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Wishing for a healthy relationship is nearly impossible when nowadays, everyone has to deal with some kind of mental illness. The romanticization of mental health problems and toxic relationships in books is questionable, but so are perfect "ras she started school, she would go home right after, feeling unsafe outside.

About her father...

He was a good man who loved his family. There were times when he would get drunk. Her mother always told her to treasure herself, never let anybody hurt her, which would make her look at her mother doubtfully.

The little girl didn't understand why her mother loved her father despite him hurting her mother all the time. Her mother put the blame on the alcohol and Bing Shi was always an observant girl.

░~ Alcohol is bad. Drunk people will hurt you.░

Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a naardworking and kind people, Bing Shi was very grateful. How could she not? They worked so hard for her good being. For her future.

She learned how to entertain herself. She didn't see anything wrong with being alone. She liked it, or more like; she got used to it so much that whenever she wasn't alone, she would get anxious. Bing Shi grew up with the mindset that her house was the safest place. So as soon as she started school, she would go home right after, feeling unsafe outside.

About her father...

He was a good man who loved his family. There were times when he would get drunk. Her mother always told her to treasure herself, never let anybody hurt her, which would make her look at her mother doubtfully.

The little girl didn't understand why her mother loved her father despite him hurting her mother all the time. Her mother put the blame on the alcohol and Bing Shi was always an observant girl.

░~ Alcohol is bad. Drunk people will hurt you.░

Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a nanny for both kids. Yet, Bing Shi couldn't get used to it — she wanted to play alone. Her parents could only approve of their daughter. Such a good girl, trying to save their money, they thought. They never noticed that something was wrong until it as she started school, she would go home right after, feeling unsafe outside.

About her father...

He was a good man who loved his family. There were times when he would get drunk. Her mother always told her to treasure herself, never let anybody hurt her, which would make her look at her mother doubtfully.

The little girl didn't understand why her mother loved her father despite him hurting her mother all the time. Her mother put the blame on the alcohol and Bing Shi was always an observant girl.

░~ Alcohol is bad. Drunk people will hurt you.░

Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a na't watch her favorite series anymore.

When it was his potty time, she didn't want to wipe his butt and taught him how to clean himself by words, which ended in a disaster. Taking him into a shower, the annoyed Bing Shi held the showerhead and taught him how to clean himself. Her words were humiliating and harsh, resulting in her brother crying out las she started school, she would go home right after, feeling unsafe outside.

About her father...

He was a good man who loved his family. There were times when he would get drunk. Her mother always told her to treasure herself, never let anybody hurt her, which would make her look at her mother doubtfully.

The little girl didn't understand why her mother loved her father despite him hurting her mother all the time. Her mother put the blame on the alcohol and Bing Shi was always an observant girl.

░~ Alcohol is bad. Drunk people will hurt you.░

Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a nake care of her brothers, who didn't need a nanny anymore, according to her parents. They thought every child was like their daughter.

That's when Bing Shi started to hate children and her parents. Why were they giving her new brothers? She hated them! She wanted to be alone and play on her computer all day!

░Why are they so loud?░

░Why are they so messy?!░

She had to clean up after her brothers every time! She taught herself how to do housework, so her parents could always come back to a clean house. Organizing her living space calmed her down and she also liked to be praised. But those two brats were walking trash bins!

Her calmness and patience disappeared. One time she had enough and showed her brother away. Her brother fell on his buttock and started to bawl his lungs out. The shocked Bing Shi regretted her action. She immediately apologized, begging him not to tell her parents.as she started school, she would go home right after, feeling unsafe outside.

About her father...

He was a good man who loved his family. There were times when he would get drunk. Her mother always told her to treasure herself, never let anybody hurt her, which would make her look at her mother doubtfully.

The little girl didn't understand why her mother loved her father despite him hurting her mother all the time. Her mother put the blame on the alcohol and Bing Shi was always an observant girl.

░~ Alcohol is bad. Drunk people will hurt you.░

Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a nament. Not often was it for their sister to praise them.

Her parents didn't let Bing Shi cook, afraid that she would burn herself. One of the better decisions her parents made. It would be bad if she suddenly tried to teach her brothers how to cook.

