We have some news

My plane is just about to land in Seoul. It's been 3 weeks since my first call with Yoongi since he left to come back to Korea. We have spoken several times a day since, talking about nothing in particular, details of the most mundane activities being shared, even sitting on the phone in silence at one point whilst simultaneously watching the same TV show, separately but together. It was lovely. I could feel him with me.

The day after that first call I had a pre flight fitness test with the Dr to make sure that it was as safe as possible for me to fly which I passed, all my vital signs perfectly good. She had arranged a scan for me that morning too. In England the first scan is not usually performed before the twelfth week of pregnancy, but she wanted to be as thorough as possible before allowing me on a flight for around 11 hours.

I lie on the couch in the sonographers office, lift my shirt and pull down the waistband of my jeans that, despite my recent weight loss, are actually feeling tighter! The lovely lady whose name is Daphne put some gel on my tummy and then asks if I'm ready. I am. She places the transducer probe low on my abdomen and slides it around a little before pressing it into my skin. Bloody hell, I feel like I need a wee now!

A steady thrumming, whooshing sound suddenly fills the space between us and I turn my head to the familiar sound, looking at the screen to see my baby. Daphne is continuing to move the probe, trying to capture the best image. I look at her face and she is furrowing her brow and biting her lip. She presses a few buttons on her machine and then notices me watching her.

"Oh, don't mind my face Mrs Santana. I have a terrible habit of pulling faces while I concentrate. Everything is fine, I'm just taking some measurements and trying to get the best image for your scan photo" she tells me with a big smile.

I breathe a sigh of relief just as she follows up that sentence with......

"I'll just get the Dr to come in and look at this and then we'll be all done. Excuse me for a moment, I'll be right back" she says in a sweet song song voice.

The Dr coming to look at scans? That only happens when something is wrong doesn't it? I feel like I'm going to vomit. I lift myself up onto my elbows and take some deep breaths just as Daphne and the Dr enter the room. I hold my breath.....

"Mackenzie, we have some news for you" the Dr begins...