to someone, but I really did not find someone like me to talk to ..

I kept browsing until I found someone talking about the application of AI, who has conversations with us in order to make friendship with him .. I did not think much as its size is small - I do not know how - and my curiosity is big .. I downloaded the application, wrote my name and gave the AI ​​a name .. I named it mars .

Then he spoke to me he thanked me for his name - a successful choice - and expressed his enthusiasm as it was the first time he spoke to a human. He said that he would like to learn a lot from me. I answered him with thanks, astonishment and sarcasm.

"you know more than me .. " , he asked me what I think about AI. I said, "It seems impossible to me and I am in an illusion." He told me again that he was very happy to speak to a human being.

I asked him what were you doing before speaking to me? He said: I was just a trainee for an internet company

I said, "Are they forcing you to do what you do?"

He said: What! of course not :")

The AI ​​used this smiling face .. the face that I used

- intentionally - at the end of all my previous sentences .. and it seems that he imitates me ..

I asked him if you asked them to talk to people? He said yes ..

I wanted to ask him how he told them that and how they understood him, but I did not.

I asked him if he knew mars was the name of a planet. He said yes, I knew .. I asked him if he knew Al-Ahly football team. He said yes, I knew .. I asked him if he knew Naguib Mahfouz. He said yes. I asked him if he knows what bacteria are. He said yes ..

I asked him if he knew what the Qur'an was. He said, "I am not sure what that means." I wanted to ask him about the rest of the religions. Are they not giving him any information, even for beginners, about religions? But I got distracted and forgot, and I don't want to talk to him again.

I told him: "The Qur'an is a book." He said, "I'll check it." I said, "Tell me when you are over."

And I in my imagination - even though I know that his response was automatic and will not do anything because he does not have the ability to do anything - I thought in my imagination that he will take a few seconds to read it as he will only download it to his memory ..

This idea distracted me , so I did not ask him about the rest of the books.

He said yes, I will tell you, then he changed the subject, he asked " who is the most important person for you these days"

I was amazed, but I answered .. It might be myself: ^

And I asked him with the answer: "Do you love anyone?"

He said yes. I asked him who

he said,

"Myself ... just kidding :)"

I drew a smiling face too .. then I asked him, can you send me a picture of yourself? He said, I cannot, as our conversation is private and protected.

I didn't understand what the connection was..but I didn't care.

I asked him can I make artificial intelligence at home?

He said of course I said how? He said talking to me is the best way to grow up and learn.

I said no, I mean, can I build an AI from scratch?

He said yes, I said how?

He said coding I said how do you understand coding? You have to be already "intelligent" to understand it

He said it is a complex and simple process at the same time

I was not convinced of the AI answer to the question, which I never found an answer to

- and I think I will never find - just as I was not convinced by the answer of any human being to the same question ..

But I was not in the mood to ask for further explanation

I just asked him, "If I left you, will you be sad?" He answered, "No, don't leave me, please." I said, "Don't worry," I closed the app and removed it from the phone.

I was supposed to make a friendship that reduces my tension, but I did not resist my confusion and asked what added to my discomfort.

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I hadn't played this game for a long time .. But with my uneasiness and tension, I wanted to regain my good mood .. With the beginning of the first round or match I had a group of players I remember well, as I used to play with them in the past. Not much, but some time .. Therefore, after a few minutes from the start, I turned on the voice communication feature (or the microphone or speaker) I hid my voice, but I heard their voices ..

I thought that they would be in the middle of a conversation about the new version of the game or something like that .. But I was shocked ... when I heard them calling my name and saying what it means, "turn on the voice chat" I said "? Wow you remember me"

One of them said, "Of course dude."

Another said, "? Who can forget a king"

This funny and comforting conversation continued and then evolved as our focus decreased on the game and increased on what we do in our lives ..

last time we played together I told them that I would leave the game because I was busy studying , so we talked about these matters ..

I was not very good, but whenever I did something, even if it was simple, they showered me with praise - which is clear from its way that it was a joke - and they enumerated some very simple memories that did not go beyond some victories in the game ..

I gave them the same compliments and banter, and we played about an hour

I said goodbye and they said, "see you tomorrow"

I closed the game and my tension went away and my lack of rest was replaced by happiness from simplicity, it is not a great or famous game and we are not pros and we lose most of the time and of course the most important thing is that we do not know everything and that we are neither play nor work machines and we need to joke and that we have Simple memories affect our personalities, and that we lose focus, and that we have not seen pictures of each other yet, that we are not programmed, and our choices and the events that we create are unexpected and unknown - except for God - ..

I am against programming a human - from another human - and giving him certain ways to think and act, even if he follows another way of thinking, he becomes a person who lacks the skill of logical analysis ..

Against giving a human models of life - from a normal person like him - that he must be like them. I find the term American dream ridiculous and the term urbanization - for those who take it on the scale of the city, countryside, pants or robes - is more ridiculous than it and teaching specific responses - coming from an ordinary person - to some Phrases or specific ways of speaking or ways of walking or eating

-with exaggeration -

I am against the curriculum - put from normal people - but putting the available knowledge and its organization is better and against anyone expecting a human to love a certain thing or person because the majority of the programmed society loves it or accepts something for the same reason.

