Haven't had much time to write lately there has been too many things happening all at once. My mental well being has been tested on levels I never knew possible. I have slowly been caving in and my past has been catching up. I have been feeling like I am not good to the people around me. I have been picking fights that are completely unnecessary. Fights that I don't even understand or know what sparked it at times. I should have gone for the counselling when she told me to. But because I was hurting so much and everything was still so fresh, I couldn't get myself to go. My relationships with the people close to me have been deteriorating, sometimes these things happen to make you see who is there to stay and who will move on the moment they get a chance.