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Narra .. Miku ..

I am always thinking about that moment that my life changed, maybe I told them I am a normal girl but I see that classification monotonous, it does not make sense some things nothing is peace not tranquility that ceased to exist a long time for me but what can I tell you, life is that day I keep remembering it every time when I am alone those voices from that night continue to haunt me, maybe my parents helped me to overcome it but they know perfectly well that even the best doctor in psychology could not completely decipher my mind is a game of cat and the time between them but it is boring that his attempts to find the answers to my suffering but as which actress I should be I can interpret what he needs everything half lies and truths is the only way that my parents stopped taking me with him after All that was from hurting me a long time ago, anyone will say that because of depression or taking their own life, maybe my life experience was not beautiful at all but I understood one thing is no matter how much you ask for mercy they will never stop no one knows me only the facades speak for me nor does Yaki know it when he asked me to be his girlfriend it was something sudden it was wrong in those moments that as he was the only one who remained by my side I gave him The opportunity to fall in love is cute, tender I do not deny it but well he can never see him more than a brother maybe he kisses me but I never feel anything is something if sometimes I think about breaking up with him and having him only as a friend but I think that somehow I I feel good that it is done and having him by my side I know that it is selfish but I need it in my life in some way, always when I saw all those scars on my body I can only feel disgusted with me I could not prevent this from happening my body was very bad aesthetically still Yaki tells me that no matter how they look he will continue to love me I don't feel good listening to him I wish they weren't compliments to make me feel good but as always I just lie my life is carried that way maybe s somehow I lost the Light that innocence in seeing the world turns to darkness I know that I continue my life but I think I have that masochistic side that sometimes I cry when I remember but I keep doing it every day no matter what the routine is, it's the same I just think if maybe in a moment Yaki gets tired of me as a girlfriend ends me that would not be a problem after all it would be a question of winning to win for both that is the reason why I never say anything to him when seeing the brave girls flirting with him or something similar, I just stay calm, hoping that somehow I managed to get out of this matter, but the problem is that there are very few occasions that happens but if we talk about me, the clothing as men and women is something constant like Elena's brother That apparently is too cocky for my taste I could say that it is not ugly I could say that it is too attractive but the truth only makes me curious about those people but not in the way that it is something out of the ordinary and my knowledge all my life I never liked someone I could say that I have never found that destined person but I always think that maybe I did this better I do not want anyone to know that painful story of my life I was singing something that came in my mind sometimes alone fleeting words but that I can do music is the only one that can make you feel freedom in some way but it is a hobby what really is for me is to continue with the traditions of the Susuki, perhaps when the time comes I will be able to help people like must be..

I was so lost in my thoughts that I can't tell they were knocking on my door ...

# What's up mother _scream ...

Mom: The food is already low _ diko behind the door ...

He sighed deeply to calm all my thoughts, when I was ready I got up and adjusted my appearance to be able to go to the door of my room where when I opened it I walked with slow steps to the stairs that connect the lower floor and the one above when my tour ended at the enter the dining room where my parents were waiting for me with a smile they greet me, when taking a seat at the table everything happened as always when I finished I go to my room again where when entering I dropped on my bed falling into the arms of Morpheus instantly, like every night the nightmares were the same patterns where the pain was so real that my screams apparently were more suffocating than like every morning I wake up excited sweating with tears descending between my cheeks when I look around I confirm that it was just a damn dream my eyes they stop at my bedside table where the alarm clock says 4 in the morning as I usually do better I get up and go out for a run er to get all this stress out of my system, when I put on sports clothes I quickly leave my house to start running to the park it is near my house all the way to that place is nature that relaxes me giving me a touch of passing by a while until I can see the buildings and houses on the way I accelerated my passing giving a great effort in my lungs that began to hurt me from the cold of the morning but I did not stop for anything until I reached my destination it was only 50 kilometers of my house to that place when I arrived I sat on one of those benches to catch my breath, I observed the whole place that had only the lighting of the lamps I enjoyed those moments where silence was my companion ...