June 23rd - Getting Stronger

I skipped the evening meal entirely that night. I was too furious to eat. My stomach was roiling as were my thoughts.

I didn't know how to contact Kane. We never dreamed something like this would happen so we never discussed what to do. I knew he wouldn't stay away. It was only a matter of time before he came back. The thought made me ill. I knew Ishmael was strong, but Lord Alecai was a demon.

This was all happening because I was weak. If I had been practicing my unaided magic more diligently, I could maybe have defended myself against this contract. As it was I had one offensive spell, that was it. The others were locked until I used my system to learn how to cast them unaided. I wouldn't give up though. As long as Kane didn't come back and Lord Alecai believed there was hope of me learning to love him, I would still have time to train. I could still get stronger.