Each day is a gift and not a given right.  I often say that to myself, to be thankful for every day and count my blessings. I never expected to be where I am at this very moment in my life. All I can be is thankful.  I didn't expect to run into him after what happened, but he saved my life on more than one account we were bound to cross paths again. I don't  think I have everything figured out yet ,and  I still don't  think I am worthy to have him in my life.  In my own opinion he has everything going for him and I'm just starting out.

Fated Collision

Song – Dermot Kennedy – power over me 


For the longest of times I have always worked hard to achieve stability in everything I do. The thing about stability is that you have to work hard to get it; once you have it you don’t want to lose it , and the fear of losing something you have already worked hard for always plagues your mind in the worst of times. 


When I had to make sure my sister was well taken care of , I worked like my life depended on it. I didn’t want her to miss out on any school trips or important sports events . When she grew up and managed to get into college ; I started focusing on building my company , I hadn’t anticipated that what I did on the side would come back to bite me in the worst way. Part of me feels like I can make a greater come back from this set back. Gavin didn’t even sound like himself. He sounded nonchalant which meant that he was really in a tight spot. I just hope and pray Lexi calls me back. 


Chapter 36