Chapter 26

"No no no!!" I throw the book at the wall in anger, I was feeling hopeless. It's been two hours and I couldn't get my left eye to return to normal. I read every page and said every chant that was in the book but nothing happened.

"Why is this happening?" I sink to the floor with my knees to my chest and my head buried in them. I sob quietly, I had no idea what to do, why did I have to say the words? Why?

Flashback...

~~I was in my room arranging, it was a mess. I can be very messy at times.

"I'm done, I'll go do the dishes now" I was only 8 years old and I did all the chores since Tiffany was always on her phone and Cody was still little. I didn't mind as long as I got to spend time with my family.

My stomach growls, I hadn't had anything since I woke up and it was almost time for lunch, "oh no! I haven't made lunch yet!" I shriek at the sudden realization and rush downstairs to cook something.

I hear arguing as I near the kitchen, I slow down and listen in, it was mom and dad.

"No and I do not care! You promised to take Cody for a checkup while I worked an extra shift!" My mom yells at dad,

"But you're a nurse you should be able to do it yourself right?" My dad chides, he wasn't really concerned about it,

"You're always like this! Ever since Eris was born you've become so irresponsible and rude! What's wrong with you?" She screams at him once more, my parents were fighting again, because of me.

"Well it's not easy you know! There's pressure from work and I'm doing my best!" He replies in the same tone,

"I know work's hard but it doesn't give you the excuse to break your promises! You even promised to go for the PTA at Eris' school but you didn't" she points out his faults one by one,

"I didn't want to be seen with that monster" he defends himself,

"That monster is your daughter!!"

"She looks nothing like me, have you seen her hair?! Eyes? So how Is she my daughter? "

"So tell me, where is my baby?" My mom folds her arms,

"Why don't you tell me the freak you slept with?"

"You bastard!! How dare you—" she sights my figure near the kitchen door, "Eris?"

My dad turns his gaze to look at me, I did not just witness that. The tears had fallen and my breathing became unstable. I take a step back still trying to process everything.

So Tiffany was right. I am a monster.

I swallow my tears at the harsh reality I found myself in. I walk into the kitchen after a few moments to do the dishes. I didn't mind if they said more hurtful things, it didn't matter, I had work to do and I wasn't close to being done.~~

I rest the back of my head on the wall as the tears fell, I am a monster. A gentle breeze blows into my room revealing my mutated eye, I was a hybrid.

The remembrance of my past only brought me more pain, it's always been like that, I was always unworthy of love. I felt so unsure when I met Debbie...

Debbie. Would she still love me after what I've become? Would she still be able to look at me with love? Would she be able to look into these eyes?

Eyes as red as blood.

More tears flow at the painful thought of her leaving me for the monster I've become. Everyone would leave me, even Daylon. Daylon. My thoughts wanders to him, would he still accept me?

It's a Sunday and I stay in my room all day, no one should see me. My aunt repeatedly calls to me but I only request for solitude and do not come out. She couldn't see me, not like this.

A whole day passes without food or water and it's time for school.

I avoid everyone as much as possible, hiding my eye with my hair. I don't speak to anyone unless asked a question by a teacher, and even then it's always a one word answer.

"Daylon I'm scared, I don't know what's wrong with Eris. It's like she's not responding anymore" Debbie pleads to Daylon but he's just as clueless as she is and Bryan is no better than both of them.

He stands from his seat and approaches mine, I couldn't eat as my mind replays my past over and over again.

"Eris?" His voice breaks my train of thoughts, he places his hand on mine and I quickly retract, as if afraid. I was cold to touch,

"Leave me alone Daylon"

"But Eris what's wrong with you?? You just changed all of a sudden. Is it because of what happened between us on Saturday?" He tries to hold my hand but I don't give him a chance.

My gaze is cast downwards, he remembered. Images of what happened flashes through my mind, I bite my lips to suppress the tears, my hands tighten into a fist and he sees it.

"Eris I'm sorry" he apologizes from the depths of his heart but that isn't the problem.

The problem is me. I've always been the problem. I stand and leave, he calls after me but I don't listen, he looks at were I sat and sees tears on the table. He feels a thump in his heart that is rather strong and his aura sinks,

"What's wrong with you Eris?" He couldn't understand, he could just pray.

It's been 3 days and I've kept my distance from everyone. Daylon, Debbie and Bryan texted me repeatedly and called too but I answer to none. I'm fed up.

I just want it to end.

It is midnight and I lay in my bed forgotten, they have to forget me. I pull out a rope from underneath my bed and look at it,

"Debbie you'll be safe with Bryan. A monster can't protect you" a tear drops, I grab a stool and ready my death station, "Daylon" I whisper his name, he is a good friend and I didn't deserve him, Lilac would take better care of him.

