Chapter 18
The wedding
This is my wedding day but why is it that there is not even any emotion coming up from my chest
But only one thing comes to my mind when Liam returns everything is not the same Why I still thinking of him?
I was surprised when the door opened and it spat out Mom and Dad.
"Stella, are you feel not to out? we can cancel it if you want" my mother said who I knew from the beginning that she was against my marriage.
"What are you doing you are convincing her to back out huh? Everything is settle and beside your daughter already made decision"
"But Hulio. We all know that he will get married almost as old as you"
"Let Stella's make decide for her life she is not baby anymore and tell you honestly she need to fulfill what he said. Ramirez true to his words let our daughter do the same"
"What do you mean Hulio? After you talked to that Ramirez then you been acting like you like him for our daughter"
"There are thing we need to do even against it to our will. Stella just trust in lord everything I swear what your heart wishing for will gave you"
I didn't notice that I was crying. "How dare you Hulio do you want make us cry here"
"Mom, can you give me a group hug?" Maybe it will help lose my worries, because I might suddenly ran to the wedding itself.
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Earlier, mama and papa took my hand and gave to the man next to me. The only things that make me laugh are nervousness and fear nervous to be with the man I don't love and fear when Liam's back I will be not the same. This is the last time I can wait for Liam for fear that he might come back and find out that I am married. I am afraid to see him marry someone else. Yes I will admit I still love Liam until now even though he left us even though he disappeared like a bubble.
At the same time I was wishing secretly that he came and blocked my marriage, just in case he came and stopped the wedding I would not hesitate to be with him.
But when I get married as a wife and to be fair in him in case if Liam comes back and I already married there's is no way that I will talk to him. Because not everything you left behind will be able to come back as like that's nothing happen.
"Stella are you accepting Raul Ramirez as your beloved husband?"
I just went back to my senses when father asked me.
The wedding is simple, the motif is white and light blue and my wedding dress was made in Italy, I said I prefer the simple one but in the end I did nothing against his want.
The guests who almost attended were Mr Ramirez's business partners, except for my guests, my other co-workers and the former 4Queens as well as my parents and my siblings.
"Stella?" Mr Ramirez called me.
"W-why?"
"Father asking you, its your turn"
"What is that father? are you asking something?? I heard the guests behind us laugh.
"Stella are you accepting Raul Ramirez as your beloved husband?'
I first turned to the end of the hallway at the door to see if Liam was coming but there is no Liam. I just felt a pain in my chest I looked at Mr Ramirez who I caught looking at me but I thought his reaction was different I thought he would be hurt because someone I waited for our wedding to stop but it just smirk as if it meant something.
"Y-yes father" Simultaneously with my yes I shed tears.
Time passed without Liam showing up no Liam coming no Liam preventing the wedding.
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When we get home to the mansion, my heart beats faster with nervousness, what can happen now that we are married "Stella, why is your face like that? Are you okay?" Raul asked.
From now on, I will call him Raul and not Mr Ramirez because that is too formal.
"Stella, we are going up to your Mother's room ah" Papa said goodbye but when I looked at Mama it was full of opposition.
"Ok dad. Sleep well"
"Manang? Where is Xian?" When I saw one of Xian's caretakers.
"Ah ma'am he is already sleeping in his room"
"All right thank you" he bent down and left me to sit on the sofa here in the living room I heard the footsteps that Raul followed me.
"Stella?" He called me and I turned around to look at him. "From now on in my room where you will sleep as a couple we need to sleep in the same room"
When he said that my chest was pounding with nervous. I was just giving myself to Liam but he did not come. I remember Liam not showing up at my wedding.
"Yes, I know" I just answered.
"And one more thing one of this days my son from the U.S. will come home, he is just as old as you so I want you to fix your child and your parents, I will pick him up. He knew we were just getting married and would have liked to go but his flight not fix in the time of our wedding and beside we can't take care of him especially since we are busy with the wedding. I hope you get along because you are both part of my life. Do you getting my point?" I just nodded.
"All right, I'm going to go upstairs and sleep well you know the elderly need to sleep early" I was surprised he said. This is our first day as a husband and wife. But its good thing because I'm not yet ready.
"Whatever you think, get rid of it because I only need to marry you no other than that. And you can sleep in my room but when my son left you can move to another room" he smiled.
"But-"
"No But's" he was walking upstairs my eyes followed him.
Why is it weird that he used to be serious about everything but he just smiled now.
So weird and he just tell me that he has a child why I do not know? I was his secretary for almost 3 years and now I just found out that he has a child I forgot to ask if he or she and he said his child were same age.
One thing I bother is when he smirk at the church, why did he look so happy that I expected someone else to come.
I can only go crazy thinking why? So I decide to get rest and sleep. When I open the door of our room I found Raul fall asleep so I took a half bath first and changed my pj and loose tshirt and went to bed.
"Stella?"
I was caught in my chest when Raul suddenly spoke I could not see his face because only the lampshade next to him illuminated the whole room.
"W-why?" The nervousness that had gone up before came up to my chest when he said that he only needed marriage. Because I was not ready to give myself up and it looked like he had no intention because it was only when we were not married and we already live here he did nothing even he has the right to do it now because I almost sold my whole being when I accepted his offer.
"There's no Divorce here in Philippines"
"What are you talking about? I have no intention of having a divorce"
I felt guilty because we just got married without feeling anything towards to him. "I'm just saying so there's no turning back anymore Stella"
"I know"
He turned his back on me, we were lying on the opposite side of bed. I turned my back on him as he spoke. "I'm just doing this for Xian" I sat down at what he said.
"Do you want to tell me something?"
"Sleep that Stella tomorrow you will get the answers to your questions"
"You are so weird lately. By the way is your child, she or he?"
"He"
I could no longer speak when my eyelids became heavy and I was completely drowsy.
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The next day I just woke up when Raul was no longer by my side, he might have picked up his son.
I did what I had to do and I went down to help to prepare and also to tell Mom and Dad to be ready because Raul and I were going to introduce him to his son.
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