Chapter 7

Emma pov

I woke up this morning to the sound of rain falling down the window pane making music as it slowly passed. Tomorrow is Monday my interview , one day has passed since I arrived.

Just thinking of that day made me cringe in pain I remember him coming probably drunk and heavily intoxicated muttering some words I'm. Sorry Emmz I messed it up. Anastasia I'm. Sori too. At 1st I was confused at what he was saying. Until yesterday a beautiful women smaller built than me walked in. Screaming on her high pitched squeaky voice asking who I was and then emillio walks in. Anastasia what you doing here he said. I Came worried about you since you just left bby yesterday.

I observed silently bby huh. Look ems it's not what you think hmm go inside or something I'll explain later. He took her out somewhere leaving me alone . He never return home since then no text too. I was devastated . He calls and tells me he wants a 2nd chance calls me to stay and breaks my heart even more. He only said he wanted space what's this another girlfriend.

"lord if you have a plan let me know I loved him to much I don't know if I can take it any more.". The day goes by so fast I'm too lost in my thoughts getting my stuff in order for work. Late around 6 after dinner he comes finally it giving me peace of mind . I'm Sill angry but I don't want to hear anything but God I hate it despite all this stupid drama I'm sill in his house.

Ems please forgive me. You can stay as long as you want tomorrow is work I know.. I know I' am a ass I said i needed time but in the time I was fooling around I met Anastasia. I've been at war with myself I miss you I need you. When I called I really wanted you back in my life. We were great you wanted something serious and I wasn't quite ready so I messed around now well I hurt you even more..

You hmm arhgg it's wrong of me to call you here when I don't know what I'm. Doing myself I just need time to think what I want. I'm Sorry for begin forward I'm Sorry for everything please forgive me if you ever find it In you to do so.

I stared blankly right at him I don't know what to Say really I was devastated. Emillio I get it oki I understood it clear you don't want me in your life. I'll get a room. To rent If I get the job if not I'll be phoning Josh he will fetch me. I don't know what to say I'm wasted. I loved you to much I never allowed another guy to even talk to me. Making myself better for you and you well you call me for a retake on our relationship and then I find out you cheating. It's oki seeing me mentally breaking down wasn't enough for you that you had to call me up and me feel so shit. That I cant even look myself in the mirror. I knew this was a joke a mistake but sill no me begin a fool like I am. I blindly belived you. After this I'm totally done I don't want to ever have anything to do with you. Your worthless ungrateful piece of cheating trash.

I just need time to I'll be out of your face soon. With that I exited and cried my self to sleep setting my alarm and making sure my clock is on..I feel so angry confused, broken and useless. I'm basically staying at my ex boyfriends house with all that just happened. If it was someone else I'm sure they would have walked out by now. I don't know anyone never been here before it's late im a girl. Oh God what has my life become. I can't even call brother it's late and I don't want to trouble him. Emillio would be dead by now if he knew.

Emillio pov

I can't believe what ever happened just now the things I said nor she

It pained me that I messed her up so bad. I might be a big ass bad boy but she was the only one I felt feelings for. Shit I'm such an ass I called her back she's right I wanted her back but Anastasia eish I'm a worthless fool normally I won't mind ill play girls all the time. Yet now it hurt like hell with Lisa.

Yes I do love her but I can't bring her down she helped me enough did enough for me she needs a life. A better one without me. I'm such a waste there's nothing good that comes Out from me.

I'll leave her she better off with out me especially since I'm Not sure weather Anastasia is pregnant or not. I decided I'll stay with her till my Lisa Emma heals and works her self up.

Oh God help me I'm Such a dumb blonde. How can I expect her to wait for me to sill want me after everything I have done. Look at myself I don't even know what I'm saying.

I'm a hopeless player whom can't seem to get his shit together. I'm chasing after flings letting someone like a golden gem go. I tell you something lisa Emma yourll never find another girl like her she's one in a life time. If she ever decides to move on the guy she meets will be the luckiest. It be a blessing to have her just look at her she is a bombshell. Those curves her personality and the icing on the cake she's sill pure. Thinking of it drives me mad. My heads drowning in shallow waters. The mind is a powerful place. I need to get intoxicated I can't take this anymore. I feel like punching the walls till blood drips down my knuckles while I drown in my heavy metal music.

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