Moment of weakness

Why does this always happen to me, why is it that every time I come close to being happy something or the other always happens. Why can't I get a simple break, how much pain must my heart go through before life sees it to be enough. How many more suffering must I endure before finally being happy.

I composed myself and moved closer to Adrian, I sat next to him on the bed and held his hand in my trembling hand.

"Do you really not remember me ?" I asked him hoping he would tell me that he remembers me and that he was simply playing a prank on me.

"No, I really don't know who you are. Can you tell me a little bit about yourself."

"What do you want to know ?"

"Everything."

"Where do I start from ?"

"The beginning I guess."

"Its a long story, you are not well and I also need to inform your family about what happened to you so I can't get into the details now. I will go and see the doctor and hear what she has to say."

I stood up ready to leave when he held my hand and sat me back down.

"What happened between the two us ? Why did you leave me and go away ?"

"Did you remember me leaving, do you remember what happened back then ?"

"No, but among the things that was found on me was a letter that I think was sent by my grandmother. In the letter she talks about us, she doesn't clarify much but it was obvious that something happened between us that forced you to leave. And it was only due to her that you came back."

"Well I don't know about her being the reason I returned but I don't want you to worry about anything. What happened back then is in the past, and we should move on from it so I don't think there is any need to talk about it. As it is it isn't good to open up old wounds for it does no one any good. We should concentrate on the here and the now."

"So what is the here and the now for us ?"

"Get better first then we can talk about that."

"In the letter my grandmother talked about us getting married, have already done that."

"No, I come back to the country yesterday and I'm afraid we haven't had the opportunity to talk about that. I planned on meeting later in the to talk about it but now I don't think it is the right time. You need to get better first before we can talk."

I got up and left the room, I called his grandma and informed her of everything that happened and texted the hospital address and room number before heading to the doctor's office. I knocked on the door before entering. I sat down and waited for her to be done on the phone. After she was done she hang up the call and turned to me.

"I am sorry about that it was an important call miss_”

"Maja...Maja Salvador."

"Yes, well I asked to my office because I wanted to talk about the patient. I have to fill out his report and as you know he suffers from amnesia so asking him won't be helping. So I will need your help. What is the patient's name ?"

"Adrian Andrada." I said and watched as the doctor's expression went from calm to shocked. That happens every time the most influential man in the country introduces himself. She looked as if there was a ghost standing behind me, I am terrified of ghosts hence just to be safe I turned around to check. I was surprised to see Adrian at the door sitting in a wheel chair while a nurse pushed him inside the room.

"Since you are both talking about me I decided to join you. This will help learn about myself and maybe even trigger a memory from my past. So my name is Adrian, interesting, you may proceed."

"Age," the doctor asked me after getting over the shock of meeting Adrian but not completely as you could see her hand tremble just a little bit and not too noticeable.

"25"

"Date of birth ?"

"14/2/****, he was born on valentines day."

"Status ?"

"Single."

"Contact number ?"

I patiently answered all of the doctor's questions while Adrian just sat there quitely as he absorbed every information.

When the doctor was done filling out the form she advised me on how to take proper care of Adrian. I listened to everything word and made note not to forget a single thing. I thanked her and took Adrian back to the room. When we got his entire family was already for us inside the room. They all looked very worried especially his grandmother.

She came to me and asked me to see her outside, we went out of the room and she embraced me with a hug. She just stood there and hugged me and I returned the hug and before I knew it I was crying in her embrace. I asked why something like this always happens to me every time I try to be happy. I asked why God hates me so much, why did Adrian have to forget everything now. Why did the accident happen. I cried and cursed for a long but she just sat there listening to everything silently as she rubbed my back. I cried my heart out to her, I didn't know how affected I was about the accident until she gave a shoulder to lean on.

I cried so much that I did not even realize when my family got here or when they went inside the room to meet Adrian. My heart felt like it had been fun over by a truck repeatedly. I could not explain in words how much it hurt me when the love of my life forgot about me,about our memories and about his love for me.

Sometimes I think that the world is trying to tell me that Adrian and I don't belong together because every time we try to be together something or the other happens that keeps us apart. I cried my heart not even realizing that we were standing right next to his hospital room and that he could probably hear me. All I knew is that I needed this.

I calmed down after a while before i went back into the room as Adrian's grandmother went to bring food for Adrian. I found Adrian and Clara talking about goodness knows what but I do know that the sight in front of me irritated me. Where did everybody go and why did they leave these two alone in the room. Why is she even here ?

I go to Adrian and sit beside him on the bed and send Clara a dark look as if to incinerate her.