Wishing for a healthy relationship is nearly impossible when nowadays, everyone has to deal with some kind of mental illness. The romanticization of mental health problems and toxic relationships in books is questionable, but so are perfect "Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.
rk, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.
r parents, they would lock her up in the house, giving her an entertainment thing, a TV. Her parents didn't have enough money to rent a nanny. With her mother's help, she had to learn how to take care of herself.
She was taught how to heat food in the microwave, but due to her laziness and impatience, she always ate the cold food straight from the fridge.
When her parents returned from work, their daughter would already be deep asleep.
With the thought that her parents were hardworking and kind people, Bing Shi was very grateful. How could she not? They Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.
He was a good man who loved his family. There were times when he would get drunk. Her mother always told her to treasure herself, never let anybody hurt her, which would make her look at her mother doubtfully.
The little girl didn't understand why her mother loved her father despite him hurting her mother all the time. Her mother put theHer mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.
To calm him down, Bing Shi had to put him in front of the TV. Because of this little creatuHer mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.
she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.
, she didn't remember it.)
After two years, her parents got her a second brother. Having more money now, they sent both of her brothers to the nanny. Bing Shi could finally be free at her home. She got her first PC and a mobile phone when she was ten.Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.
rs, who didn't need a nanny anymore, according to her parents. They thought every child was like their daughter.
That's when Bing Shi started to hate children and her parents. Why were they giving her new brothers? She hated them! She wanted to be alonHer mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left forHer mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.
nd tell them how you could clean the house, all by yourself! They would be so proud to have such good boys as Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.
ing her brothers how to do housework! Her parents never saw how Bing Shi took care of her brothers, never saw how she shouted at them, and how many times she made them cry. They always saw a finished product of two obedient boys.
From that day onwards, Bing Shi, from her observation, didn't shout at people and didn't beat them, as it seemed like to make everything worse. It was like she put every person into the role of a kid, starting to treat every person like that. Smiling, laughing, praising, and teaching things she knew.
She wasn't acting at all. It became a part of her personality, which was engraved inside her mind due to her experienHer mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.
gnored her pleads, "You were such a good girl! When did you become a cheater?!" He had to teach her a lesson so it won't happen again!
"... No, please... I'm sorry... I...ugh..." Bing Shi crouched in the corner and continued to sob; she gave up, her emotions were full of hatred. She started to hate everyone. She started to hate this world.
░I hate you.░
░Stop hurting me.░Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.
rew the broken broom at the trembling girl.
The hatred was gone; Bing Shi went numb. She lifted her head, and with her lifeless eyes, she looked at her mother for the last time, looking for hope.
░Hey, why are you looking at me with that gaze?░Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.
░Seems like you are disappointed in me too.░
░Do you just want a perfect daughter who doesn't make mistakes? I'll give you a daughter who doesn't make mistakes.░
But who didn't make mistakes?
From that day onwards, Bing Shi stopped caring about her parents; she cared only about herself.Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.
░It's too late.░
Since that day, Bing Shi never hugged anyone. Wait, she never gave a hug to anyone before, not even her parents. That's how much she treasured herself. She gave her hug to him — the only person who was worthy of her.
Their first meeting was in an online game. He was 11; she was 13.Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."
Bing Shi listened well.
Their first real-life meeting was when he was 17, and she was 19.
He couldn't even touch her hand until he turned 22, and she 24.