Chapter 16 - Never Give Up. . .

I have been living my life carelessly, but these days I live care free. What I mean by that is that I used to drink and smoke weed and do things that make me quiver when I think about it. The people that I have in my life now are such a blessing. I mean the only thing they push me to do is achieve my dreams and if I fail, I should never give up. Just keep trying until you succeed and don't forget to put God first is what they tell me. God really works in mysterious ways. I mean a few years ago I couldn't care about the things that I did wrong in other peoples eyes. Now I am more worried about what I am doing that wouldn't please God. I feel like I'm floating. and I must

say that this feeling is way better than any drug that I have ever tried. No substance could ever come close to feeling how God is watching over you and guiding you. Oh how great thou art. . .

I try to speak to so many people about my past and how God always came through for me. But how can I allow people to look up to me if I am still doing so many things wrong. It just isn't fair. I need to lead by example. I must say that I can feel God around me at all times. You know the feeling of your dad giving you a warm hug when you hurt yourself but at the same time trying to guide you into not making the same mistake again. . .

That is how I feel at the moment. So many things happen every day that determine your future, like you missing the train, running late for an important meeting because you could not find a taxi or being stuck in traffic.

Those might have been God stopping you from getting hurt or something. Every choice you have ever made has led you to this moment right here, reading this. The bad choices you have made in the past has led to the

best moment in your life. This moment right here. You may be hurting but you are still alive. That is all that matters. Remember to always trust your gut, that is usually my guidline to the next decision that I make.

Make those wrong choices, because that might lead you straight into your bright future. I always say that if you never make bad decisions you are never going to learn from your mistakes. I read a quote the other day, it said " Everything is going to be okay in the end. If it isn't okay, it's not the end." Not sure who wrote it but it spoke to me loud and clear. There ae so many days when I am all moody and I don't even understand why. Or I just don't feel like being around people. But we all have those days don't we? I would like tomtake this moment to encourage somene out there to never give up, your breakthrough might be right around the corner.