Honeymoon

I woke up in a king sized bed while hugging a soft plush pillow. It was so soft that I felt like burying my face in it the whole day. It took me a moment to remember exactly what happened as I realized I wasn't in my room.

'Adrian and I got married. I am a wife now and not just any wife but his wife. I feel like the happiest person on earth right now. How long have I been asleep? Where am I ?' My mind wondered off and I had so many questions about what happened after I fell asleep.

I put my hand on the bed trying to get up when I felt a hand on my waist holding me down. I looked down and saw him sleeping so soundly underneath me. I was sleeping half on him and half on the bed. I can't believe I snuggled into him thinking he was a pillow. I try to get up slowly as not wake but when I moved he opened his eyes and stared at me.

I froze, my whole body tensed and I held my breath. He looked directly into my eyes, his eyes ever softly gentle with love written all over them. He smiled at me and I blushed and looked away, I can't maintain eye contact with him without blushing and I am sure now my cheeks have turned red.

He took hold of my jaw and made me face him " what's wrong, why can't my wife look at me ? Am I not handsome enough ?" He asked with a smile on his face but before I could even answer him he flipped us and changed our position. He was on top of me and I could feel the blood rushing to my face. I tried to hide my face in my hands but he took my hands and held them above my head.

I didn't know what to do now, he held both my hands in one hands while his other hand reached out to cheek. He gently rubbed his thumb on my cheek making me blush. I wanted so badly for the earth to open up and swallow me whole.

"Are you blushing ?" He asked with a knowing smirk on his. I wanted him to let me go but a part of me refused to let me tell him to let me go. I could feel the heat radiating from his body which sent shivers down my spine. My whole body was reacting to his and was also heating up. I waited in anticipation of what he planned to do to me and blushed at nasty thought that crossed my mind.

He leaned in on me and I instinctively closed my eyes and before I knew it he was kissing. The kissed me gently but firmly and I could hear my heart beat increasing immensely. The kiss became more demanding by the minute, he demanded entrance with his tongue and I allowed him losing my mind in the kiss. He kissed me so passionately and with so much love. He squeezed my waist gently with his free hand explored every corner of my mouth. I was so lost in the kiss that I let him do whatever he wanted.

I felt his dominance on top of me and I shuddered when I saw the lust in his eyes. He gave me a look that said 'I need you'. I didn't know if I was ready for what he was asking for with eyes but I also didn't want to say no. The look in eyes became intense and he kissed me again.

This is what happens when a girl gets married, its normal so I should relax and let him go ahead but why do I suddenly feel scared. I have waited for this moment my whole life but why am I suddenly hesitant. I knew this day would come but I didn't think it would happen so soon. I haven't even prepared myself mentally for what is about to happen.

I tried to convince myself however much I could but my mind and heart will have none if it. My whole body started trembling with fear of what might happen. This is all very new to me and I can't help but be fearful. He pulled back from the kiss and looked at me with a look that I could not understand, his face showed so many emotions at the same time. My heart was beating loudly in chest that I am sure that Adrian can hear every single beat.

He let go of my hand and sat up on the bed, he did not say anything nor looked at me. 'Did I do something wrong? Was the kiss that bad? Did I offend him by not not giving consent to his request? Does he hate me? Are the questions that crisscrossed my mind when he sat there so silently. I couldn't endure the silence after what felt like forever but in reality only a few minutes had passed.

"Are you mad?" I asked while playing with my fingers as I didn't have the courage to look at him.

"No, I was just thinking about something."

"What were you thinking about?" I asked him finally looking at him.

"Can I ask you a question ?" He asked taking my hands in his, I nod my head while trying not to tell him that he has already asked me a question. "Have you ever done this before ?"

I looked at him confused as I could not understand what he was asking me. What is he referring to, he is going to have to be more specific if wants me to understand what he is talking about.

"I mean to ask you if you have ever been with a man before." He elaborated as if reading my mind. My entire body froze when he asked me that question. What should I say, should I tell him the truth or lie. What if he thinks that I am no fun when I tell him the truth, that I have never ever been in a relationship with anyone. What if I tell him a lie and he thinks I am cheap.

I didn't know what to do, no matter what I say he will end up judging me. What if he regrets marrying me after I give him an answer then what will I do. I think that it will be better if I lie, men love women with experience so I shouldn't tell him the truth.

"Y-yes,"I said stuttering. I looked down nervously waiting for his reaction when he burst out laughing. Did I say something funny, why the hell is he laughing at me.

"Has anyone ever told you that you look cute when you lie,"he paused and moved closer to me "tell me the truth before I punish you." He said with a sinister look in his eyes that made a shiver ran down my spine and my body trembled much more than before.