Chapter 18

It's been a week. I haven't seem him since that day. I don't know what he's doing, what he's thinking. At the moment I can't help but feel like history repeating itself. The same thing happened with my mother. She had me and one day, dad was gone. It made me feel like for years it was my fault he left, that somehow I was the reason.

However, I have faith in Alex, no matter how small the faith, it's still there. He wouldn't does this to me, or our baby. He knows how I felt for years after my father left us behind, there's no way he would cause the same pain again. I'm worried about him, I wish I knew where he went and why he hasn't called me. I've tried calling countless times. I would call every so often throughout the day but it always goes to his voicemail. He doesn't want to talk to me, I get that, but to make me worry like this? Is he punishing me? Does he really think of this as my fault?