sleep

(Guys i feel really unmotivated and just tired of life so im sorry if this chapter is boring but ill still try my best)

Ah it was already lunch break. The teachers were kind of mad for me but as i am new in the class they didnt take it too seriously. For my advantage they messaged my mom who was alreay now probaly drunk or with some random dude again.. hah Good for me.

Its not like i hated my mom she has always been there for me she just... gets a bit mad sometimes but thats only if i do stuff wrong so i shouldnt blame her its my fault afterall.

I think.. that she has some problems... she usually drinks way too much in the eveing and thats when she gets mad at me. I dont blame her though everyone doesnt have as much money and good circumstances to actually live a good life. I still love her She cant control the thing she does when shes drunk. I should just try to stay out of the way.

I was once again finding my way to the cafeteria with my quiet foot steps echoing bit in the hallway. There was nobody here as expected since ive been waiting in the bathroom for everyone to finish and leave nowadays. Its the only way to stay out of the way.

I always feel that im at the wrong place in a wrong time. That everyone is staring at me... and i wasnt even sure how to react if someone talked to me. Ive become very afraid of saying something wrong. Ive always felt this pressure to get people to like me since that moment. I could say i always try to be funny but in reality im just this annoying boy who chuckles with a weird smile to everything anyone says to be liked but it was just making me not sure how i was supposed to react. i think i get jealous easily so i try to be better than others.. but what am i afterall. i shouldnt even think like that because its not gonna happen I really have tried my best ... i really try to be kind and....oh well

The cafeteria atleast should be empty now so i could eat without interruptions. My stomach was already growling as i sighed at the familiar feeling.

I stepped into the cafeteria where i was met by a calm silence as i gathered a platter and a phew things in my hands. I hesitantly lifted some salad to fil my plate. that has been mostly my diet for the last few days hah. i lifted my eyebrows a bit for the thought.

"ah just one last thing" I almost left until i realised i forgot my water. I placed the glass cup on the drain and poured some water in it. Finally i dragged myself to the small table in the left corner of the big gym room filled with tables. Still holding my platter i placed it down on the table and sat on the seat infront of it. There was a huge window right on the left of the table. Thats why i liked this place the most.

"Its really pretty" I thought by myself. i saw the wind blowing trough the trees flowing against the blue sky. there was heared some birds chirping trough the glass to jimins side. The cafeteria was on the 4:th floor so jimin could see the outside clearly from up there. The sky was clear bright blue with only a few round fuzzy clouds up there. even a small nest was in one of the braches of the dark green tree outside.

ugh. i winced to myself as i brang my face away from the window. My tummy was already making noises in the empty room. I wasnt sure if i should really eat this...i mean it wasnt much calories like... 170? approcimately. but it was to me...i mean its not that much but it would kinda ruin my workout for today. well.. i guess i could just workout a bit more because my stomack is literally killing me.

I raised the fork in my hand while i placed some salad on top of it. I lifted the fork to the level of my mouth and forced it in. I started to slowly chew it while i was cutting the already small salad leaves on my plate smaller that theyll digest even easier. It felt bad. the feeling of the food going down my throat. i felt it go all the way down my throat to my abdomen and finally digesting to my stomach. it felt uncmfortable feeling the food in a long time even though i had eaten but not this much in a while. i Hated it. My mind was telling me to stop but i knew i had to eat a bit just because i dont want to die... i just want to be skinny...y-yeah...

I continued swallowing my food in complete silence only hearing myself gulping down the food while admiring the outside.

Hm i should but some music on

I placed my hand in the my deep pockets of my jeans and finally pulled out some airpods what i had bought from the money from my work. I lifted the phone up on the level of my head for it to recodnize my face so i could get it open. I inserted the airpods in my ears while opening spotify on my phone. I searched trough my playlist named "yeet". There were countless songs since listening to music while i was laying on my bed trying to sleep was kinda my hobby haha. Just to clear my mind as it felt peacefull .

"Oh this is good!" I finally found the song what i had been searching my finger shivering on top of the screen. finally i pressed the song named " If you (cover by Jungkook)"

I sligtly adjusted the airpods so that i can hear the music better what had just started to flow trough my ears. I really loved the song. It gave me vibes that " everythings okay" and well it was a very chill song what you can relax to. thats why i liked it. I was just vibing to the music flowing a bit back and fourth on my bench while listening to the song and finishing the last bit of the salad i had on my plate.

Wow that was actually good. Its not that bad since the song atleast calmed me down a bit but i think its okay to eat salad maybe.

I pulled my phone what was laying on the table beside my platter to my hand and opened it once again but now i was too lazy to use my face so i just scanned my finger print and shutted the song what i was listening to.

Okay just my water anymore" i was kind of full already but i was thirsty and water for gods sake didnt have any calories. glad for that! I gulped my water down my throat and dried my mouth a bit with the paper on my right hand. so thats done now i guess i can leave.

I stood up from the chair and picked up my latter with all the garments on it and swiped trough my hair with my fingers. i guess it was from habit.

wait.... Shit why do i feel dissy?..My platter fell out of my hand to the floor. the glass scrambled sending the shives of class sliding trough the floor. I almost trembled back to my seat but just ended up on the floor. ouch my head started hurting. I pulled my self into a fetal position.

"no no i c-cant stay here" my hair was all over my face and my eyes started slowing down. The blinks were long now and i started feeling the fog coming trough my body.

"W-wai-t who i-is it?"

i heared footsteps coming my way. N-no i cant sleep here fuck who is thats coming toward me. i have to get out of here! i was trying to drag and crawl mysef rapidly out but i was in reality going so slow. Ugh i c-cant a-nymore i need to...

third person pov:

Jimin had drifted to sleep on the center of the gym.

unknown: "lets get you out of here"

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Im sorry for the crappy writing on this chapter haha. but i hope you enjoy it though.

anyway do you prefer that i write about jimin with ( I and me) or (He and jimin)?

for the next chapter... lmao its gonna be a mess just warning. but ill warn u on the start of the next chapter since i dont know what im gonna even do with the story line yet lol.

anyway. tell me what you think! thank for reading this chapter!

edit: Okay! next chapter is going to be (he and jimin) pronouns.