Chapter One

Chapter One

I quickly got up from my bed because of my dream or better to say part of my past that if I am asked I do not want to be remembered. Tch Lauren we are aware that you enjoys what happened between the two of you that night. My conscience whispered softly.

I shuddered my head a few times to forget everything that's creeping on my mind. Aish! why does it keeps on appearing in my dreams? No matter how much I forget, that incident still comes on my mind. I badly want to forget everything but my brain just won't obey me. *Sigh* I don't know what to do anymore, I hate it when he drives me crazy even with a simple dream.

"Mommy"

From irritation, the expression on my face immediately softened when I heard my daughter's voice. A sweet smile formed my lips as I turned my gaze on her. By just merely looking at her, thousands of memories suddenly appears in my head.

Up until now I still can't believe that my life changed so much in an instant. From a simple Medtech student, to a faithful wife of a famous actor and a loving mother of my sweet angel.

These past few years has been the most difficult year for me. Why? Oh well mainly because of the issue involving me and Morris that up until now is still a big question for me! Many years had passed but still I can't find the answer on how it came out publicly. Morris thought that it was just a trap and it was done by those who were angry with him but the big question there was, why me? Why did they even choose to use me for such plans?

I thought that was the only shame I would take but I was wrong. I was wrong because it was just the beginning of my calvary. After that incident, my life was no longer quiet. I received various insults and judgments about my whole being from his supporters or rather called as 'fans'. I even almost die because of depression and the main reason is them and their never ending judgement.

Second, when I found out that I'm pregnant with his child. I was so scared back then because of the thought on how I would raise my child. I have not finished my studies and yet no one is hiring a pregnant employee. And then it increased even more when I was finally evicted from my parents' house when I told them I was pregnant. I was so depressed that time plus the fact that my pregnancy is sensitive.

Third, when Morris announces that the two of us will getting married. Most of his fans objected but it didn't stop Morris' decision. After announcing our marriage I then again received countless of hatreds, they even send me death threats that I don't take seriously. But that does not mean I am not afraid of what they can do to me. Of course I'm afraid! Who wouldn't?

Lastly my sensitive pregnancy. I can still remember how difficult it was for me during my first semester. I was very sensitive plus the fact that no is there to help me so I have no choice but to take care of myself. I experienced lots of miscarriage but I thank God that he give my child strength to hold on. For all of the hardships I went through I never thought I would experience even more severe in my childbirth. I can still remember the day how hard I had suffered from labor, and for me it was a near death experience already.

Those are just a few hardships I went through before but I can only say one thing. I am thankful to those struggles because they made me who I am right now. Although I do not agree with how my life suddenly changed, at least I am happy with the result of it. So far, I can say that I am now contented and blissfully happy with my little angel beside me, Ravery Aaliyah Maurine Montague Schmid. As of now, I have nothing else to think about but the welfare of my child. And I am more than willing to give her everything just to make her happy.

"Mommy"

I came back from reminiscing my past when Aaliyah called me again. Fearing that she might become moody again, I then quickly carry her. Knowing her when her tantrums started in the morning for sure it will last to midnight. *Sigh*

Anyways, since Aaliyah is now wide awake I must prepare her breakfast. Wondering why I'm the one who prepare her breakfast? Oh well because I wantes to be the one who's taking care of her. Yes we do have few maids in here and Ali herself has her own nanny but I am more satisfied when I am the one who's taking care of her. As much as possible, I don't want others to take care of her but don't get me wrong. I am not against them its just that I just want my child to grow up with me. Do you get me? *Sigh* I just don't want her to be like me, I want her to be by my side as she grows up and not in somebody's custody.

I am in the middle of my countless thoughts when the door to my room suddenly opened. I was expecting that it was one of our maids but my eyes widened when I saw the last one on the list I will see today. W-wait am I dreaming again? Or was it really him? Wait a minute how come he is here? Crazy! probably because it's his house too. Geez Lauren, you just saw your husband but you already look like a worm salted in there. My conscience said.

Oh well she has a point but y'all didn't understand where I am coming from! Yes, this is his house, but he never came home ever since our marriage. And please don't blame me for acting this way because the last time I saw him was at Ali's christening and that was exactly 2 years ago, after that he just disappeared like a bubble. Since that day I have no clue on where he was or what is he doing, I don't even know where he was is staying at. So why on earth is he here? Wait, maybe I'm just daydreaming? Maybe this is just one of my hallucinations.

W-wait did he woke up with the fact of marrying me is a big mistake and now he's going to ask a divorce? T-then he will take Aaliyah from me because he can sense that I cannot raise my child and support her financially? Hell no! He must kill me first before taking away my precious daughter to me.

I was in the middle of arguing with myself whether it was true that he was here or was I just dreaming when he suddenly took Ali from me that I did not notice who fell asleep again while I was carrying her. Wait he took Ali from me so it means only one thing, he is freaking here! Oh my god t-this can't be. W-wait, Where will he take my daughter? Oh God! I can't just let him take away Ali away from me. He is not the one who bare her for 9 months so he has no right to just take her from me.

I was about to stand up on the bed and was more than ready to rush to get my daughter back when suddenly he turned his back on me and stares at me. The way he throw those deadly stare makes me sacred. Oh God what should I do?

"Dress up and hurry. I'm in a rush."

That was the exact word he utter before leaving our room. W-wait did I hear it right? Did he just ask me to dress up? Wait what? I don't know why and what's his purpose on coming here but one thing is for sure this is not good! Oh God please do give me strength.

To be continue...