Abandoned place

I woke up early, with me in the bed and the blanket is on me. There's no man besides me anymore.

I woke early to see him but he seems to fulfill my wish that I won't see him in the morning.

I don't know. I wish that I can bid him goodbye but I also do not wish to see him. I'm so stupid to wish to see him though.

I need to convince myself more than he is my brother and not someone who I can love freely. And again, even though he is not my brother he is committed to someone. He is still someone I can't have.

"What are you looking at?" Syo asked curiously as she waves her hand in front of me.

"Just thinking about something."

"And that is?" She asks, becoming more curious.

"Nothing," I said and continue to eat my breakfast.

She stop asking, maybe she figured out that I don't have any plans on telling her.