1: new beginnings

As I got on the bus I looked up and down multiple times to search for empty seats with no one in them, but there was at least one person in every row. I sat in the last seat in the very back with a cute black-haired boy and I stared out the window zoning out what 12thgrade will be like at a completely new school with completely new people.

Before I knew it, we were waiting in the school parking lot to be dismissed. Then I realized my head was resting on the cute guy's shoulder. I must've fell asleep. I looked up and he looked at me with a small soft smile. I did fall asleep! And it seemed I must've fell asleep on the cutest boy in 12th grade! I quickly stammered,

"I'm so sorry!" apologizing like I just stepped and crushed his foot.

"No its ok, I let cute girls sleep on me." Right as 'cute girls' came out his mouth, I could feel myself turning pink overheating and thinking on repeat, 'he called me cute he called me cute!'

I giggled a bit, "I'm not cute but you're not bad yourself." that's the best I get with flirting with guys, yet he turned red himself.

As he slightly giggled trying to hide the redness of his cheeks, he asked quickly "What's your name? And maybe your number?" as if he were nervous.

I answered with "Oh my name is Kaylee" as I smiled "And its (713) 264-7404." He pulled out his phone and put it in and smiled at me softly again.

Every girl must like him I thought. He's cute, nice, cheesy, and funny. I think most girls are into that, unless it's a football jock whose all buff and whatever.

When I saw everyone else getting up from their seats I got up and he followed. I walked carefully trying not to fall over from being pushed while everyone tried to leave at once. As I finally got off the cute kid split to his other friends and I could hear a herd of about 6 girls start coming to me.

The first girl I heard talk to me had a high voice and seemed like the girl to twist her hair around her finger and annoyingly giggle while talking to her crush. She had bright blonde hair and whore a pink top that also said 'pink'.

She kind of yelled saying "omg" and right then and there I knew she was one of the popular girls.

The blonde, jumpy girl, screamed in her little high pitch voice, "Did you really get Daniel Givers' number?" while all her other friends, or should I say 'squad' huddled around her wanting an answer.

I gave a confused look, "why?"

Her other brunette friend with the same pink top and tan skin quickly answered my question saying, "cause he's the hottest in the school, even out of the collage!"

I sighed, "yes I got his number, but he asked for it. So, he actually got my number." and kept walking to get to my first class. As I figured they followed.

The brunette put her hands on her hip, "we saw you asleep on him" while I mocked them silently while they were behind me not able to see me.

"Yea, ok so?" I confusingly asked.

"Do you even know him?" they said mocking me back like they knew they outsmarted me.

"N-" they interrupted me laughing and I started walking to my first class but going faster than before to get away from their sick laughs. They finally left me alone.

I got to my first class and sat down in the back trying to stay out of eyesight of everyone. My leg started bouncing, I was anxious from those girls. No one noticed so I tried to forget about the girls.

The teacher came in with the same cute boy from the bus. I picked up that his name was Daniel. I slightly waved at him hopping he'd wave back, and he did. My first day of 12th grade and I already like a guy, I bet that's normal.

The row I was in had a ton of empty seats. Only 2 people where in the back row, me and a kid that looks like he snuck out his 4th grade class to be there. The teacher pointed to the seat next to me and my heart went 2 times faster for a second. He sat down and put his books in his desk. I looked at the clock and saw that class didn't start for another 7 to 8 minutes.

"hey, do you know a brunette tan girl, and a blonde looking-" I asked but he cut me off.

He continued my sentence rolling his eyes "barbie doll? Yep." I was a bit shocked for I'm not sure the reason.

"Yea who are they?" I asked with my leg still bouncing.

"The blonde one is Lily, brunette is Bree. The other 4 are their servants to them, 2 each." He answered sighing looking upset.

Concerned on the look in his eyes, I asked, "are you ok?" putting my hand on his.

He looked at me with his light blue eyes which I almost immediately fell into. "their obsessed with me and make anyone who likes me run away and maybe leave the school. Even gay guys."

Now there I wasn't shocked at all. "it's kind of obvious. They kept picking on me and bugging me after we got off the bus." I said with my leg bouncing faster thinking about them picking on me.

I started thinking more how they were bothering me and how they pressured me into answering them, wondering if it'll be worse in the future.

I realized I was hyperventilating, shaking my hands violently or rubbing them up and down my pant legs. I was having an anxiety attack. They happen when my anxiety is high enough to scare me and brain, like then.

I felt dizzy and my vision was blurry. I knew Daniel was freaked out or worried, I couldn't tell from though.

The teacher also noticed and asked, "Is everything ok?" out of instinct from being a teacher, I guess.

I signed 'no' in sign language to Daniel even though he I thought I knew he wouldn't understand. Now holding my head from being dizzy and the feeling of passing out I closed my eyes.

I usually don't cry during these because I have them enough I'm usually alone, but now in front of about 20-30 kids and my crush, this was different.

I saw Daniel signing back 'hallway' and I was shocked he knew sign language. I weakly walked to the hallway with Daniel helping me knowing everyone was watching. I put my back to the wall fast knowing I was going to fall over if I didn't.

I mumbled "water" with tears going down my face and he quickly went and gave me his water bottle and I drank a little feeling a little better.

I grabbed his hand pulling him down to sit with me, and he did. A couple minutes later I calmed down enough to go back and finish the class.

At the end of the day, I knew I had half my classes with Daniel, non with Bree and Lily luckily, and only had that one anxiety attack. I also did fall asleep on Daniel on my way home. So, I would say today was an ok day. I finally went home and just read books wondering when my parents were gonna be home. Glad to have the house to myself for once.