Wishing for a healthy relationship is nearly impossible when nowadays, everyone has to deal with some kind of mental illness. The romanticization of mental health problems and toxic relationships in books is questionable, but so are perfect "rainbow and unicorn" relationships that set our expectations too high. Simple love can't 'fix' the problem, it can help, but it's not a cure for everything...
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ything wrong with being alone. She liked it, or more like; she got used to it so much that whenever she wasn't alone, she would get anxious. Bing Shi grew up with the mindset that her house was the safest place. So as soon as she started school, she would go home right after, feeling unsafe outside.
About her father...
He was a good man who loved his family. There were times when he would get drunk. Her mother always told her to treasure herself, never let anybody hurt her, which would make her look at her mother doubtfully.
The little girl didn't understand why her
Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a nanny for both kids. Yet, Bing Shi couldn't get used to it — she wanted to play alone. Her parents could only approve of their daughter. Such a good girl, trying to save their money, they thought. They never noticed that something was wrong until it was too late.
Her parents sent her brother to the nanny's house until he reached the age when he could use the toilet alone. Bing Shi was spared of the things, called diapers. Her parents were still inexperienced and thought that her behavior was normal. She made them feeHer calmness and patience disappeared. One time she had enough and showed her brother away. Her brother fell on his buttock and started to bawl his lungs out. The shocked Bing Shi regretted her action. She immediately apologized, begging hiHer calmness and patience disappeared. One time she had enough and showed her brother away. Her brother fell on his buttock and started to bawl his lungs out. The shocked Bing Shi regretted her action. She immediately apologized, begging him not to tell her parents.
Bing Shi, as a four years old child, was well protected. After being picked up from a kindergarten by one of her parents, they would lock her up in the house, giving her an entertainment thing, a TV. Her parents didn't have enough money to rent a nanny. With her mother's help, she had to learn how to take care of herself.
She was taught how to heat food in the microwave, but durents and tell them how you could clean the house, all by yourself! They would be
Bing Shi, as a four years old child, was well protected. After being picked up from a kindergarten by one of her parents, they would lock her up in the house, giving her an entertainment thing, a TV. Her parents didn't have enough money to rent a nanny. With her mother's help, she had to learn how to take care of herself.
She was taught how to heat food in the microwave, but durents and tell them how you could clean the house, all by yourself! They would be
Her calmness and patience disappeared. One time she had enough and showed her brother away. Her brother fell on his buttock and started to bawl his lungs out. The shocked Bing Shi regretted her action. She immediately apologized, begging him not to tell her parents.
Due to her long persuasing, her brother didn't tell anybody until now, or more likely, he just forgot about it.
Having enough, Bing Shi learned how to trick them. Starting small, she would take a photo of a messy living room room and showed them the picture.
"You see how messy the room is? Can you turn it clean again? I'll take a before and after picture. Later, I'll show it to our parents and tell them how you could clean the house, all by yourself! They would be so proud to have such good boys as their sons!" She encouraged them with a wide smile.
Her brothers agreed happily. The before and after result of their hard work gave them a sense of achievement. Not often was it for their sister to praise them.
Her parents didn't let Bing Shi cook, afraid that she would burn herself. One of the better decisions her parents made. It would be bad if she suddenly tried to teach her brothers how to cook.
When she showed off the pictures to her parents, they praised their sons. And they were even prouder of their daughter for teaching her brothers how to do housework! Her parents never saw how Bing Shi took care of her brothers, never saw how she shouted at them, and how many times she made them cry. They always saw a finished product of two obedient boys.
From that day onwards, Bing Shi, from her observation, didn't shout at people and didn't beat them, as it seemed like to make everything worse. It was like she put every person into the role of a kid, starting to treat every person like that. Smiling, laughing, praising, and teaching things she knew.
She wasn't acting at all. It became a part of her personality, which was engraved inside her mind due to her experiences in her childhood. And it worked perfectly for her.
She enjoyed playing games, the only place she coHer calmness and patience disappeared. One time she had enough and showed her brother away. Her brother fell on his buttock and started to bawl his lungs out. The shocked Bing Shi regretted her action. She immediately apologized, begging him not to tell her parents.
Bing Shi, as a four years old child, was well protected. After being picked up from a kindergarten by one of her parents, they would lock her up in the house, giving her an entertainment thing, a TV. Her parents didn't have enough money to rent a nanny. With her mother's help, she had to learn how to take care of herself.
She was taught how to heat food in the microwave, but durents and tell them how you could clean the house, all by yourself! They would beads, "You were such a good girl! When did you become a cheater?!" He had to teach her a lesson so it won't happen again!
"... No, please... I'm sorry... I...ugh..." Bing Shi crouched in the corner and continued to sob; she gave up, her emotions were full of hatred. She started to hate everyone. She started to hate this world.
░I hate you.░
░Stop hurting me.░
Bing Shi got traumatized for life.
░~See? That's what Her calmness and patience disappeared. One time she had enough and showed her brother away. Her brother fell on his buttock and started to bawl his lungs out. The shocked Bing Shi regretted her action. She immediately apologized, begging him not to tell her parents.
Bing Shi, as a four years old child, was well protected. After being picked up from a kindergarten by one of her parents, they would lock her up in the house, giving her an entertainment thing, a TV. Her parents didn't have enough money to rent a nanny. With her mother's help, she had to learn how to take care of herself.
She was taught how to heat food in the mic. "Sorry, I don't like to touch and hug," said Bing Shi, not hidding the revulsion in her expression.
░Don't touch me. You are not worthy.░
They cried even more.Her calmness and patience disappeared. One time she had enough and showed her brother away. Her brother fell on his buttock and started to bawl his lungs out. The shocked Bing Shi regretted her action. She immediately apologized, begging him not to tell her parents.
Bing Shi, as a four years old child, was well protected. After being picked up from a kindergarten by one of her parents, they would lock her up in the house, giving her an entertainment thing, a TV. Her parents didn't have enough money to rent a nanny. With her mother's help, she had to learn how to take care of herself.
She was taught how to heat food in the microwave, but durents and tell them how you could clean the house, all by yourself! They would be