Despite what Seon-Ho said, I still went through the usual process of drugging the guards and climbing up the tree and I ran through the market to our home where I found my brother asleep in bed. When I retrieved my memories I planned on not coming home unless I needed to, I didn't know if I would be able to handle all the memories of my brother and father that overwhelmed me as soon as I passed those gates. But it hit me hard today and I was unable to control myself. I was being pulled apart in all different directions, and i just needed to run to my brother sometimes to breathe. So I got in my brother's blanket and clung to him as I used to when I was little. I poked my fingers in his ears and nose as I used to and he grunted for a while before he woke up, saw me, and scooped me in his embrace and we fell asleep together.