The light Angel of my dreams.

More tears fall as I wrap the rope tightly around my neck. I look at my pale hands,

"I can't do this anymore" the stool falls and I kiss the world goodbye, my body hanging in the air.

I open my eyes wondering why I wasn't dead yet, my eyes shift to my bed and I see Islana sitting on my bed with tears staining her cheeks and the look of a disheartened mother.

I look down at my body and realize a purple aura around me keeping me suspended in the air. The rope unwraps round my neck and my feet slowly and gently touch the floor,

"Why Eris?" She says in tears,

"Why? Why?! Look at what you did to me?!?" I scream at her as the tears roll down my cheeks, "you turned me into a monster! Why wouldn't I?!?" I am clearly beyond frustrated, more tears drop immediately she heard the word 'monster',

"Eris you're not a monster" she couldn't stop crying, "you're the evidence of love"

"What love are you talking about?!" I grip her shoulders, "nobody wants me! My family left me! There is no love, I'm not love, everything is fake!" She could see the pain in my eyes, both eyes, the red and the Raven,

"You are love" she holds my face lovingly and I feel a thump in my heart, "my brave Angel" she kisses my forehead, "fate has played a cruel trick on all of us, you, me and your father"

"What are you saying?" I pull away from her quickly, she looks to her feet and she pulls me to sit on my bed, she brushes my hair away from my face and traces my left eye,

"I knew this day would repeat itself in some way" she begins and wipes my tears, "the most painful day of my life was not when we left you, or worse when you left this cruel world" she gives a miserable laugh, "it was when you left yourself. Your true being"

"Stop it"

"Eris listen, the tears I poured out the second time we met are the same tears that have spilled tonight" she holds my hands, "I just want my daughter back"

"Why are you lying?!" I push her away in fear, what is she trying to do?

"I'm not lying Eris!" She screams at me, "can't you see the truth in my eyes?" She pulls me close to her, I look into her eyes and see all the love I was denied of as a child.

So much love. Yet so much pain. I see everything. I see, the Truth.

"Mom?" I utter the word I thought I'd never say again and with so much affection, she breaks down into tears,

"I've waited centuries to hear you call me that again" the moonlight shines on us and her tears glisten, "I love you Eris!" She embraces me with everything she had in her, it takes me a while to register what was going on.

She's my mom. I can feel it but how? How is this possible?

"I love you too" I speak the words in my heart and hug her with the same strength, it felt so real. This is real.

"Your father would be delighted" she wipes my tears with her thumbs,

"So does that mean I'm an Angel?" It was kind of hard to understand but she nods,

"Yes" she heaves a sigh, "my dark angel" she caresses my hair, "what happened to your eye was normal, you've unlocked your hidden form" and she wipes her tears,

"Will it be like this forever?" I really didn't want it to,

"If you can subdue your power it will revert back to it's normal state but right now it's still activated" she states, "there is nothing wrong with it Eris, it makes you look beautiful" she compliments, I'm not too sure about it,

"How do I suppress it then?" I'm eager to know, she smiles fondly shaking her head, "please mom!" She laughs at my reaction and I'm flooded with a beautiful feeling, love.

She brings out her hand and a purple energy sphere materialises. I bring out my hand but nothing forms, I look at her with disappointed eyes and she gives me a small smile to cheer me on.

I repeat it again and the result is the same, I huff and do it again really focusing but nothing happens,

"Mom" I whine, I don't understand how she did it,

"You can do it, I know you can" she whispers, I close my eyes and images of Debbie, Daylon and Bryan flash before me, I couldn't believe I was about to leave them.

I wasn't going anywhere anymore. I want to stay here with them, with him.

I open my eyes and I see a purple energy sphere in my palm, "oh my God!" I am astonished, did I just do that?

"Place it on your eye" she tells me, I bring the sphere near my eye and it's absorbed. I feel I slight sting and she shows me my reflection in my hand mirror,

"It's normal again!" I hug her tightly,

"Yes it is. It'll take some time to learn how to control and use your powers but I will teach you" she places a kiss on my forehead,

"Where have you been mom?" The question hits her in a deep spot, "you just left me, you and dad"

"Eris it's not like that. Your father and I are dead, what you see is just a being without a physical body" she explains herself but I couldn't believe it, "we just beg for a little time to spend with you. After you were reborn I searched everywhere for you, and I found you in your mother's arms"

"She's not my mother, you are" I sneer and she giggles, then it hit me, "I died?"