Chapter 10: It's Complicated

Nicole's Point Of View :

Hey there, by the way, I am Nicole Angelie Montes a loving girlfriend of Alexus Dean Smith. Maybe, you already know how much my boyfriend loves me, right? So, no need to say it one by one. I don't know if it's just me being weird, because since I arrived, there seems to be something wrong.

Every move of Alexus seems like he has something to keep so I don't know, and I am curious about it. It's just like this I noticed two days ago since I arrived. Alexus room is weird, smells like women don't know. I don't want to think that he have a woman because I know my boyfriend is not that kind. I know him from head to toe.

"Babe, I have a question." Alexus looked at me anxiously.

"What is it babe?" he asked.

"Those women's things in a closet, whose are they? All I know is that I don't use them."

"Ah, is that it? It's Sofia's. Do you remember Felix's girlfriend?" I nodded. Yes, I remember that girl. She was the one that Felix introduced to me the day I arrived.

"So, why are her clothes in your closet?"

"It's because they all spent the night here. They were Felix, Clyde, and Dylan and then Felix brought his girlfriend with him so according to him, he probably forgot to take it from the closet that I gave her first." He answered.

"Is that so?" I am not convinced by his explanations. There seems to be something really weird, I feel it.

"Babe, I'm coming in. I'll miss you here, if you leave later just call me." Confused I nodded at him. Because of Alexus' actions today, I am even more overwhelmed.

I'll be back in Italy next week, but because of what's happening now, it looks like I'll be able to extend it for another week.

I can't just let it go like this, I don't want to ruin our relationship. I love him so much that's why he belongs to me, he's mine. Only mine!

Five minutes after he left, I decided to follow him. I immediately disguised myself so that people wouldn't notice me. I immediately hailed a taxi then followed his car.

I was surprised because he took a different path. As far as I know, he went straight to his office, but he turned right. I was praying silently that I would feel wrong. Hopefully, I'm just mistaken for a hunch, because I don't know what to do in case it's all true that he has another woman.

"530 pesos ma'am," the taxi driver said after I get out of the taxi.

"Okay. Keep the change," after I reached a thousand pesos to the taxi driver I was riding in, I immediately turned my gaze back to where Alexus was now. He was opposite an unfamiliar house.

My eyes almost widened after I confirmed who the woman was coming out of the gate. It's Sofia, Felix's introduced girlfriend. Wait, why are they hugging? Are they that close? As far as I know, Alexus is not close to women, but what is this?

I was caught in my chest which was now beating so fast. My chest tightened after I saw how my boyfriend kissed Sofia.

They're kissing like a couple. While me? I'm just watching them like a broken mistress.

Yes, it seems like I'm the mistress now. I tried to calm myself down even though I really wanted to chase them. I wanna slap them both..hard.

'Stop it Nicole! You don't cry remember? You can do it.'

Before I could do something I had never done before, I immediately left that place. I can't stand anymore watching them...they're pain in my eyes.

—

"Good morning ma'am, what do you want?" The bartender asked me.

After the incident that happened earlier, I went straight here–at Dylan's bar. It's a miracle and they're not here.

"Give me a hard drink." I said.

"You look familiar, ma'am." He said and it makes me rolled my eyes.

"I said give me a drink!" I almost shouted because of anger.

"Okay ma'am. I'm sorry." My mind is a mess now.

I don't know what I did wrong to make him break me. I thought he's faithful and loyal. Maybe, I was just too complacent that Alexus couldn't fool me. This is how it feels to be hurt. It's funny anyway.

During the time I was sitting here at my table I did not realize that I had consumed a lot of alcohol. I'm laughing at myself now. Like, seriously? Me, being cheated on? I was stunned after someone took a glass from my hand.

"Hey! Give me that! That's mine!" I tried to retrieve the glass taken from me by whoever it was, but he was really determined to take it away from me. Again, I just laugh like a bitch.

"Nicole you're drunk! What's your problem?"

"Oh, it's you Felix," I laughed.

"Give me that," again, I tried to get him my drink but he really don't want to give it back to me.

"What is your problem?" He asked again.

"Stop asking me like a concerned friend Felix," I whispered to him.

"—coz you're not a friend. I'm an idiot in the part where I thought you were my friend too. Of course, my boyfriend is your only friend. So, leave me alone!" For the tenth time, I tried to get him my drink—but he's too persistent and it makes me feel annoyed.

"Nicole,"

"What?"

"What's wrong with you?" He asked like a concerned friend, but fvck! He's not a friend! He's a fool!

Seriously? Of all the things he can ask me, it's the question that I really don't know the answer to, and I also want to ask?

"Yeah, what's wrong with me?" I can feel my tears welling up at these times. I'm not the type of person who just cries. So when I cry, it really hurts me.

"I am not enough?"

"Do I deserved to be cheated on?" While asking those questions, I can't help myself but to cry. It feels like I am being stab by the sharpest knife right here...in my chest.

"Nicole what are you saying?" He sounds so innocent while asking me that question. What a great pretender!

"Stop it Felix! I know you all know! But you have no intention of telling me, do you? Why? What have I done wrong to make you do this?"

Because of so much pain that I am feeling right now, I don't know how could I calm myself down. I tried to stand up to push Felix away from me, but it seems like I am being weakened by the alcohol that I drunk.

"Nicole you're drunk,"

"What's happening here?"

"What's happening?" Clyde and Dylan asked one question after another.

"Aren't you going to admit anything to me?" They just exchanged glances and never spoke. I laughed.

"What can I expect from you, I'm just your friend's girlfriend. Oh, wait, am I still the girlfriend?" Again, they didn't bother to answer me. Who am I? I knew I was drunk but I still forced myself to stand up and get away from them. I don't want to see them. They're all liars! I hate them!

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Sofia's Point Of View :

"Sofia, your husband is outside the house." I got up and immediately went downstairs after hearing what Mommy told me.

"Yes, mom?"

"Alexus, he's outside." I peeked out the window and my eyes widened after I saw him. It's been four days since we last met. I wonder why he is here now. Did Nicole know this? Probably not.

"What are you doing here?" I asked him immediately after I open the gate. But instead of him answering me he just gave me a tight hug. My chest, here it is beating so fast again.

"I've missed you." He whispered to me which made me smile automatically.

"How's Nicole?" I asked after we resigned to the hug.

"She's okay." He answered.

"You, how are you?" He sounds like he cares for me. But I don't want to assume.

"Here, it's okay not to—" My eyes widened after he kissed me. I can't help myself but to kiss him back, even though I know it's wrong.

When he got up, he immediately ended the kiss between us.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that." He said, and it hurts. I faked a smile and said it was ok, even it is not.

"I'll gotta go, I just passed by to say hello to you."

"All right, be careful." I told him.

After he left, my tears started to fall again. Why do I expect him to love me as much as I love him?

Yes, I already accepted the fact that I already fall for him. Why are you feeling that way, Sofia? You know there's Nicole, don't you? He does not love you and he will never love you.