Chapter 1- 002

Two years ago is when I started questioning everything down to my sexuality. Which was when my sister introduced us to her girlfriend, she was pretty ugly. Her personality wasn't though, so that's what mattered. I had started changing my style to more of a full out tom-boy. Big collar shirts with skinny jeans. If I wore a skirt it was with tennis shoes. Yeah, but that was just the beginning of it. I developed a crush on my best friend at the time. Of course I didn't know that, at the time. The thing is, it was pretty convenient too. Cause she was short like to my shoulder short. That's not her fault though. Around that time I started thinking "I'm bi", I was keeping it to myself,I wouldn't dare tell my mother. Only because I saw and heard how she talked about my sister to everybody out of our household. I found it hard to think about, because if you can't trust your own mother to support you then who the heck will? In my opinion when your child come to you so they can confide in you, do you honestly feel the need to tell the whole world what your child told you in private? I just don't get it. She wants to say "you can come talk to me about anything, ok?" next thing you know she's talking about you to your family. Like ma, that hurts. I wanted to tell you so I can know I have your support not your sneers. Would you honestly want to come out if you're still confused on your sexuality, when you already know to don't have the support from the person you want support from? If I'd decided to come out it would've been to that sister I mentioned. She's the one sibling I know for a fact will always support me.