The Discovery : Chapter 5
Today I discovered who i was and why i came to be as a person and why he kept me alive for so long. I found a sense of closure for having the feeling of being alone during the millenia. The black plague wiped out my familiars and i was left alone in the dark bearing the pain of sorrow and loss. And now i am set free from all this torment and pain of loneliness. Unknown to me that i have been living away from only one relative i have left in my family. An now im alone and all my kind will rise up against Van Helsing . But is this one and only Gabriel Vanhelsing that grandfather speaks of . Or is it the end of my kind or will we push on to the future? This is the mistery of the ages will i live forever or will i die as trophy for humans to see hung on a wall as a display for there amusement. Ive lived for thousands years and lived a thousands lives over and over . Death follows me everywhere always killing for food these poor humans. When will this end ? How will I carry the guilt as I sleep at night as i see the faces of those iv'e killed. Every day I suffer for my sins yet theres nothing I can do. I wish for death but never being able to find it . Why me? Why? I am supposed to be dead ! Me living to drink from others is not life at all its just pain and torment of heart nothing good comes from pain but will strengthen me to make me strong. Is this my fate why me GOD is this my purpose why JESUS?
Dracula: There is no god boy remember that ive served God and killed in his name yet I lost my beloved Elizabeta . Priest vowed to keep her safe as her being a Servant of God. He took her away from me like a rose that burnt into ashes ! And they call me a devil for not loving him. TAKE HEART BOY !!! HE WILL ABANDONE YOU LIKE HE ABANDONED ME!! No good will come to that boy forget what you know!!!
Where is your God when your beloved Viviene Died did he save her? Did he!! He let her die!! He looks about the world we live and die I give you your life now you spurned me shall I take it ?
I reply: No , but the sorrow is killing me !!!
Dracula: Yes but stop hurting yourself you weirdo and shut up !!! You are a Dracula we cant die!!! The curse is ireversable we die for a while as an illusion but someone we hold dear needs to save us and feed us. Or a servant shall revive us and keep safe from others so we may arise again. And start A NEW BEGINNING IN THE SHADOWS. A vampires life is a life of secrecy you may live with them but stay hidden from there eyes live, feed , love.
"Live forever and don't look back"