Accident

Pov.Asteria

When I finally reached my room, the doors closed. I laid my head against the doors, turning my back to my room.

"Asteria," I heard a voice which made me turn in a snap and left out a ball of power. That power slammed against one of my windows doors making it shatter into a thousand little pieces. I didn't lower my hands in precaution until I saw Emily scrunched up, shielding herself from me.

"Oh my gods, Emily," I ran towards her, checking for any injuries. I could hear the guards running inside my chamber, but I didn't turn.

"Leave," I said in a whisper, but when I didn't hear anyone leaving I relied upon other resources.

"Leave!" I boomed, and everyone scrambled out even Emily jumped in her place.

"I'm sorry," I whispered.

I took her face in my hands, checking for any major injuries, but it was just a few scratches. I didn't know if this was going to work, but it was worth the try. I'm supposed to be able to heal other people, not myself, of course. With my powers changing, I didn't know if it was possible anymore.

With cautiousness, I passed my hand across her face. Her face was healing, but it was healing so fast. I heard Emily let out a relaxing sigh. I got up and walked toward the shattered window.

With a snap of my fingers, the window was back to its previous state.

"I heard what happened today at breakfast," Emily said, grabbing my attention once again. I nodded in response, not wanting this interrogation to go any further. I cleared my throat and turned to see Emily.

"We'll leave when the suns are setting in 4 days," I explained. "The dragons," I pointed out my window. "are always there."

Those dragons could not transform back into a human form, which meant it would be a hell of a fight to get on top of one of them. Only a few were capable of riding dragons, and they were truly gifted.

It was our only option and I would die trying.

"You can leave the castle at any second you want," I said, "that means I'll need you to leave the town and wait for me by the sacred tree." I will not put her in danger.

"Why?" she asked.

"Because I won't put you in danger Emily, I will give you safe and sound to your mate," I told her.

"What about you?" I raised my eyebrows at her words. "What about your mate?" I shrugged my shoulders.

"I don't have a mate, Emily, not anymore," I whispered in the last part.

"What do you mean?" she asked as a tear streamed down my right cheek, I quickly wiped it.

"Nothing that concerns you," I said harshly. "Just think about yourself, don't worry about me," I said, this time a little less harshly.

I had decided that if I ever find my mate I would set him free. Why would I ever put him through all my suffering? Why would he even stay and deal with all my shit? Am I even worth fighting for anymore? Am I worth it?

I don't want to see his disappointed face when he finds out, I'm not pure, not anymore. I started scratching my wrist. He won't even know what he is signing up for. I thought I deserved love, not anymore.

I left out a hiss in pain as my wrist started bleeding. I need to stop doing that. I turned to face Emily once again.

"Emily is important that you do what I'm about to tell you," she nodded in assurance for me to keep going. "Don't trust anyone here Emily, you are too innocent for your good, especially the phoenixes." I lifted her chin to make eye contact with her. "overall never stay alone in the same room as Prince William."

I could see a hundred silent questions in her eyes, but she just nodded. I would keep that innocence intact at any cost.

"Emily, no matter what happens to me, promise you'll run, and never look back. Promise me that you'll find your mate." I know this was selfish, but I won't allow anyone to rip her wings like they ripped mine.

"I promise," she looked at me with worry.

"Excellent, now you need to rest, this will be a long week," I said, as I strode towards the doors and she followed. I turned to one of the guards and ordered to guide her safely to her chambers. When I saw her disappear, I closed the doors.

The memory of her smile made me smile. I remember when I was lovesick with the thought of love. I shook my head. I'm not enough.

Goddess Asteria had set off a dream on me, to be queen and keep my kingdom safe. That when I was to be crowned, touch the stars, and visit the galaxy which was at some point. my home. I guess I was not enough for her, just like for my parents.

I walked towards my closet in search of a nightgown. I put on something similar to last night's, but this one was pink.

I started thinking of Prince William. I guess after a sweet hello there is always a horrible goodbye. I could imagine the light leaving his eyes. There is always a price you have to pay. I'm a slave to my emotions now. And revenge is the number one.

Who will be in more pain? Him or I? Does he think he is smart?

I will make him cry a thousand tears of blood, just like he made me cry a million more. I just can't believe I could be so weak. I will kill that part of me little by little. In the end, we all lie, I will never end up forgetting him. This has been a man's world for millennials. I think it is time for shit to change around here. It just takes time.