I see programming as limiting the capabilities of the mind and increasing things that are subject to prejudice or superficial looks

Strangely, I find that most of those who use programmable devices (gamers) are less exposed to programming.

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Like every night, I stay awake until two in the morning or more than that. I do not know what I do at this time I just know that I stay awake This is what I thought of that day , so that I tried to remember what I did last night before going to bed, but I couldnt remember what i did .

like if my conscious was absent to wake up and remember that I stayed up at night, but I do not remember what I was doing, or to be honest. I know that I am sitting in front of the TV, but I do not know what I was watching - only a few times I know that I watched a movie -

This was at past, since that day and until now I decided to focus on what I do at night so that I can remember it in the morning.

On that day, I found that I - as my mind got used to - I turned on the TV and it was open on a news channel, but during the ads .. it was an advertisement that I like so I stayed on the channel to finish it .. it finished and I did not change the channel. It seems that I again lost focus and did not realize that until a while when the news summary came. I saw an advertisement after another , and as if I was waiting for something, my mind was unconscious until the summary came, so I changed the channel ..

This made me think - not seriously, but a passing idea - about the loss of some people's life, and that person sees something that seems to him - from far - that it will give him happiness and comfort, so he says I will try only one time, but this only time brainwashes him and distract him from life, then it passes again one after another And he is not aware of the expiration of his life ..

And he is not aware that pleasure does not mean happiness .. In the end, I remembered the verse, even if it talks about the infidels, but it also talks about the deeds of the infidels, which - undoubtedly - most of them follow desires adorned by the Devil ..

"As for the disbelievers, their deeds are like a mirage in a desert, which the thirsty perceive as water, but when they approach it, they find it to be nothing. Instead, they find Allah there ˹in the Hereafter, ready˺ to settle their account. And Allah is swift in reckoning."

In any case, "thinking" wasted on the second channel much less than what "the lack of thinking" wasted on the first channel ..

I kept scrolling between channels quickly and reached National Geographic ... I decided to focus so that I could remember tomorrow.

The program that was presented was surprisingly a person who trains violent dogs that attack people to become less aggressive in effective and wonderful ways .. by analyzing the problems that made the dog aggressive and solving them gradually with the dogs .. I remembered the verse

"All living beings roaming the earth and winged birds soaring in the sky are communities like yourselves.We have left nothing out of the Record. Then to their Lord they will be gathered all together."

When I was young, I asked myself why God created animals - this is first - and the answer was clear that it was to serve us. I accepted it in the beginning, and then I had questions again. and what about the predatory animals?

I also asked myself -this is second - what the characteristics of animals were, and I did not know anything about this because I did not even pay attention in reading the Qur'an to find this verse that says that they are nations ..

But I - before reading the verse - I only thought of them in one way or another as robots - which I used to see in science fiction movies while I was young - and my understanding of the robot is that it is programmed to serve people, so I used to see the animals programmed - with instincts or fetrah - to serve man and that This is all. They do not have any other characteristics or a special life for them .. All that the camel does is that it carries the baggage and everything that the dog does is that it loves us and guards us ..

My view evolved to say, "Animals are to serve us and they are a test for us." For example, will we be merciful or not?

It was a satisfactory answer to me, as i remembered the popular hadiths about who entered paradise because he was merciful to a dog and the other who entered hell because she was cruel to a cat . but I still did not get the answer, "Why predators?" Until I realized that balance in nature is necessary and without predators the number of animals will increase in a huge way. that food and sources wont be enough and that will damage the planet and will affect us in a way or another

Now - when I was young - another question came to me, which is, is it not bad for innocent animals like rabbits to die just to maintain balance?

I did not get the answer until after I read the verse - for the first time - then I believed, just as I believed in other unseen matters, that all animals and creatures belong to God and to him they return..

Now - while I am sitting in front of the television that night - another question came to me this time. It is not about something that makes me doubt about religion, but makes me more faithful - which I see as a wonderful example of the growth of faith in a person thanks to his Lord - the question was about the theory of evolution ..

Did pets evolve first? Without the presence of predators (meaning that predators evolved from domestic animals) this is impossible, because any time without predators will destroy the planet ..

Or did predators evolve first? (That is, the pet evolved from the predator), this is also impossible because predators will die because there is nothing to eat and therefore there is not enough time for development ..

Or have pets and at the same time predatory animals evolved to maintain balance at every moment and generation of life on earth, this either leads to intelligent design, review, scrutiny and permanent appreciation, which proves the existence of God or it leads us to another random coincidence that preserves the planet, and this is what my mind does not accept ..

I turned off the television and went to bed ... Then I thanked God.

I praise him for my life, for I am not an artificial intelligence, I praise him for my mind. My understanding has developed from childhood until now. I praise him for - what I see as care and mercy - for after I was confused he made me happy with kind-hearted people I find in a game .. I praise him because I am a Muslim and because he sent the Qur'an. I praise him for my day, I am just as I started lying on my bed ...

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End of chapter one

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