Why are you being my enemy ?

"Because there are only you my closest friend !!" While staring at the lake in front of him Jimmy answered my question quickly. I saw that the lake was very calm, completely calm as Jimmy replied flatly to me.

" Only friend... !!" Jimmy said to me, that between myself and him only a friend ?! But.... what kind of friend ... ?? Does Jimmy think of myself as a close friend? or best friends, or just ordinary friends ...?! the more questions in my heart I can ask Jimmy. now there is a feeling of disappointment in my heart, hearing Jimmy answer like that to me.

My hand immediately gripped the last pebble that I will throw into this lake. I don't know what happened in my heart. after I heard what Jimmy said.

"Jim .. it's getting late in the afternoon, I'm going to go home first, I'm afraid Ayuna will tell Daddy about myself, if I come home late from school hours."

I immediately asked Jimmy to take me home, because my heart was starting to mess up and I didn't want Jimmy to find out.

It turns out that all this is not what I imagined and I wanted. All of this is not a sweet dream of Jimmy but all this is my nightmare. What I feel is probably a one-sided feeling.

until now I just remain the me who is always waiting and waiting.

I am not Ayuna who can loudly say love to a man and I am not Ayuna who can dare to seduce a man so that he can fall and submit in front of him, I still have self-respect even though I know that this self really means nothing at all , let it be .... let time tell Jimmy, that this love is very big for Jimmy and this hope is also eager to be with Jimmy.

"Ayuni ... why ?! You are angry with me." asked Jimmy to me.

Maybe Jimmy already knows what the reason I asked him to hurry up and take me home, I still try to keep acting in front of him and try not to let out these tears in front of him because I don't want my feelings to be known by Jimmy and I don't want Jimmy to lower myself or be sorry for me.

"Why should I be angry with Jim?! I told you the reason earlier that I was afraid that Ayuna would complain to Papa if I came home late today."

I answered and I hope that my reason can be accepted by Jimmy and Jimmy can immediately take me home because in fact these eyes can no longer be held back there is water that wants to come out of the corner of my eye which makes my vision a little myopic and full of pain that can't I reveal.

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This morning I feel that my body cannot be compromised anymore, my head feels very heavy and I also feel sleepy that I can't stand it anymore, Maybe this is because right now I'm sharing a room with Ayuna so it makes myself unable to calm down at all feeling worried It continues to haunt me until my resting time becomes disturbed, my mind is now divided into, not about lessons but now what is in my mind right now is my fear which is greater than the reality that I have to face, all of this is really I almost can't control it anymore, because Ayuna is like a mortal enemy that I can't get rid of as long as I live in this world.

I don't understand why all this has to happen to me, even though Ayuna is my twin but she is always meaner than the most cruel devil in this world, she can do everything in various ways to get what she wants! no matter what the obstacles were to get her way or what her plans were. Ayuna never felt the slightest fear of getting all her wishes.

"Hiii my dear ... good morning .... oops! Why does your face look so ugly?! Ha ha ha ha ha ..... lacking in vitamins yaa ... or because you are breaking up in love ... ha ha ha ha ha ha ... what a pity this my little sister is ... ha ha ha ha ha ha ...! "

While laughing out loud and satisfied, Ayuna began to say mockingly and humiliated me, she looked at me with a very cynical gaze and she was always dissatisfied if she saw myself not shedding tears in front of her. Ayuna has very sexy lips but those lips are her weapons to injure myself every day.

The smell of the perfume used by Ayuna is really very fragrant, even for a distance of 500 meters you can still smell the fragrance, it is true that Ayuna is a high class girl, very different from myself who only wears Splash Cologne, it feels very happy. .

If it can be said honestly, this mind feels very jealous of Ayuna, because I feel that Papa is now starting to be unfair between me and Ayuna, everything is starting to be seen from the problem of pocket money that was given to me and Ayuna, indeed Ayuna's pocket money That's higher than me, that's because Mom always gives Ayuna extra pocket money, and now Papa is giving Ayuna an allowance of Rp.10,000, - whereas for me, Papa only gave me an allowance of Rp.5,000. It can be used for everything, I have to be able to pay class cash, snacks or pay for impromptu test papers, with Rp. 5000, - all of that I have to be able to share, very different from Ayuna's pocket money which is not shared with other school needs.

Maybe this is already the line of my life that I have to live, what can I do? Even though I feel hurt or so much jealousy in my heart, I still can't do anything except just accept all the circumstances that are currently like this. .

"Ayuni, you look pale ?? ... if you feel sick don't have to go to school .. I'll let Ayuna tell your homeroom teacher if you can't enter today!"

Papa's voice sounded worried after seeing my face which may indeed look very pale right now, in fact I can't carry this body anymore, this pain in my heart has made my mind messed up and this life feels pressured by my own thoughts, body tired maybe I can still handle it but tired of this thought I can't take it anymore.

Maybe I should try to say to Papa, that I don't want to live in the same room with Ayuna anymore, I better give in, just let me sleep in the guest room, because if this goes on then I can definitely die young slowly because of Ayuna.

Without thinking, I walked over to Papa and tried to express what was in my heart ...

"Pa ... Ayuni, can I have something? Ayuni's request is not of any kind! All of this is for Ayuni's recovery too, Ayuni wants to be able to rest in peace.

Ayuni wants to go back to how it used to be! Ayuni wants to have her own room again Pa, because Ayuni has been sleeping alone, so Ayuni hasn't been able to share a room with Ayuna, so let Ayuni currently move rooms to the guest room, Dad ..., let Ayuna live in the room above. ! Ayuni doesn't mind that, Ayuni just wants to be Ayuni's self again, that's all Pa ... Ayuni beg Papa, don't be angry with Ayuni huh ... "

It can be seen from the look on Papa's face, who was so shocked when he heard this request from me, because from my words, Papa could know that between me and Ayuna was not what he imagined, there was competition and incompatibility between myself and Ayuna.

I know Papa must be very disappointed with my attitude, but I want Papa to see with open eyes that this is what really happened between me and Ayuna.

"Ayuni my younger sister who is sweet and take careful ... if that's your request, fine, I'll give in .... Paa ...! Let Ayuna sleep in this guest room ... Indeed, from the beginning, Ayuna's room actually didn't really like it, the place was too shabby. In Ayuna's opinion ..! "

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