When she showed off the pictures to her parents, they praised their sons. And they were even prouder of their daughter for teaching her brothers how to do housework! Her parents never saw how Bing Shi took care of her brothers, never saw how she shouted at them, and how many times she made them cry. They always saw a finished product of two obedient boys.

From that day onwards, Bing Shi, from her observation, didn't shout at people and didn't beat them, as it seemed like to make everything worse. It was like she put every person into the role of a kid, starting to treat every person like that. Smiling, laughing, praising, and teaching thingsas she started school, she would go home right after, feeling unsafe outside.

About her father...

He was a good man who loved his family. There were times when he would get drunk. Her mother always told her to treasure herself, never let anybody hurt her, which would make her look at her mother doubtfully.

The little girl didn't understand why her mother loved her father despite him hurting her mother all the time. Her mother put the blame on the alcohol and Bing Shi was always an observant girl.

░~ Alcohol is bad. Drunk people will hurt you.░

Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a na

Her father cornered her into a corner of a room, raising his hand, which was holding a broom; he started to hit her plump body. Bing Shi's face was full of terror, she shouted at him to stop, she pleaded him to stop, begging for forgiveness, but he never listened to her. He was so occupied by disappointment that he ignored her pleads, "You were such a good girl! When did you become a cheater?!" He had to teach her a lesson so it won't happen again!

"... No, please... I'm sorry... I...ugh..." Bing Shi crouched in the corner and continued to sob; she gave up, her emotions were full of hatred. She started to hate everyone. She started to hate this world.

░I hate you.░

░Stop hurting me.░

Bing Shi got traumatized for life.

░~See? That's what happens when you listen to your desires and your heart; bad things has she started school, she would go home right after, feeling unsafe outside.

About her father...

He was a good man who loved his family. There were times when he would get drunk. Her mother always told her to treasure herself, never let anybody hurt her, which would make her look at her mother doubtfully.

The little girl didn't understand why her mother loved her father despite him hurting her mother all the time. Her mother put the blame on the alcohol and Bing Shi was always an observant girl.

░~ Alcohol is bad. Drunk people will hurt you.░

Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a nar mother for the last time, looking for hope.

░Hey, why are you looking at me with that gaze?░

░When he hurt you, I would always come to your rescue.░

░But when it's your turn to protect me, you just watch and cry?░

░Seems like you are disappointed in me too.░

░Do you just want a perfect daughter who doesn't make mistakes? I'll give you a daughter who doesn't make mistakes.░

But who didn't make mistakes?

From that day onwards, Bing Shi stopped caring about her parents; she cared only about herself.

Her parents made the same mistake as Bing Shi when she pushed her brother away. Just, her parent's way was much more brutal and severe. A small example of how one wrong move could change a whole person's life.

░~ You have to learn from other people's mistakes, so you don't make mistakes yourself.░

Her grades went up, but her parents ended up crying, always looking at her with eyes full of regret. Theyas she started school, she would go home right after, feeling unsafe outside.

About her father...

He was a good man who loved his family. There were times when he would get drunk. Her mother always told her to treasure herself, never let anybody hurt her, which would make her look at her mother doubtfully.

The little girl didn't understand why her mother loved her father despite him hurting her mother all the time. Her mother put the blame on the alcohol and Bing Shi was always an observant girl.

░~ Alcohol is bad. Drunk people will hurt you.░

Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a na

They cried even more.

░It's too late.░

Since that day, Bing Shi never hugged anyone. Wait, she never gave a hug to aas she started school, she would go home right after, feeling unsafe outside.

About her father...

He was a good man who loved his family. There were times when he would get drunk. Her mother always told her to treasure herself, never let anybody hurt her, which would make her look at her mother doubtfully.

The little girl didn't understand why her mother loved her father despite him hurting her mother all the time. Her mother put the blame on the alcohol and Bing Shi was always an observant girl.

░~ Alcohol is bad. Drunk people will hurt you.░

Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a naer all the time. Her mother put the blame on the alcohol and Bing Shi was always an observant girl.

░~ Alcohol is bad. Drunk people will hurt you.░

Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a na

He couldn't even touch her hand until he turned 22, and she 24.