Gone

Everything seem good until he suddenly fade away from me. He didn't came to me anymore. He leave me here, out side of my shelter. I'm scared again. I'm being left alone again, out side from my shelter. It's scarier than being alone in my shelter. I have no place to cry, no warmth's place to stay anymore, no voice that can put me at ease anymore, everything is GONE. Now I see, everything is lies, the promise is lies, staying with me is lies visiting me is lies ') . I'm a dumb, why do I believe in him? It's hurt yet I still think that he's someone important to me. the world seem dark again to me, "Hey world if I die or collapse no one would care right? I don't deserve any happiness don't I? I'm an idiot right?" Since the beginning no one would stay with someone like me. I really did feel like dying. I tried to kill my self but it failed again and again. I hate myself, I'm a hopeless human being. He, once is my hope but now he's gone, he left me in this darkness again. No hand could reach me anymore. I looked at my shelter. My shelter is fading away too. Ahh yeah of course it would fade because no one is staying inside anymore. Why did I leave my shelter? I did remember everything. The promises, ahh he even say I'm his important person too. Damn! Its hurt me a lot. I can't hear those voice anymore.